don’t listen to me.
don’t hear what i preach.
all i know is
sorrow,
*****
blow.
don't listen to people like me.
don’t hear what we have to preach.
all we know is
lost causes,
hallow words,
empty memories.
we’re just as ****** up as you,
only we will always resort
to our pernicious truth.
you?
you will prosper.
i know,
we know,
it is evident you will.
without us.
without me.
and that -
**** that is your key.
Jan 4, 2020
Jan 4, 2020 at 2:22 AM UTC
my hair is much longer now
cascading across the pillars
encompassing what was
once you and me
and what was once
us.
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 12:08 AM UTC
i just want to feel alive
i need to feel free
but i'm so numb here
i'm so ******* empty
i'm sorry, my dear -
remember it's not your fault
Feb 13, 2017
Feb 13, 2017 at 9:47 PM UTC
I’m blinded
Walking with a hollow body
And an unconscious mind
I can’t feel anything
Yet I find myself wandering
Drifting through the emotions
That have been injected into my veins
Is there life after death?
Will I, after this life, be what others call—
Happy?
Will my dad neglect me?
Will I be abused?
Will I have scars?
Will I wreak of self-loathing?
I’m so ******* young
But I ache as if I’m an elderly man
It’s too early—
I shouldn’t feel empty
Or worthless
Or so ******* dead in my own skin
But I do
And it’s breaking me
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 9:49 PM UTC
What were you –
When your lips would part
And incoherent words
Would fall from your mouth?
Where were you –
When the sheets were tangled at my feet
While his arms were laced around my frame
And his breath smothered my thoughts?
Who were you –
When I would implore
That you open up and help me understand
The world you call your own?
How were you –
Able to let me fall from
A ledge while you stood there
Not even looking my way?
When did you realize –
That it was not me you wanted
But the mere thought of me
Which brought you to think
That you were in love?
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 10:09 PM UTC
There's smoke in my lungs
And thoughts in my head
But it all comes back
To you
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 3:51 PM UTC
Somehow, I knew
That you would eventually
Become the sole reason
That I was awake at midnight
But I never imagined
Those sleepless nights
Occurring because of
Nightmares
Where you were
Happy with someone else
Who wasn’t me
Jun 25, 2014
Jun 25, 2014 at 11:52 PM UTC
I hope she was worth
The pain you put me through
I hope she can hold you closer
Than when I wrapped my soul around you
I hope she can make you smile brighter
Than when I made you laugh
I hope she can sing to you sweeter
Than when I sung your name
I hope her words have more meaning
Than when I said “I love you - always and forever”
I hope that she never makes you feel pain
The way you claim I made you endure
I hope when you see her –
She’s all that you want to see
I hope she was worth it
I hope she was worth all the tears
That I shed for you
After you left me for her
Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 4:13 PM UTC
Your love is bittersweet
Choking flesh and binding souls
Wrenching spirits and drinking tea
Luring the innocent into the eerie shadows
Whilst feasting away on their pitiful screams
Decrepit little man, how vulnerable you must be
Laying gentle fingers on the long forgotten
And reminiscing about the damage you once sought out to destroy
Realization hitting you like concrete - all along, you were the culprit
May 25, 2014
May 25, 2014 at 3:51 PM UTC
She’s indescribable – this girl
I have troubles
Explaining her in words
That are coherent
Or eloquent
I fear that I won’t ever
Have the capability
Of writing about her
In such a way
That these words
Will even come close
To being as beautiful as her.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:04 AM UTC