hide myself in my home territory
my castle, palace, defending me from outside threats
bury my sadness beneath friendly banter
inside jokes, my family i made in this virtual space
but the one i long for isn't here anymore-
"sorry, our princess in in another castle"
someone i can tell secrets to, someone i can be real with
let go of the mask of comedian and spill an ocean of tears
and the cracks in the foundations and walls are showing through.
everyone is broken here, hiding their sadness with laughter
we're supposed to be a family,
but we can't show weakness to each other
dms are always open, we say
but once we spill just a single bucket of that ocean
everything online can be screenshotted.
May 7, 2021
May 7, 2021 at 4:05 AM UTC
youre here but youre not
im not lonely but im alone
this is the best i can get
i can see your smile, your eyes
your beautiful appearance
but its still not enough
i want you here in my arms
the country borders that separate us
this facetime call
its not close enough
Mar 22, 2021
Mar 22, 2021 at 7:19 AM UTC
its cold outside and i can't sleep because of you
keep me addicted to my phone, lonely but not alone
its 2am for me, because of these **** timezones
letters against a bright screen, squint my eyes against the light
my eyes are burning, i think im slowly going blind
hopeful messages promising to one day meet up
slip that engagement ring onto your finger, a binding promise
to find you, see you, kiss you, hold you in my arms, in person
not knowing if the other is perfect
~risking ruining your perception of me
because here behind my screen you think i'm everything
~but im bound to disappoint you like i always do
i want to marry someone ive never met
~is this something i'm going to regret?
Mar 22, 2021
Mar 22, 2021 at 6:59 AM UTC
i used to breathe you in like the air i needed to survive
now that you've left, i never got used to breathing normal oxygen
so i put on this mask
to filter the air
so i can breathe independently
and muffle the sobs and screams in white fibrous fabric
Feb 6, 2021
Feb 6, 2021 at 3:25 AM UTC
i wish the world was still an adventure
step through the portal, in search of new worlds
to make fresh memories with old friends
now i stare at the treasures ive collected over the years
rusted and broken, clockwork falling apart, blade dull
legacy of once glorious days.
Feb 6, 2021
Feb 6, 2021 at 3:13 AM UTC
I'm not melodramatic,
I'm just pragmatic
beyond any
reasoning
for thinking I've
got ******* rabies,
or something.
I think this time
i'm dying.
I think i've
lost my mind.
Blurring the fact and the fiction
Whilst simultaneously
fixing
myself up
with a girl
named panadol
Bite the tablet, elixir
Disintergrate
Mouth's a mixer
I think this time
i'm dying.
Saline solution
to all your
problems.
Jan 8, 2021
Jan 8, 2021 at 1:21 AM UTC
Instead of choosing wings to soar through the sky
We chose our hands, together, intertwined
We are still so fascinated by the sky
Why is simply dreaming considered such a crime?
The summer watches autumn from a distance
And I imagine what its appearance may be
Is it full of admiration, full of love?
I realize that our future is impossible
Summer rains drizzle water droplets everywhere
Sunbeams filter through the leaves, named komorebi
So many years before you introduced your name,
Was it really you? I question to this day.
Today is once in a millennium, when gravity falls asleep
Let's stand in the sun's blind spot and leave planet earth behind
We'll aim for a place where it can't reach us, when it opens its eyes
On three, let's stamp our feet and float away from here
Let's go
Ikou
Let's go
Hearts that are frozen in winter bring the summer close
In the midst of this dizzy scene, you're the only one who slows
Since meeting you that day, my nightmares disappear
I waited tied by gravity, now let's make it real
Today is once in a millennium, when gravity falls asleep
Jumping to the sound of fireworks, let's fly out of here
We'll aim for a place where it can't reach us, when it opens its eyes
On three, let's stamp our feet and float away from here
Let's go
Ikou
Let's go
Just a bit farther beyond destiny
Just a bit after civilization (Let's go!)
Just a little bit farther beyond destiny
Just a little bit farther,
So let's go
We'll hoist these sails, filled with our dreams
Crossing the night for the day we await
Fulfil this with nothing but our hopes and fantasies
Put our arms around each other, we'll make it work somehow
It doesn't mean, we're not afraid,
but this is unstoppable
Although we tried, to save the day,
but this isn’t worth it all
Our love says, — a voice speaks,
It says to- "Just go!"
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 7:25 AM UTC
you were
iridescent
like a diamond
your lustre,
the fire inside you
brilliant
in every aspect, facet
i thought so too,
and believed i was nothing
compared to you
no spark or shine
just endless night
inside the depths
of a black coloured gem
an onyx to a diamond,
which is worth more?
your life or mine?
in the end, it was yours
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 4:10 AM UTC
Covering the scars splayed across your fingers,
Reminder, of names, sketches, all written down
Just as permanent as the wounds they cover
The only difference is that they're a little bit prettier
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 2:37 AM UTC
electricity!
you harnessed me,
caged me, running inside copper wires
made me do your bidding
enslaved me as the bringer of energy
you caught me,
dragged me up from the depths
coal-black, the liquid gold of oil
light from the nuclear furnace in the sky
ever-changing, shifting tides
electricity!
i make light for you,
drive giant machines, power countless engines
i am the foundation on which your entire world is built-
but i can also ****
you may have intentions, a task for me to do
i have intentions too.
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 4:45 AM UTC