standing at the shore
with the ocean waves
clarity comes and moves away
sometimes
smaller, calmer
washing the mud between my toes
some days
rouge
destroying my sand castles of contentment
leaving me soaked up in more muddle
and on rare days, it brings me shiny pebbles and sea shells, clear enough that I can see my face
pulled and pushed by the moon
that is my heart
new and full at times
I feel it with the spring tides
I try
to hold on
but like the sand on the shore
clarity slips through my fingers
no matter how hard i try and cling on to it
maybe that's the beauty of it
that it demands to be redefined everytime
Jun 7, 2021
Jun 7, 2021 at 2:27 PM UTC
everything that brings me solace ends up suffocating me
my home, my body, my mind, my love and my solitude
with no deadlines, no where to go and no where to be
it's hard to escape the lies you tell yourself
these walls are collapsing on me
it's hard to run away from your thoughts when you are locked down in your house
the if onlys,
the promises you made to yourselves when time was slipping though your fingers
comes haunting you back when you have all the time in the world
but i'm learning
with the world falling part it's just another first world problems
but i'm learning
finding new favorite corners
watering my mother's plants
i'm learning
to be grateful
learning
to live in my father's house
and with myself
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 1:42 AM UTC
in this age of instant everything
noodles, coffee and gratification
a generation who has mastered
isolation
practicing social distancing on social media since forever
always on the run
catching trains
rarely catching any breath
you think how many would have prayed for some time for themselves
if only i had time, i'd do this, that and what not
now the world is falling apart
just to leave you with all the time you want
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 1:39 AM UTC
kiss me
lick my lips
like a popsicle
i'll paint your tongue
turn it into whatever color you want
kiss me
bite my neck
sink your teeth into my skin
leave sweet bruises
as something for me to remember you in the morning
kiss me
grab my waist
pull me, pull my hair, maybe
push me
and hold me
against you or anything
who cares
hurt me
but love me, well you can try
and tell me
you will atleast, remember my name
Sep 17, 2019
Sep 17, 2019 at 4:55 PM UTC
i was lost,
trying to find myself
somewhere in middle,
i found you
drenched and soaked in my self loathe
you were warm
i found you
you had me
but i lost you
but i have you
but then i dont
with a blink of an eye it's real
with a sigh of a breath, you are gone
like a mirage in the dessert
i saw you
i found you
i had you
but i didnt
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 9:13 AM UTC
distance between us
so close
yet we are light years apart
with galaxies between you and i
how did we get here you wonder?
what did you expect, my love?
how far could we go
with melancholy as our common ground
we had gone through this hadn't we
how you'd remember me
as the one who tried,
your sweet leaf
this monalisa smile,does it still haunt you?
tell me
will you be waiting for me on the other side?
for i wish to meet you
some other time
when i won't be just a bridge to your past
and you would learn to live with yourself
in some other land
where the eagles don't flutter
and where there will be no peacocks dancing in the rain
we can call it our heaven
where the rain brings solace and is less of a burden
but till then
I hope you write about me some
And when you do
I hope it will not be all bitter
and till then
I'll be here in this purgatory of intersection
reminiscing you through our songs
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 2:17 PM UTC
one of those days when
i am down and low
sinking into the earth beneath me
the heavy on my heart
drowning me
and you are high above
flying like kite
floating on the clouds
out of your senses, letting loose of your guards
i hope we find each other somewhere in between
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 10:06 AM UTC
//GODDESS//
my body is not a temple
not holy,not sacred
still i am a goddess
no shimmering gold
i am flesh and bones
still a goddess
you'd still worship me if i was just a stone across the road, wouldn't you?
i am
not just the
warmth of your bed
or the mother of your child
i am not saving myself for you nor am i here to save you from yourself
my skin is not blue, but i do bleed red
and
so do you
and but you are hurt and i am impure
impure. i am pure
even when i bleed from the place between my legs
so to hell with all those stone buildings i cant enter when i am bleeding so this world that the gods made wouldn't go barren
because
my body IS a temple
with or without you inside me, doesn't matter
i am still a goddess
still holy, still sacred
Dec 15, 2018
Dec 15, 2018 at 5:04 PM UTC
twenty years is a hell of a long time
yet here i am
caught up in this spiral of unrequited self love
like a hamster on a wheel.
every day it's the same story
melancholy greets me with an ugly smirk and
crawls up my leg, digs his nails on my skin
and sits on my chest
as
i lay on my back
heart heavy
my gut swings on a hoo -la-hoop
i feel sick
like i might throw up
in hopes of this being poetry
so any of this would make some sense
but metaphors have abandoned me and my misery
i can't sugarcoat this enough to make it easier
for you to gulp it down your throat
i can't romanticise this enough for this to be another of your #beautifultragedy
but like everything else
i am getting use to this too
and
now
this feels warm, warmth from the burning corpse that is my body
this feels familiar and safe, like my mother's arms
now this feels just like home, broken and wrecked
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 12:54 PM UTC
sunsets and sunrise
i look and i think to myself
how something so constant still keeps us content
then i look at you and it's the same
you do that to me everyday
you blow my mind every **** time
with your changing hues
saffron red in your veins
that orange glow of your eyes
even your scattering blues somehow keeps me on my toes
and i don't need to climb mountains and swim rivers to be mesmerized
i'll just be at the horizon, waiting for you
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 12:43 PM UTC