The mother, so carefully
She planted her precious seed
A beauty of her own
With a life she wanted to lead
Slowly each day
The little girl grew
An old soul she was
And everyone knew
With each passing year
She flourished in the rain
She thrived in the sun
But the years brought pain
Her soft petals
Her sweet smell
Made her vulnerable
It was easy for them to tell
Easily neglected
Comfortably brought down
Her heart weakened
So she wilted and frowned
And turning to the rain
She hoped it would guide
She listened to it closely
But the rain also lied
Her mother watched
As her sweet flower grew cold
Her petals, they browned
And far too soon, she grew old
Nov 5, 2019
Nov 5, 2019 at 9:13 AM UTC
All she had ever wanted
Was to finally be free
Free to dance
And herself to be
The night began
All dressed up and ready to go
And the final step
Was where the night was to blow
He put on her favorite songs
And poured the first shot
It seemed after seven
Was where she forgot
Everyone has their own story
Seemingly they loved to share
But how do they know
When they weren’t even there?
She woke up alone
Cold, ***** on her bed
A swollen black eye
And a pounding dizzy head
From this day on
She’s had to pay the price
But she didn’t want any of this
The night was going so nice...
No one really cared
There’s not even a chance
Alone, cold, and scared
When she just wanted to dance
Nov 4, 2019
Nov 4, 2019 at 8:00 PM UTC
It’s a house
Yes.
And lately, finally, it’s home
Broken? maybe
Exhausted
Ruined
Beaten
Dead
What else?
But still, it is home.
And you, you’ve been my escape
From all the screams and tears
All the broken pieces
You became my home
To take me away from home
And just like my own,
We are now
Exhausted
Ruined
Beaten
Dead.
I could leave
But why...why would I
when all I have to do
is watch the setting sun in that backyard filled with sunny, mocking memories
when all I have to do
is run my fingers through your hair
and stare into the eyes that manipulated me for so long
And I’m at home
May 29, 2019
May 29, 2019 at 8:55 AM UTC
Red
Oh sweet red wine
I love to feel you
Drip down my throat
Make me love the night
Liquor
You’re so harsh
Send my chest burning
Burn me
Until I can’t feel my skin
Until I can’t feel anything
Make me spin
Until I can’t see
Until I can’t see their face...
I don’t want to remember
Dear wine,
*****
Tequila,
Whiskey,
***
Whoever you are...
You’ll get the job done
Thank you for all that you do
Make me forget
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 10:24 PM UTC
I thought I knew....
Or at least I pretended to know,
Who you are.
Today, I woke up
To the sound of your mistakes
The beating and screaming
The laughing and sneering
The shock and disgust
Sends me running
Puking
But now...
Just let me in.
For the shock is over
And I’m ready to understand
Let me in.
Swallow me whole
Let me crawl
Under your skin
Never to breathe again
Let me swim
For God’s sake, let me drown
In your toxic blood
that has poisoned me for so long
And let me get lost
In the fog that crowds your mind
Never to see the light again
For I want to know
Every part of you
Even if it kills me
Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 8:10 AM UTC
When the day has finally come
That I am kissed by death
Promise me one thing
As I take my last breath
Don’t let me waste away
Rotting into the earth...disgust
Burn me and set me to flames
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
Spread me in the river
Where the water will always flow
Let it guide me through the land
And the world I used to know
Let my grave be the river
I promise it's for the best
Let me always be moving
for I never want to rest
And may you come back to the water
Should you ever miss me so much
Feel the river brush against your fingertips
And you will feel my touch
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 10:40 PM UTC
You may think I’m weird
For staring
Staring at the wall
The floor
Or that imaginary spot in the air
But I’m not
I’m watching something
Something so much more
A movie
A string of scenes
Of my life
Of what happened
What I wish happened
What I wish didn’t
What I dream will happen
What’s actually going to happen
What I want
What I need
What I’ll have
And what I won’t have
What I could’ve had
What I let go of
What was taken from me
What I’m left with
Left with nothing
Nothing to go for
Nothing to hold on to
I’m trying so hard
To look for something to grab
A reason to keep me hanging on
Keep me
Or I’ll should leave
Mar 18, 2018
Mar 18, 2018 at 8:38 PM UTC
Okay.
Here we go.
-
-
-
-
Yes.
I'll add them up.
Yes,
I'll check in
Every
Single
Day
Yes,
I'll force it out
When I've backed down
To get
"Back On Track"
And then
When I go too far
I'll put on
The cover ups
To hide
what's not there
Jan 26, 2018
Jan 26, 2018 at 9:57 AM UTC
So cold
So chilling
Was that room
Frigid to the bone
When exposed
So hot
So scalding
Was that water
Enough to smell burning skin
But it never seems hot enough
To burn away those memories
So dark
So confused
Shadows blended with the black
Is that cloud,
That one right there next to me,
Floating under the surface,
My burning hair
Or my blood
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 8:05 PM UTC
Every time this happens
I feel it
Right, here
Every time
What seems like a layer of warm linen
Grows over my heart
But I fear
Because the longer my heart's in there
It forgets
How to be exposed
Like before
And I fear that day
When all of this goes away
When all layers at a time
Are ripped apart
And there
Lays my exposed heart
What a shame it is
That I expect that day
But expecting the worst
Is the way
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 7:50 PM UTC