ocho-the-owl
American
Gingerly misstep with me / Let us fill up canyons, rivers and brooks with our errors and falsehoods / Let the bold grins on our face be mightier than a thousand arrows / / Let our gravestones bear the greatest markings ever known: / / CAME: Scared shitless / LEFT: Giggling uncontrollably
STILL ENRAGED
Still single
Still feeling ripped off
Still waking up alone
Still at these ******* coffeeshops only to **** time
Still hopeless
Still feeling weakened by loneliness
Still wanting to slit wrists
Still wishing I was never born
Still wanting to throw myself into oncoming traffic
Still wanting to cry & bash my head into a wall
Still alone
Still alone
STILL ALONE
Still feeling like a ******* outsider in a room filled with people who are my "FRIENDS"
Still losing my faith in humanity
Still here
with you
Jan 10, 2016
Jan 10, 2016 at 4:09 PM UTC
I hadn't planned on writing this
I also didn't plan on sitting here by my lonesome either
I would've much rather spent it in the arms of lover
curled up watching netflix
dreaming
laughing
But no
here I am instead
with you
Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 10:15 PM UTC
My beloved
awaits for my return
on
the other side of
this plane
I cannot return to her
Not yet
my mission here is not complete
And so...the road continues....
Endlessly.....
Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 2:20 PM UTC
She walked beside me
many, many centuries ago
our paths were one
I remember it distinctly
I could hold her and feel her life blood for hours at a time
Decades have passed since
and the sands of time have caused us to
grow apart....now I no longer recognize her
our paths no longer one
I now chase pavement
looking for someone whom I cannot recognize
and it hurts
And no amount of music or money or anything can change that
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 11:25 PM UTC
Don't you take
another step
leave your trivial problems at the door
(if only momentarily)
This world....when you really put all
mundane human quandaries aside
is a place of wonder, magnificence and
second to none
I love this place
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 12:01 AM UTC
This is a very surreal, very loud world we live in
Filled with lights and sounds
That can haunt the senses
How temporary it all is
Truly
Like a leaf, our season here is limited
Don't you dare take it for granted
Nov 1, 2014
Nov 1, 2014 at 11:49 PM UTC
I wonder how the world will end
I wonder if i will survive this winter
I wonder what its like to have a family
I wonder if i will ever find the stability and security that
I so desperately crave
I wonder what its like to die
I wonder who will be there to greet me on the other side
I wonder why my life has been such a roller coaster of ********
I wonder what its like to have something to keep fighting for
i went towards the light in search of meaning
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 3:40 PM UTC
I am alone with my thoughts
they slither around me.....hissing and shooting me
menacing looks
my future gets darker by the minute
all I want Is what everyone else has in excess
love, companionship, affection....a reason to continue fighting
The solitude will consume me
**** me out
my reward.....
death
what did the universe expect
after years of neglect?
Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 1:00 PM UTC
I am oozing with seething resentment and vitriol tonight
This raging beast comes
courtesy of alcohol and years of unrequited affection
I **** and seethe as I sit here typing this out
one stylus stroke at a time
All I wanted tonight was some affection
I deserve it
I truly do
instead the universe gives me nothing
I sit here
thoughts of hurting myself and others flood my mind
I am the opposite of strong
resentment overtakes what used to be merryment and cheer
I am human and god tonight
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 12:00 AM UTC
My intention is not to sound morbid....
I hope my death is a quick and sudden one
I hope my parting inspires people to get together
I hope absence is felt...
because at this moment.....
I feel unimportant, meaningless,
and devoid of companionship
Sep 25, 2014
Sep 25, 2014 at 8:00 PM UTC