I’m sorry I broke you
I’m sorry I broke you
At last I’m being true
Didn’t know what else to do
If yours tears will let you see
The difference within me
Overlook my selfish way
Allow me to convey
My most sincere explanation
Of why I would cause so much devastation
How I could break your soul
While holding your mind under my control
This selfish boy I was so proud to be
Was a beacon of negativity
Chaotically hovering over your vulnerability
Taking your kindness for granted idiotically
My suffering hid my true emotions
Causing a misrepresentation of devotions
Trying to share my suffering and pain
In a way only a monster can explain
I’m sorry I broke you
I’m sorry I broke you
Once I reassemble your pieces
And the pain ceases
And you choose to forget me
Would you ever consider forgiving me
Jun 19, 2018
Jun 19, 2018 at 7:07 AM UTC
Have those eyes seen
Or read between
Each and every tear
With someone near
Or running away
Broken in such a way
When pain can only convey
What is buried deep
Losing so much sleep
Thinking of the storm
In an embrace so warm
Lips caressing the silence
Of a love so intense
That is torn apart
Fearing a brand new start
Passion can blind me so
Not knowing where to go
I’m giving up again
Falling back within
Touch me are you real
Explain to me what I feel
Look into my eyes
See the scars from lies
I truly have tried to live
Have you seen what these eyes have to give
Jun 19, 2018
Jun 19, 2018 at 6:44 AM UTC
This day makes my suffering explode
Reminding me of the heavy load
I’m trying to carry around
Thoughts heavy facing the ground
Heart still broken
Painful images left unspoken
My mind is still in prison
Will anyone listen
To me confess
Share this stress
Help me mend those shattered pieces
Offer my depression some releases
See past my tattered exterior
Realize I’m not so inferior
No longer the menace I once was
Embracing the chaos just because
Will anyone listen
To me confess
Share this stress
Allow me to leave an impression
Accept this confession
Refrain from deploying judgement
Help me escape my imprisonment
Let me apologize for every word
Encouraging things I’ve rarely heard
Jun 19, 2018
Jun 19, 2018 at 6:41 AM UTC
If you ask
About your task
Why you stay
Among dismay
Teetering between lies
Wearing your disguise
Weaving your manipulation
To avoid subjugation
Wearing yourself thin
Again and again
Not realizing reality
Is fleeting quickly
Believing the fake
Every breath you take
Investing in misinformation
As a foundation
To move forward
Dashing blindly toward
What you avoid
Growing so paranoid
As days linger endlessly
Pressure mounts relentlessly
When it takes toll
You’re desire for control
Slows your progression
Heeding your obsession
To resist all peace
Causes your anxiety to increase
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 12:42 AM UTC
I woke today
Just like everyday
Continuing to hide
The loneliness inside
All the bad things
This world brings
Testing your strength
To its furthest length
With every challenge
As we manage
To keep shaking
The anxiety waking
While trying to maintain
Those thoughts we contain
While emotionally paralyzed
Keeping our heart sterilized
Can’t be close again
Or let another in
It’s the better call
No opportunity to fall
This is how I feel
I’m just being real
I had a plan
To be a better man
I’m not always right
I still try to fight
When I should just listen
But I still learn from every lesson
Apr 9, 2018
Apr 9, 2018 at 11:38 PM UTC
So I act different how
So tell me now
Don’t spin those lies
Open my eyes
To what you see
What has changed in me
Is it my cold demeanor
When you searched for the greener
Or does my ruthless silence
Increase the suspense
Thought you had me read
Boasting how you’re in my head
Did you beleive im blind
To the betrayal you hide behind
You mistook my kindness
Like the others as weakness
As my empathy disappears
You begin to shed tears
Where was your sensitivity
When you were acting so selfishly
I’m supposed to show forgiveness
Sorry I’m not that righteous
I assured you i can be heartless
So let me simply confess
Remember my heart you have broken
Like every deceptive word spoken
You will not do this to me twice One false love for me will suffice
Feb 4, 2018
Feb 4, 2018 at 10:18 PM UTC
Can you feel the breeze
Whispering with ease
As each stride
Empties all tension inside
As each forceful advance
Is symbolized in your stance
Your strength increasing
With every exhale releasing
Those antsy moments chasing
Subduing all stress you’re facing
Holding your head higher
Chasing your every desire
Doing what makes you real
Changing how you feel
Trying to trim that tummy
Which in my opinion is yummy
Lol just playing
All I’m saying
Keep pushing forward escalate
Embrace your beauty resonate
Crazy you’re humble too
Breathe beautiful be you
Feb 3, 2018
Feb 3, 2018 at 11:54 PM UTC
I shed tears
Not from fears
Sadness or pain
Let me explain
How the rage
Is like a cage
Anger filled teardrops
While all control stops
Tortured by choices made
As my innocence fades
Consumed by the madness
No longer afflicted by sadness
No longer feeling at all
Tears as I begin to fall
Into the trap others designed
To keep me emotionally blind
Now a tool of aggression
A corrupted savage possession
Wandering lost in the wild
This abused suffocating child
Make your judgement wisely
Be certain when you despise me
Understand why you hate me
Regardless if you truly know me
I continue to search for peace
Tears fall realizing theres no release
Feb 2, 2018
Feb 2, 2018 at 12:52 AM UTC
Shaking your head
From what I said
The words sting
Describing everything
We threw away
I would stay
But the choices made
Cut like a blade
Betrayal and lies
The love a disguise
For all the pain
With nothing gain
From this affair
I did care
I might seem strange
But things change
Everything comes to an end
You were my friend
Now I must go
If it was real I’ll never know
Feb 2, 2018
Feb 2, 2018 at 12:20 AM UTC
Don’t trust me
I’ll treat you poorly
This guy standing here
May seem sincere
But I’m hiding
While you’re deciding
To take a chance
To explore romance
With this bad guy
Pointless to try
To change me now
I’ve been lost somehow
My feelings are cold
Gets worse as I get old
I will cause you pain
Drive you insane
With every futile debate
You will grow with hate
When you see my face
Your feelings will misplace
Thinking of every storm deployed
As all trust is destroyed
After every emotional shove
You still try to show me how to love
I just can’t get it
Will cause you to regret it
Even though I wish to care
There’s just nothing left to share
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 12:50 AM UTC