frigid water
raw skin
chattering teeth
waiting for warmth
take the plunge
dive in
hold me
because i don't want to face this alone
Aug 8, 2016
Aug 8, 2016 at 11:19 PM UTC
i want it to work
i want it to be you
more than anything
but wanting something isn't always enough.
May 15, 2016
May 15, 2016 at 3:59 AM UTC
i didn't think i would
but i did
i am
i am falling for you
and i can't stop now
so i can do is hope
hope that you are falling for me too
Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 11:11 PM UTC
i'm trying so hard to write
but it's hard to have your feelings right at the surface
floating like a decaying fish in a lake
an eyesore
something you can't stay away from
a leach
******* your energy and happiness away
its hard when you realize that the love you felt wasn't love at all
and no matter how hard you try, it never will be
my feet hurt
my shoes are worn from the places i've been
i don't want to go anywhere else
i want to feel
i want to feel love again
i want to feel you in my arms
i want to hear you say those two words that i desperately need to hear
"i'm sorry"
but i know you'd be lying
and yet, my ears ring
and hope for those words to leave your lips
i'm trying so hard
but you're not trying at all
it's hard to talk when no one is listening
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 12:26 AM UTC
please don't make me hate loving you
don't make me hate the ache i get in my chest
please don't make me hate myself for being so stupid
please
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 12:08 AM UTC
they tell you they will be there for you
like your shadow that kisses the pavement
but the sun sets and the shadow leaves
like everyone seems to be doing these days
and i need someone when the night is black and my eyes can't stay closed
i need you
Mar 8, 2015
Mar 8, 2015 at 11:46 PM UTC
it's bittersweet
like licking the adhesive on an envelope
the after taste lingers on your tongue
and what the hell am i supposed to do?
i'm trying
but all i want to do is sleep
and i feel like my heartbeat is slowing down
and my eyes don't light up when i see certain things
i don't feel like myself anymore
i feel alone
and i don't want to talk
but,
those grains of sugar make it somewhat worth it
but the bitterness is still present
so the bittersweet taste still lingers on my tongue as the mailman takes my letter and mails it to the person i miss more than anything.
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 11:56 PM UTC
you told me that the way the ice melts
and drips off of the side of the building makes you
think of me
and i hope that we can watch the water drip from your window
soon
because
everything reminds me of you
and i want to experience life with you
and no one else
and i am so madly in love with you
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 8:31 PM UTC
my breath escapes my lungs like air leaving a punctured balloon
one moment--that's all
and it escapes like water cupped in your hand
it's impossible to stop it from escaping
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you steal it
like a teenager at the mall
grabbing the trinkets and shoving them in the pockets on their faux leather bags
you steal it
and i don't even mind
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drinking salt water and watching the blank wall
gets tiresome
and i want to go home
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the hallucinations begin
but i know they are just neurons firing in my brain
and that makes me drink that pungent water
and it seeps in my pores
Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 12:15 AM UTC
it has replaced my blood
it runs through my veins
and circulates throughout my body
and like blood,
i need it to survive
i pray every night that you'll be okay
because i still love you
and i think about you every day
everyone tells me that someone else will come along
but frankly,
i'm scared as hell
and i hate to be alone.
and the fact that we aren't together anymore
makes my thoughts tumble down
and take a turn for the worst
but, i guess it's for the best
but my heart still hurts
and i am trying so hard to be okay
but, i know deep down, i'm not
i'm really not.
for now i will try my best to survive
and maybe someday
my blood will circulate throughout my body
once again.
i miss you
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 10:42 PM UTC