i love you
i love you with my whole heart
and with my whole body and then some
spilling out onto the concrete beneath me
congealing in the cold
a grotesque thing
my plasticine form crumpling
under the pressure of it all
cracks forming in little heart shapes
stars bleaming from my eyes
as my vision grows darker
my birdcage chest
begging to be unlocked
rattling and clanging about
claws scratching at my arteries
lesions forming on my overstuffed heart
the threads untwining
hands held carefully parting from one another
Mar 7, 2024
Mar 7, 2024 at 10:45 AM UTC
at a standstill.
its nearly been three months
i dont know where they went
each day longer than the last
and further gone all the same
one year remains until tomorrow
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 11:37 PM UTC
youve shown me videos
where you call my name
and i turn and my face brightens
shining like ive seen the heavens
i look at you like i cant stand to look anywhere else
my eyes click into place
like they were meant to do exactly that
like i couldnt have heard anything sweeter
than the birdsong of your voice
despite my best efforts
i know i still look the same
whenever you mention me
and i feel nothing but awe
how could i manage anything different?
when all you do exude is radiance
sunflowers reaching through the soil
wherever you tread
Feb 25, 2021
Feb 25, 2021 at 12:43 AM UTC
i dont think you realize
the full effect you have on me
how much space you take up
in my cozy little mind
how often i dream of you
how often i am reminded
of something you might like
of a joke you would laugh at
of a commonality or difference
even with my rose tinted lenses
popped out of the frame
i still clearly see you
and all that you are
and how wonderful it is
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 3:36 AM UTC
we live
and we ache
and we breathe
and we feel
why are we trained
from birth
to say that crying is weak
that joy and pain
have no value to the world
who is to say
that we are blank
that we are numb
that we should act
as though we are machinery
cold, perfect steel
fitting right within the grooves
that society hollows for us
i am alive!
and i love!
and i anger!
and emotion wells in my chest
a leaky pipe prone to bursting
enough time has been wasted
trying to rewire our beings
for the sole benefit of efficiency
Oct 26, 2019
Oct 26, 2019 at 9:16 PM UTC
i ache at the mere thought of you
of closeness,
of being together,
of reaching and touching you,
oh so tenderly
for you are the one
who holds space in my heart
and who i wish
i could hold in return
every day
and every night
you reside in my thoughts
your smile radiant as the sun
your eyes darker than onyx
as the sun sets,
you appear
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 2:08 AM UTC
oh, my sweet!
tender hearted darling
your soft hands,
your warm smile,
your birdsong laugh
sets my heart aflutter
serenade me,
drape me in your honey sweet voice
let me take up space in your tender gaze
simply being in your presence
is to be surrounded by home
you turn the key
and my heart kicks to life
a rusty thing,
but for you it shines golden
Aug 4, 2019
Aug 4, 2019 at 12:21 AM UTC
i am one of my own
what has been decided for me
and yet what i cannot be
if only because i cannot be it right
becoming a scavenger,
i pick apart what remains
from the carcass of femininity
clawing and ripping and tearing
and taking from gender
whatever i desire
for what has gender done for me?
aside from putting on a collar
and controlling my every move
deciding what i do
and how and when and why i do it
stealing what i can
and turning it upside down
looking starlit and airy
while still solid with rage
and being oh so tender with her
and protective from the rest
raccoon eyes and evening gowns
leather boots and lace socks
Aug 3, 2019
Aug 3, 2019 at 11:46 PM UTC
i need to cut my hair
dye it pink and start anew
its time for a change
and these locks keep me locked away
weighed down by a person im not
and held inside a body i do not belong to
i have to talk
lips sewn shut for so long
i dont remember how to speak
slowly im learning
how to order fast food
without breaking down
i want to get better
were it easy i might have a shot
but that guns turned on me
and pierced my heart
over and over
and im patching the wounds
but with every bandage i place
another gets ripped off
Dec 21, 2018
Dec 21, 2018 at 7:43 PM UTC