i wish to not relive
a life, so lonely,
alone and stalling
without a sister
my sister
Oct 28, 2024
Oct 28, 2024 at 11:18 PM UTC
it has been a long problem of mine.
and i convince myself that there is no love wasted, i just care. but i love and care to my core, i could say i have loved you now, that easy. that fast. maybe i did, yes. this is the problem. everything i do and feel is ever-consuming, i would always be too much.
some of part of me really hoped that it was you, after avoiding and scaring off love away. but it wasn't me like it could be you, that easy and that fast.
but there is no love wasted. you have been loved specially. you have encountered love so profound in this lifetime. i hope you know that.
to the new years ahead, i am leaving you behind.
Nov 17, 2023
Nov 17, 2023 at 8:39 AM UTC
i don't know why im writing this. but i used to write every so often when i was younger.
i am turning 18.
it almost feels like a fever dream. i never felt this frightened my whole life.
is my life really starting? is this the beginning of a decade?
where am i gonna be after this? how am i gonna feel?
you see, growing up, it's that just simple.
nothing changes, and you still gotta wait for something to.
it doesn't magically happens.
and i hate waiting.
i wanna be older and free.
but, most of the time i wish life was simpler like when i was younger.
Nov 25, 2020
Nov 25, 2020 at 1:20 AM UTC
I've always been in between life.
It's always somewhere over being
uncertain and certain,
optimistic and pessimistic,
and introverted or extroverted.
Despite all that,
there's one thing I'm sure of.
It is holding on to dear life,
going along through it.
I am nothing more than human,
but I am my own future.
Jun 2, 2020
Jun 2, 2020 at 10:37 AM UTC
writing about you is like
arranging the alphabet,
looking for possible
typographical error
counting the syllables,
thinking of rhymes
i dont know if i’ll ever
equate words to
how perfect you are
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 4:07 AM UTC
the sun sets and rises
the rain pours and stops
but my feelings stay the same
isn’t it too unfair?
Feb 23, 2020
Feb 23, 2020 at 10:46 AM UTC
here i am
trying to answer
still unanswered thoughts
just a randomness
night filled with sadness
mind in endless wander
wishing to be with the stars
my mind is the universe
the thought of you is the limit
you’ve finally alienate my heart
i could not feel anything
more than how you make me feel
guess i’m in love?
Feb 22, 2020
Feb 22, 2020 at 8:50 AM UTC
you write as if all the letters
in the alphabet are scribbled in your mind,
and all the words are memorized.
you tattooed poetry in all the parts
of your body, and you help me to
let my insides be one of them.
poetry is stained in you,
but the blood of hesitation
in doing what you want remains
marked.
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 7:44 AM UTC
how could i bleed words
if my blood sheds for
unfinished poems written at
the back of the receipts and used tissues
all along wondering
who wrote them
and how could
they leave them
how could i bleed words
i my blood sheds for
people i’ve seen only once
and i coulnf’t forget their faces
all along wandering
inside my brain
hoping one day
i’ll see them again
Mar 28, 2019
Mar 28, 2019 at 5:06 AM UTC
hiding myself
in oversized shirts
not letting any
defect get out
my mistakes
rumbling down
to edges
wanting to get out
imperfections
glued into my
clothes wanting
to stick out
they are hidden
for a long time
but now i am
ready to wear
tank tops
and short shorts
bikinis and or
dresses
i am bare
i am naked
and
i am proud
Feb 21, 2019
Feb 21, 2019 at 7:06 AM UTC