I am not a person
I am not a place
I am a Thing.
A Thing.
An It.
I am some Thing but
I am Nothing.
An It.
Alas,
I am just an It.
Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 10:33 PM UTC
Dead.
You are not dead.
You are still here,
Alive
You are Alive!
Cant you see?
It will get
Better
buckle up tight.
It's gonna be
Rough
for you tonight
little darling, a real
Hard
swing left then right.
Move your feet.
Swing
again and again
takes those hits
Over
and through the mountains
He will follow
Me
kissing my hands
when he finally
Capture
this instant
Is that what you want?
This?
Do you want this?
It is short-lived.
It will be
Gone
where? but he can't
just leave. I will
Die
upon a cross?
No.
That is not for me.
Keep your cross.
I
am not dead
I
am alive.
I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive
I
will see the light
It will get
Better.
With only
Him.
With only
Her.
I am in love.
Nothing
will ever bring us down.
Nothing
will ever tear us apart.
It is better.
It did get better.
Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 10:31 PM UTC
Friendship
chatters like a chipmunk;
piercing into my ear
Again
and Again. Beating itself
Into me. Filling my mind,
Consuming
every last bit of me.
Every. Single.
Peace
is not something I
Find in Others. It is in
Me.
Only me. It is the Only
Piece I have.
I
have no love
I
have no loyalty
I
have no light
I
have no life
I
Am Nothing
except
That one worthy
Piece
by piece you
Tear me apart. You
Gut
me like a fish;
Ripping away my scales
Piece
by
Peace
by
Piece.
I
am Bleeding
I
am Naked
I
gave you my
Friendship
I
gave you my
Love
What else do you want.
No. I will not.
I
have only a little Left to give.
I have only my
Peace
and it is Not yous.
Feb 16, 2013
Feb 16, 2013 at 3:22 AM UTC
Desperation
is a snake in the grass
Lying motionless in wait,
praying
for you to stride past
so it can sink its
Teeth
In and taste your
Blood with its forked
Tongue
Wags back and forth,
Wiggling like a dying
Fish
in the fleshy mouth of her dead face.
She is pretending to be
Alive
by spreading this disease.
By telling all these Lies Lies
Lies
with her every night
while his Other one just
Paces
back and forth and back and forth
just trying to forget and
Deny
it all. It Is Not Real.
He loves the Other and would not
Break
him. These men with grasping
hands and violent eyes. They
Hurt
me so I will hurt them.
I will never be ripped apart
Again.
Please, let him come to me again.
I cannot live without his
Love.
It can only be him. I am lost.
Only his love can be my guiding
Light
fills her face, turned up in rapture, but
Who
does this?
Who
fills her heart?
Who
Saves her?
Will she accept any
Savior!
My Lord. I will serve only you.
As long as you love me, I am
Yours.
Feb 2, 2013
Feb 2, 2013 at 6:39 PM UTC
Fury,
flung, thrown, beat, bashed
Against Me
But
it’s never really enough,
my God. It is
Never
Enough. Stop talking.
It is all over now. Don’t
Try
to justify your actions.
You are nothing compared to
Me
I am unflinching
and you are truly
Nothing
Inside his head.
It is all utterly
Dark
eyes bend towards his face.
Blazing with so much
Hatred
They scorch his smirk
cracking across porcelain cheeks. It is
False
love. lies. broken promises!
How can you look at yourself?!
How
can you believe in
Anything
is a reason for this.
Any reason to run away
and swallow stories
Whole
in him. She shines like a star.
She is alive she is beautiful she never dreams of
Revenge
Is rapture sweet.
Especially against you.
I will destroy you.
Your
porcelain smile will stay
Cracked.
Dec 7, 2012
Dec 7, 2012 at 7:28 PM UTC
Lost
in the darkness.
Please, God, Please
Help
me. I am
Lost. I need
Hope
stolen. The fear
cracks across her
Face
as he stares
in her eyes and
Laughs,
Oh not to worry
my dear sweet child.
I
am just like you.
I
Am Just Like
You
******* You Coward.
How could you do
This?
How could you do
This to me? Your
Love?
What Love?
There is no Love
Here.
All Alone. Someone.
God, someone. Please.
Help.
Someone come help me.
Someone come. Save me.
I.
I am Lost.
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 3:06 PM UTC
To see your face, to hear your voice
To feel so much happiness with no other choice
My mind is alive and you've set me free
You've let me become the person I wanted to be
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 3:05 PM UTC
I love him, Trust me, I do
But do not forget, I loved you too
I have not lost your smiling face
It is just locked in a secret place
With all of our kisses, all of my wants
And all of our past's unending taunts
Yet some pain will not leave
No matter how much I love him, or how much I believe
That We Are Lost
But, when I see you smile, not at me
My heart beats fast, a caged bird desperate to be free
A poison creeps into my mind
And there are words I cannot grasp or find
I know we are over, and I Have moved on
Yet there is always a hole where you are gone
Still, I love him, with all my heart, Trust me, I do
But do not forget, I once loved you too
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 3:05 PM UTC
Sleep now my darling and
Dream a sweet dream
You shall hear laughter
While all others scream
Sleep now my darling and
Bathe in the light
You shall feel peace
While all others fight
Sleep now my darling and
Hope for the best
You shall be happy
While no others rest
Sleep now my darling and
Trust in my lies
You shall not doubt me
While the world slowly dies
Sleep now my darling and
Forget all you know
You will not suffer
While I deal every blow
Sleep now my darling and
Forgive me my sin and
You may know love
When my soul lets my body give in
But, Sleep now my darling and
Dream a sweet dream
You shall hear laughter
While all others scream
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 3:04 PM UTC
This is a call to those
Who called me friend
I am not lost to you
It is not the end
We may have fought
I may have lost
I probably gave us up
With you the cost
I was angry
I had no hope
I was confused and broken
But I climbed back up my own rope
Now I stand on the mountain,
Finally free
I wish to start us over
I finally want to have a true "you" and "me"
So I extend olive branch back to you
I will not burn it, it will stay green and true
Just remember
I am not who you used to know
I am a person that will show my colors
That you may not want me to show
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 3:03 PM UTC