On this day, I was broken
On this day, my world stopped
On this day, my life was reduced
On this day, pain consumed me
and this consumption never left
I went to bed broken-hearted
I woke up broken-hearted
My life was pain
Pain was all I knew
I wept until I could weep no more
My spirit was locked in a dark room
It was empty
reason departed me
there was nothing
I had nothing
My joy was stolen
My labour unfavoured
I screamed
Yelled
Suicide was a friend
Depression my lover
Bitterness my worship
I tried to pray
I tried to believe,
but my mind could not.
My spirit and flesh
withered,
but still my soul thirsted.
It searched;
Hoped
Prayed
Believed
Submitted
Fought
To find God.
It knew
He is my answer
The truth and the way
The truth is God
and in Him
I rested.
Aug 1, 2019
Aug 1, 2019 at 9:51 PM UTC
You sit there
Trying to convince yourself that "you'll be fine"
But since we are all flesh
We have to fear.
But fear is conjoined.
With every atom,
there
is
hope.
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 2:55 PM UTC
It starts. He stares.
A ferocious beast she sees, a human he is.
He strips her
Slowly gliding his hands from her neck to its base
Electrifying each nerve, she shivers.
In her vortex of deepest waters, he goes.
Eyes locked.
She remembers to exhale.
You make me weak, she whispers
as the tension intensified with each ******
He maddened
Pulling her in, wrapping her legs around him.
Lost in her moans as he reaches for her peak,
he sees her; she is his clair de lune.
The river flows in her.
And as she weakens
he holds her firmly till her waters flow.
For she is his redemption.
Mar 8, 2019
Mar 8, 2019 at 4:23 AM UTC
Am I too late my love?
Eyes fixated on me
She stares piercingly into my soul.
She hums,
with sorrow in her eyes.
My heart starts to bleed
Can’t she see my aching heart?
Ok. take my soul
So I am nothing but flesh and bones
Just don’t leave me in this lonely lustful sphere.
Now she screams
Next, she weeps
Why does she weep?
I am finding it hard to breathe
Why can’t I breathe?
Please, just say something before
I drown in my thoughts.
As I attempt to touch her;
they laugh.
O' mother
I see now
They surround me
My demons.
but it's no use,
now that I'm dead.
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 11:48 PM UTC
How could I possibly forget you,
you awakened me.
When I think of you, you come to me;
Taking me to long-ago shadows;
Where memories lie;
And now I can’t help but fear you.
A love never seen before.
A love subject to imagination, for it can never crystallize;
But you are with me till my last breath,
And I shall tell you one day; with my unspoken words.
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 11:46 PM UTC
It departed, but left pain.
For who am I now?
I looked into a mirror and saw its reflection, yet I questioned what I saw.
Could this be me?
Why should I believe this object to reflect I? If I disappear, does it not do the same for the next person?
Horrid at this realization, I run.
She runs too.
She must submerse herself till she chokes to find out who she is
And wait for her third self to save her.
And when she appears,
She must never let go, for this is she;
This is who will save her.
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 11:43 PM UTC