recently it's been getting colder
and i spend all my time under covers
warm, staying warm
warm until i burn
i want to go into the shower
turn the water scalding hot
and watch
uncaring
as my forearms
turn red
i just want to be warm enough inside
so i can tolerate
others being cold
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 10:09 AM UTC
A body remembers every day, every second
Memories marked in scars and tan lines and freckled noses
Memories marked in wrinkles and dodgy knees and crooked fingers
But a body eventually destroys itself
When it cannot hold up anymore
And it is still sad
For the brain grows old and forgetful
Jul 26, 2013
Jul 26, 2013 at 5:51 AM UTC
Only one wrong turn to take a trip down the Dead Man's path
Where crumbling bones lay in piles left to rot away forever
Children's screams piled around me from some ****** one-sided battle
And the stares of the once living as they sweep you from the shelves
Maybe you could be the unlikely hero to enlighten us all
To scratch away with your spoon at the heavy stone wall between lies and truth
Or you will stay staring at the oblivious millions of faces
There is no such thing as an accident when your life is set at birth
Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 12:34 PM UTC
I hate how the words
"Lesbian," "Gay," "Bisexual," et cetera
Are thought of as bad words.
It's like, oh, no, don't teach your little sister the word lesbian
Don't tell her there are some girls who like other girls
How inappropriate!
It's like, oh, no, don't teach your little brother the word gay
Don't tell him there are some boys who like other boys
How disgusting!
Don't let anyone under the age you deem appropriate know
That there are people who aren't heterosexual
Why?
I can't possibly understand why.
There is no reason for homophobia, not really.
I saw a metaphor somewhere that went something like this:
"I was in Subway, and I bought myself a ham sub. As I was paying, the man behind me bought a different sub than me, and I was immediately offended that he got a different sandwich."
This is what it sounds like when people say homosexual people affect them.
How do they affect you?
Just because they don't love someone who is of the opposite ***
Or just because they like both
Or something else
Just because of their ****** preference, no matter what it may be
You think that gives you reason to hate them? Really?
Just because they're different than the 'normal' you're used to?
Normality is relative.
You can't say it's not "normal."
That is not a justified nor sensical argument.
What is wrong with those people?
Can't they just see past all their biases and realize that we're all people
And we all deserve the same rights no matter who we're attracted to
No matter who we kiss
No matter who we touch
No matter who we have *** with
Is it really that difficult?
**We're all humans when it comes down to it, and we all deserve the same rights.
Everyone should be able to see that.**
And you know what I wonder?
Why are we voting on whether people deserve rights or not in the first place?
And then there's people who act like homosexuality is a disease
People who act like anyone who is anything but heterosexual is broken and needs to be fixed
They're not broken.
They don't need to be fixed.
They are who they are, and the government shouldn't tell them what they can and cannot do
Based simply and only on who they're attracted to.
"You can't get married because you aren't straight."
Do you realize how shallow that is? Do you?
"You're disgusting because you aren't straight."
Why?
Why should it matter to you who they're in a relationship with?
It's their life, their decision.
No one ever asks heterosexual people why they're heterosexual.
No one ever says, "Hey, when did you decide you were straight?"
It's just ridiculous, and I'm fed up of it.
"If gay marriage is legalized, more people will become gay."
Oh, yeah, sure, of course, that will totally happen.
Just like when African Americans were given rights
Everyone decided they wanted to go out and become African American.
Just like when women were given rights
Everyone decided they wanted to go out and become female.
People of all sorts of sexualities and preferences have grown up
With mostly straight media everywhere
It didn't "turn" them straight.
So gay media won't "turn" anyone gay
It won't hurt anyone if there's a gay couple in a commercial.
Or a TV show.
Or any other form of media.
It makes me sick to think that just because of your personal opinion
My friends who are not heterosexual would not be allowed to get married
To the person that they love.
Do you know what will happen if gay marriage is legalized?
Gay people will get married.
Why can't you just understand that it doesn't matter?
Why should you care what they do?
Why should you care who they like?
It doesn't affect you.
It doesn't change you.
It's just giving LGBT people more control over their own lives.
It's just giving LGBT people rights they should have had in the first place.
Why?
Jun 1, 2013
Jun 1, 2013 at 10:36 PM UTC
I would shut myself in my room when no one was home
I would close all the windows so no sound would come through
I would sit on my bed and sing my heart out into an imaginary microphone
I would dance until my legs felt like they would collapse, and you
Will never understand why I love being home alone
I would write out scripts to comedy skits and record them on my laptop
I would have ridiculous conversations with Siri on my phone
I would dramatically read the stories and poems I've written and won't stop
Until you come back, and ruin everything by simply being there
You'll barge into my room and laugh at me
You'll say how stupid it is, but I don't care
The next time you're gone I'll do it again, see?
Please be busy, go ahead, leave
No, I don't want to come, too.
Go ahead, go out, please
It's fun to do whatever knowing no one's there to judge you.
Apr 26, 2013
Apr 26, 2013 at 9:11 AM UTC
Heart racing
Heat rising
You're chasing
After chosen placing
To be on top
Of the rock
Instead of falling down
Replacing the sound
Of silence
It's hard to be quiet
Surrounded by
Nothingness suffocating
Everything that is
Everything that lives
And everything that doesn't
A throat, constricted
An unlikely victim
Falls again
Falls and bends
Broken but you
Don't care
You're at the beginning
Somewhere
Apr 23, 2013
Apr 23, 2013 at 7:19 PM UTC
When I wake up
I don't get a good morning
Or even
A hello
I get a "why didn't you turn in your library books yet?"
"Go clean your room"
"The way you're eating is disgusting"
"Look at all those horrible zits on your face"
"You're so lazy"
"Why haven't I seen [insert friend's name here] in so long?"
"No."
When I wake up
I don't get a good morning
Or even
A hello
I laze around in bed
And don't get up anytime soon
I laze around in bed
And don't get up until somewhere close to noon
You come upstairs and say, "Why are you in bed? Get up"
"You're being lazy again"
"Stop going on those stupid websites"
"Finish something for once"
"Do you have homework?"
So?
And you wonder why I don't get up in the morning
When the welcome I receive is far less than heartwarming
Apr 21, 2013
Apr 21, 2013 at 12:49 PM UTC
The media is every teenage girl's downfall
We pick up some ****** magazine on our way out and find some celebrity's tell-all
And we realize that our lives will never be as interesting
Our bodies will never be as beautiful
Our love will never be as sought after
We devour the pages of silly gossip and photoshopped lies
And yet, I think we all feel a little disappointed inside.
Apr 18, 2013
Apr 18, 2013 at 7:09 PM UTC
I sit there, my headphones in, volume up
And you dare tell me to turn it down
What you don't understand is that I need this
I need the volume so high that the screaming tangle of my brain is quieted down to a soft hum
So I'm not surrounded by an everlasting chorus of, "You're worthless."
So I'm not completely encompassed by these depressing thoughts
So I'm not breaking down when the cloud gets too heavy
So raindrops do not race down a pale-peach canvas
Reveling in my lips parting to mouth the lyrics written,
Written for somebody else yet they ring with my very soul
Written for everybody else yet they hear nothing
Except the turn of another page, another day, monotonous
An assembly line of nothingness
It's been broken for a while
It's been loaded down with disappointment for a while
You've failed again.
You've failed.
Again.
How dare you tell me to turn the volume down?
Apr 17, 2013
Apr 17, 2013 at 7:01 PM UTC
I had been hurt before, you see
That's why no one had ever trusted me
I stitched up my heart with a needle and thread
And I was almost done before you got inside my head
You blinded me, putting me under with your drugs
Pulling out my heart's hasty repairs tug by tug
Those few threads that barely held me there
You wielded a knife, cut them without a care
You can take your sticks and stones
You broke me, you won, now it's time to go
Apr 9, 2013
Apr 9, 2013 at 11:31 AM UTC