Impossible to sum up
how odd it was,
today.
Nothing out of the ordinary happened
except no progress was made
in the area of Love.
kind of gloomy mood today,
thinking I might meet a friend
for a movie...
the thought did cross as she was female,
you know which thought: maybe she and I...
but it crossed and left as she and I
have very different kind of personalities,
good friends maybe but nothing more.
Is it not odd how male and female
friendship is, perhaps never fully
amicable because there can be this
undercurrent of desire?
Tis a somehow sad thought,
I wonder how and why it persists...
in this social soliloquy
called life....
can't we all just merry be?
and the sky was quite a thing to see
today, not as black as always
in the night, wishing myself away
to a far freer galaxy
where strife and toil reign not indeed...
But it was just a sorrowful dream,
a requiem in this Odd, Odd Day
even though I am not yet dead.
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 2:29 AM UTC
Sitting in the dark wondering
when will I find someone
worth knowing,
worth noting.
You tell me that there are
many,
all around me and beyond,
But you lie or are mistaken
because all I see are mismatched
people to my desires.
I want to learn from this Her,
To kiss her sweet lips,
To render myself senseless
by touching her body,
To lose myself in her eyes.
But it seems that this unfeeling
Thing,
does not let me get close with
anyone,
before I find their flaws
and start pondering
how to break their heart.
It seems that I set my standards too
high,
or they have theirs too
low,
but the fact remains that
I am betrayed:
by dishonesty and cowardice,
by laziness and greed,
by stupidity and facades.
but most of all:
by the immoral,
the obsession with nothing but pleasure
with no depth.
I am a confused and lonely thing,
searching in the dark for a feeling Thing.
what is this Thing I seek?
Well dear reader,
Nothing less than a good Heart.
One to heal me,
in return for being healed,
before this hollowness becomes
a shadow and swallows me whole,
leaving nothing but a crass man,
a cruel and callous thing undeserving of
the veracity of Love.
Nov 2, 2012
Nov 2, 2012 at 3:08 AM UTC