your great news
is my worst news
now I know our paths
will never cross again
to hope is no longer an option
to move on is something I must do
goodbye.
Jul 24, 2020
Jul 24, 2020 at 12:05 PM UTC
As you appeared in my dreams
I wrapped my arms around you
with eyes filled with tears.
I slowly whisper to you:
"I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you back then."
Without you saying anything
you wrapped your arms around me,
and I felt your warmth for once.
I wish this weren't a dream.
Jul 8, 2020
Jul 8, 2020 at 10:30 PM UTC
Golden boy,
I wanted to tell you the truth
Something I should’ve said a long time ago
What my past self really wanted to say to you:
I like you too
I want to be with you too
you’re my best friend after all
I feel happy when I’m with you
I like feeling close to you
I want to feel that spark again,
but only with you.
Yes, me too.
May 1, 2020
May 1, 2020 at 1:21 AM UTC
I decided to take the slow lane
Wake up earlier,
Sleep earlier,
Spend less money
Spend more time with my family,
Pray every day,
Be thankful for the little things,
And slowly step back
to start again
Aug 30, 2019
Aug 30, 2019 at 10:01 PM UTC
Mysterious but not a prince
To think I saw you as the pure one
I really was blinded by my illusions
But I always thought it was me
I was wrong,
It was you all along
You enjoyed torturing me
I was your puppet
I ended getting burn
when I said I wouldn't
You laughed as I cried
Was I nothing to you?
Why did you approach me that night?
You ruined everything since then
I won't dare
let you come my way anymore
I prefer to walk alone,
Than to walk with a
mysterious monster.
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 3:20 AM UTC
*• ° * • ° * • ° * • ° * • ° * • ° *• °
She sleeps late at night,
Hoping he'd be awake for her
*• ° * • ° * • ° * • ° * • ° * • ° *• °
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 5:31 PM UTC
To think you were actually looking for yourself
How stupid can I get?
I kept thinking we were the same
but we’re not
you are someone else
and I am glad I’m not you
you will always be a mystery
but I’m growing tired of trying to solve you
I’m no longer going to play with fire
I don’t want to get burned for you
I will make sure you won’t come my way anymore
You never did to begin with
I’m going to look for the person in the mirror
and make sure that she finds herself
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 12:22 AM UTC
My friend,
How much I love you
and care for you
You’ve been with me
through my ups
and my downs
I’m afraid to expose my dark side
And so are you
So we just laugh together
It’s not that you don’t trust me
It’s that you’re afraid of my reaction
It’s not that I don’t trust you
It’s that I’m afraid of being judged
We who have been friends for years,
cannot express what hurts us the most
And because we both know
how damaged we are
We smile and accept one another
You are a true friend
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 8:27 PM UTC
Let me breakdown
the breakdown
The mind is consumed
You start seeing black and white
your body loses balance
your eyes are filled with tears
your nose is blocked
your throat feels tight
you ask yourself
"Why can't I fight?"
You feel pathetic as you fall to the ground
but have no will to get back up
You scream in agony
hoping to be saved
You either want to stay in the dark
or pray to see a spark
Time has passed
and you lay there
Like shattered glass
Not really sure what to do next
you realize that nothing has changed
So you get up
and go back to your daily parade
Slowly you tell yourself
"I don't want to go through that again."
And hope to sleep before past ten
The breakdown does not end there
This is what I'll share:
The rest is up to you and me
Hold my hand,
and together we'll break free
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 4:42 PM UTC
I don’t even know where to begin
My body trembles as I write about it
I have given up on everything
I have ******* myself over
Everyone has moved away from me
All doors are no longer welcoming
I’ve locked mine up
I only see through my window
I wonder how life would’ve been
If I tried harder and took a risk
All I ever do is wonder and regret
It’s the same every morning
Same routine
Same thoughts.
I can’t do this anymore
I want a miracle
I want to try
I want to be happy
But
I’m stuck
I can’t get out
I just can’t
I love seeing those I care about be happy
I just wish they can see me be happy too
The year is almost over
The season has changed
I’m still the same
I’m overwhelmed, tired
and exhausted
of nothing
I don’t want to be here anymore
Sometimes I feel like leaving
Other days I hope to get past it
When will I get past it?
I don’t want to be lonely anymore
I’m tired of not loving myself
I don’t know how to fix it
I want to move forward
I don’t want to stay stuck in the past
But I’ve given up
I’m no longer trying
I’m no longer motivated
I have no goals
Should I just disappear?
I don’t think it will affect anyone
I’ll be out of the way
They will get over it
And I’m fine with that
I don’t consider myself a good person
It makes sense as to why I deserve this
So death,
will you accept me?
I feel like my life no longer has meaning
I want to go
Take my pain
Take me
I don’t care anymore.
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 8:24 PM UTC