oliviat8 - Hello Poetry

Sadness runs through my veins paranoia creeping up my spine my body feels heavy mind is a maze of darkness It comes in waves, endless waves There's no mercy at the hands of depression

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Sep 15, 2024

Sep 15, 2024 at 4:34 AM UTC

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Sadness runs through my veins paranoia creeping up my spine my body feels heavy mind is a maze of darkness It comes in waves, endless waves There's no mercy at the hands of depression

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If we could be honest about motherhood how many mothers would tell you they were made one well before their time? How many would tell you that postpartum depression doesn't have an expiry date? My children, they were not born from kindness they were not born from loving men, instead trapped in a maze of lies and fear six feet deep and 8 years long it may have ended but how long will it take to fade from my mind? my children are my world- metaphorically and literally, my days a repetition of the ones before and I am overwhelmed, overstimulated, alone, alone. But these thoughts are not made to be heard so I'll put a smile on my face and pretend that everything is fine.

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Sep 12, 2024

Sep 12, 2024 at 2:59 AM UTC

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If we could be honest about motherhood how many mothers would tell you they were made one well before their time? How many would tell you that postpartum depression doesn't have an expiry date? My children, they were not born from kindness they were not born from loving men, instead trapped in a maze of lies and fear six feet deep and 8 years long it may have ended but how long will it take to fade from my mind? my children are my world- metaphorically and literally, my days a repetition of the ones before and I am overwhelmed, overstimulated, alone, alone. But these thoughts are not made to be heard so I'll put a smile on my face and pretend that everything is fine.

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I'll be forever lost, drifting in a sea of stars.

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Sep 8, 2024

Sep 8, 2024 at 3:44 AM UTC

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I'll be forever lost, drifting in a sea of stars.

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Childhood, Father's always angry mother's always drinking hurricanes ripping through our kitchen hurling raised voices down the hallway walk on eggshells, tread softly now watch what you say, don't forget to think before you speak, don't say the wrong thing don't be the wrong thing Never forget to look for the warning signs don't leave your fear upstairs. my brother and sister, they made you proud, good grades happy minds (is a happy mind the key to parents love?) pretend I don't exist, it's funny how invisible you can become. saw a fist go through a canvas once,destroy the painting Everything is always being ripped apart around here, excuse me while I hide, I won't speak of this It'll become another memory blocked out hidden inside my brain.

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Sep 5, 2024

Sep 5, 2024 at 3:06 AM UTC

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Childhood, Father's always angry mother's always drinking hurricanes ripping through our kitchen hurling raised voices down the hallway walk on eggshells, tread softly now watch what you say, don't forget to think before you speak, don't say the wrong thing don't be the wrong thing Never forget to look for the warning signs don't leave your fear upstairs. my brother and sister, they made you proud, good grades happy minds (is a happy mind the key to parents love?) pretend I don't exist, it's funny how invisible you can become. saw a fist go through a canvas once,destroy the painting Everything is always being ripped apart around here, excuse me while I hide, I won't speak of this It'll become another memory blocked out hidden inside my brain.

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Dawn is blazing the world is still this is the time before times. Watch the sun kiss the moon goodbye.

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Sep 3, 2024

Sep 3, 2024 at 5:06 PM UTC

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Dawn is blazing the world is still this is the time before times. Watch the sun kiss the moon goodbye.

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I'm not yours anymore, pushed you away because I didn't feel worthy of your love but my heart still skip beats like when you miss a step on the stairs, or you're driving too fast and go over a bump in the road. My fingers still fit in between the spaces of yours, like thread fits through the space in the needle. My tongue still knows the way your name rolls off it, as easily as if I were saying my own. My mind still takes me on a rollercoaster of thoughts that are made up of every image we have, like when you look at a photo album where, in every picture, you're smiling with eyes full of love. My lungs are full of your breath when I open my mouth, like they usually should be full of your own breath. My lips don't close around the traces of yours when I light up a cigarette, but God I wish they did. My waist is untouched, but your arms used to wrap themselves around it. I know I still love you, like when you see old couples still together and in love from years ago. I know I would love to have the courage to tell you that this was all a mistake, you're the only one for me, we've intertwined ourselves so greatly that I am you and you are me, now you're gone, I can't breathe. I know our names still cross the others mind I know our hearts still hold a place for each other, like reserving a table for two, for forever. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

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Sep 2, 2024

Sep 2, 2024 at 3:53 PM UTC

Something from 2014 i never finished

I'm not yours anymore, pushed you away because I didn't feel worthy of your love but my heart still skip beats like when you miss a step on the stairs, or you're driving too fast and go over a bump in the road. My fingers still fit in between the spaces of yours, like thread fits through the space in the needle. My tongue still knows the way your name rolls off it, as easily as if I were saying my own. My mind still takes me on a rollercoaster of thoughts that are made up of every image we have, like when you look at a photo album where, in every picture, you're smiling with eyes full of love. My lungs are full of your breath when I open my mouth, like they usually should be full of your own breath. My lips don't close around the traces of yours when I light up a cigarette, but God I wish they did. My waist is untouched, but your arms used to wrap themselves around it. I know I still love you, like when you see old couples still together and in love from years ago. I know I would love to have the courage to tell you that this was all a mistake, you're the only one for me, we've intertwined ourselves so greatly that I am you and you are me, now you're gone, I can't breathe. I know our names still cross the others mind I know our hearts still hold a place for each other, like reserving a table for two, for forever. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

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Do you miss me when you hear my name?

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Dec 11, 2014

Dec 11, 2014 at 11:55 PM UTC

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Do you miss me when you hear my name?

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