“i can’t stop smiling”
you said
we were walking
to your house
from a spot
you just showed me
which i already know
will be my favorite place
in the world
cause it overlooked our town
and it’s where you asked me
tobe your girlfriend
“you’re really my girlfriend”
you said, in awe
i really was
and i really wanted to be
“you’re a dork”
i replied, anxious
“well i’m your dork now”
said you
and i blushed
i was smiling too
i felt so happy
to now have you
and from then
i would catch you smiling
at me
laying in your bed
or in my passenger seat
you would say
the sweetest things
and play with the hair
on my head
and i could always see
the excitement
that sparked
in your eyes
when i would come over
just to waste some time
with you
by my side
so how did you do it?
how did you leave
so easily?
did it mean nothing
to you
when it meant everything
to me?
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
i’m trying
to fall in love
again
but your touch
still haunts me
and your voice
still chills me
we talked
and we talked
about our new lovers
and our past
and you said some things
i wish i felt the same
you don’t know
and maybe
you never will
but i’m sure you’ll hear
i doubt my ability
to love again
in the ways i loved you
in fact
i doubt that i ever stopped
loving you
do you feel the same?
do you remember the promise we made?
would it be insane
if you knew these things?
i don’t know
but i’m sure soon enough
sober thoughts
will become drunken words
and you’ll hear my pain
and maybe then
i’ll find out
if you feel the same way
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 11:05 AM UTC
i know
i am hard to love
but you
do not know
and now
you’ll never know
how hard i love
when i love
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 3:03 AM UTC
sometimes
my morning coffee
tastes like you
then the feelings
rush back
like we just met
yesterday
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
your fingertips
on my skin
like soft sunlight
kissing the seas
my fingers
through your hair
like gentle wind
amongst bumble bees
but my heart
you broke
like cracking thunder
through the breeze
you felt so calm
but you left
my skin grew cold
like storm-broken trees
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 2:45 AM UTC
a fool i was
to think of you
as different
to have expected
a fairytale
but i guess those
only happen once
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 3:14 AM UTC
again
i had false hope
but i really thought
it’d be different this time
again
i gave too much
came off too strong
and scared you away
again
i thought you were true
but you liked the idea
not the reality of me
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 3:09 AM UTC
of course
i got my hopes up
of course
i thought different this time
of course
i was wrong again
of course
i should have known better
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 3:07 AM UTC
all i can think about
sadness contagious
all i can speak about
frustration outrageous
even in dreams
laughing and joyful
while in my presence
vision sparkles
but when i awaken
empty again
wish i could make dreams
reality, say when
Jan 4, 2018
Jan 4, 2018 at 6:31 PM UTC
perhaps,
the most abuse i have experienced
was not when my ex boyfriend
controlled, threatened, or lied to me
but perhaps
it's the relationship
between two people
i call mind and body
you see,
mind and body are in a relationship
but mind is insecure and jealous
but body loves mind so much
they put up with it,
mind has forced body
to pick at wounds
and run blades
over their fair skin,
mind has told body
not to eat so much
so body began overeating,
but then mind forced them
to shove a toothbrush
at the back of their throat
to bring it back up,
mind has made body
overdose on laxatives
to the point
of almost no return,
but it's not too late
for body to heal
in fact,
it is finally time
for mind to realize the pain
they have caused body,
it is time for mind
to apologize
and change their ways,
and it is time
for mind to accept
body as they are
because all body ever wanted
was the acceptance
and the love of mind
and perhaps,
mind has finally come to peace
within themself
to help reverse the damage
they have caused to body
because all along
body cared so deeply
about mind
that they never gave in
to the signals that maybe
it was time to end things
for the both of them
but you don't have to worry
about that happening,
mind and body are working
on their relationship now
so that time
will never come
for either of them
Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 12:23 AM UTC