paloma - Hello Poetry

Swimming in grey Drowning in red Nothing seems real Just a haze, A smear of color's mear pictures passing by Surrounded, By nothing more then empty vessels Nothing more then hollow souls One after another Dead eyes & pale skin Gaurds watch, Eagle eyes scanning Restraints & syringes at hand Ready to pounce as we stand All in line A shuffle to the next fix The glazed eyes The cool calmness The deafening silence Water cups passed around 2 pills in hand Cold and dead to it all Its all routine Swallow, drink, repeat Another day Another dream Another thought Lost, wasted, silenced

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Apr 7, 2015

Apr 7, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC

Their Experiment II

Swimming in grey Drowning in red Nothing seems real Just a haze, A smear of color's mear pictures passing by Surrounded, By nothing more then empty vessels Nothing more then hollow souls One after another Dead eyes & pale skin Gaurds watch, Eagle eyes scanning Restraints & syringes at hand Ready to pounce as we stand All in line A shuffle to the next fix The glazed eyes The cool calmness The deafening silence Water cups passed around 2 pills in hand Cold and dead to it all Its all routine Swallow, drink, repeat Another day Another dream Another thought Lost, wasted, silenced

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We're getting close I would like more but I doubt he will He talks about her all the time He doesn’t seem to notice me Doesn’t seem to notice the pained expression How I don’t smile Don’t make eye contact Don’t speak The smile he gets when he mentions her Talks about her, thinks about her All the small reactions no one seems to notice All the small things she doesn’t notice The way his lips curl and eyes shine The way he swipes his hair His smirk, his pout, his lips She doesn’t notice Doesn’t seem to care ...I care but he loves her…

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Aug 12, 2014

Aug 12, 2014 at 1:00 PM UTC

Wasted Opportunity

We're getting close I would like more but I doubt he will He talks about her all the time He doesn’t seem to notice me Doesn’t seem to notice the pained expression How I don’t smile Don’t make eye contact Don’t speak The smile he gets when he mentions her Talks about her, thinks about her All the small reactions no one seems to notice All the small things she doesn’t notice The way his lips curl and eyes shine The way he swipes his hair His smirk, his pout, his lips She doesn’t notice Doesn’t seem to care ...I care but he loves her…

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I'm the practice girlfriend held your hand through it all helped you break your walls explore yourself inside & out I let you touch me like no other poke and **** my curves & insides I left myself vulnerable to you to your gentle touch & sweet whispers of love I let you climb inside me let you hold my heart in your hands let you twist & turn my insides until we formed one I was nothing more then the practice girlfriend the one that taught you what you know the one that helped you grow All I can do is watch put the pieces of my life together watch you grow and love another like we once loved each other I'm nothing more then the practice girlfriend

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Mar 3, 2014

Mar 3, 2014 at 2:51 AM UTC

Practice Girlfriend

I'm the practice girlfriend held your hand through it all helped you break your walls explore yourself inside & out I let you touch me like no other poke and **** my curves & insides I left myself vulnerable to you to your gentle touch & sweet whispers of love I let you climb inside me let you hold my heart in your hands let you twist & turn my insides until we formed one I was nothing more then the practice girlfriend the one that taught you what you know the one that helped you grow All I can do is watch put the pieces of my life together watch you grow and love another like we once loved each other I'm nothing more then the practice girlfriend

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Evil days age like dreams All Consuming Dare death's wish? Don't mind this Suicidal tendency

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May 23, 2012

May 23, 2012 at 3:10 AM UTC

Dare death's wish

Evil days age like dreams All Consuming Dare death's wish? Don't mind this Suicidal tendency

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There's something inside its clawing at me its eating me inside out its suffocating and killing me don't know how to stop it don't know how to release it and if i could don't think i would Is it sadness depression madness or am I self destructing about to explode implode and spit my guts out what is this this sickness why is it taking control its consuming my mind consuming my being what do i do how do i act why why do i have this what is it in the first place this pit this darkness this endless void of nothingness this emptiness and death THIS is consuming me... a plague and growing disaster

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May 23, 2012

May 23, 2012 at 2:25 AM UTC

Void of Darkness

There's something inside its clawing at me its eating me inside out its suffocating and killing me don't know how to stop it don't know how to release it and if i could don't think i would Is it sadness depression madness or am I self destructing about to explode implode and spit my guts out what is this this sickness why is it taking control its consuming my mind consuming my being what do i do how do i act why why do i have this what is it in the first place this pit this darkness this endless void of nothingness this emptiness and death THIS is consuming me... a plague and growing disaster

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You stood there A smirk creeping its way upon your face Your eyes showing not a bit of remorse or guilt You blamed me You bullied me You killed me

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Apr 15, 2012

Apr 15, 2012 at 11:15 PM UTC

You bullied me

You stood there A smirk creeping its way upon your face Your eyes showing not a bit of remorse or guilt You blamed me You bullied me You killed me

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Blistering, Unforgiving Pounding in your mind Feasting ravenous on captured hearts and weakened souls Evil is a smile with dark intentions Hiding hate Longing for revenge on the innocent, the faithful Evil will **** itself to get to you without pity or remorse it strikes without fear of the afterlife or judgement Evil walks, Talks, Eats, Works, Lives, Sleeps, Hopes, Dreams, among us all Evil will be the end of us all

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Apr 15, 2012

Apr 15, 2012 at 7:23 PM UTC

Evil

Blistering, Unforgiving Pounding in your mind Feasting ravenous on captured hearts and weakened souls Evil is a smile with dark intentions Hiding hate Longing for revenge on the innocent, the faithful Evil will **** itself to get to you without pity or remorse it strikes without fear of the afterlife or judgement Evil walks, Talks, Eats, Works, Lives, Sleeps, Hopes, Dreams, among us all Evil will be the end of us all

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Wrote my first suicide note at the age of 11 used my first blade at the age of 12 lost my only friend to suicide at the age of 14 swore to **** myself by the age of 17 I'm still here but my promise still lives one day I'll die by my own hand one day I'll have the ***** to pull the trigger one day

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Dec 5, 2011

Dec 5, 2011 at 3:21 AM UTC

One Day

Wrote my first suicide note at the age of 11 used my first blade at the age of 12 lost my only friend to suicide at the age of 14 swore to **** myself by the age of 17 I'm still here but my promise still lives one day I'll die by my own hand one day I'll have the ***** to pull the trigger one day

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Off to where the crazies pace and midnight guards patrol where the walls and floors are spit shined clean the stench of chlorine the antiseptic sheets burn my nose. I can't breath suffocating in this world this padded cell Is this suppose to help? They have me chained up ****** up like some kind of animal holding me down into a sedated sate of mind. Their puppet and toy their experiment to do as they please as another needle breaks the skin.

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Dec 5, 2011

Dec 5, 2011 at 3:20 AM UTC

Their Experiment

Off to where the crazies pace and midnight guards patrol where the walls and floors are spit shined clean the stench of chlorine the antiseptic sheets burn my nose. I can't breath suffocating in this world this padded cell Is this suppose to help? They have me chained up ****** up like some kind of animal holding me down into a sedated sate of mind. Their puppet and toy their experiment to do as they please as another needle breaks the skin.

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Die Do it I dare you Take the gun Put it to your head Pull the trigger Do it I dare you Open the bottle Take the pills Lose consciousness Do it I dare you Die Do it You won't be missed Do it! DO it!! DO IT!!!

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Aug 8, 2011

Aug 8, 2011 at 11:45 PM UTC

Voices

Die Do it I dare you Take the gun Put it to your head Pull the trigger Do it I dare you Open the bottle Take the pills Lose consciousness Do it I dare you Die Do it You won't be missed Do it! DO it!! DO IT!!!

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