I know I'm not old.
But I am older.
Older then I use to be.
but some days I still look in the mirror
and wonder if I'm still sixteen.
I still feel sixteen!
Last month I turned nineteen.
Just yesterday I was six years away from being nineteen.
and now I'm in college
and expected to know how to do everything.
Next year I'll be twenty
I don't think I'm ready
Life's going by too fast
Someone hit the breaks
before
I
crash.
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 12:00 AM UTC
I’m not the same person I was when I was 14.
Being hurt so many times has changed me.
In good ways and bad.
I get hurt but I don’t cry much.
People who hurt me aren’t worth my tears.
I’ve realized that I care more about people then they do about me most of the time.
I’ve distanced myself from these people.
I deserve better.
I’ve become self motivated.
Being self motivated all the time gets lonely
Sometimes I feel numb.
Numb because I’ve been hurt so many times that I don’t feel much.
I just shrug my shoulders and try to move on with my life.
When I was younger I would have cried for hours.
Thought about how it was all my fault that this happens to me.
I’m not that girl anymore.
Now I know that I’m not going to change for anyone.
I’ve gotten this way of thinking that I’m actually worth something.
And I still don’t know if it’s true.
But I’ll keep moving forward.
Keep doing what I’m doing for me
I think about if my 14 year old self would be proud of me
proud that I don't let people hurt me anymore
Or if she would be scared because I’ve gone numb.
Nov 4, 2016
Nov 4, 2016 at 2:04 PM UTC
I was just a 12 years old
When all my friends suddenly just turned cold
Thrown to the side
I cried and cried
Over the people I missed
Even though I was the one they dissed
They told me no one would ever love me
And I would grow up to be a big dummy
And it was true I wasn't good at school
But I got through and now I'm passing all my classes
Though it may seem that I've moved on
I'm still having nightmares about those days when I wished I was gone
Even though I know they can't get me no more I still wake up crying remembering how it felt to be ignored
Remembering those days when they made me so afraid
I felt so betrayed
Because these were my friends
Or maybe it was just pretend
So here I am I'm still broken
But at least now I've spoken
Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 4:53 PM UTC
You know all my secrets
You know those things I could never tell
You know who I love
You know who sat next to in English yesterday
You know all my problems
You know who my bestfriends are
You know who I hate
You know what I think of everyone
You know everything
And yet you don't tell a soul
You don't gossip and share my secrets with the world
I love you for this
I wish we shall never part
Because if we do that would break my heart
I love you dairy
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 11:43 AM UTC
I don't know what to do
I'm lost without you
I want you to take me away
Take my breath away
Look into my eyes and tell me I'm yours
I still think about you
Still think our love was true
I'm just another star in the sky
Cept this one doesn't shine
Sep 20, 2014
Sep 20, 2014 at 1:12 PM UTC
Yes I have curls on my head
Clothes on my bed
but do these things really need to be said?
I have art on my walls
I admit I'm not very tall
And no that is not all
I've got spanish in my veins
I've got looks that amaze
I've got lazy in my brain
A daddy that walks with a cane
Yes I have curls on my head
Clothes on my bed
And that is all that needs to be said
Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 11:48 PM UTC
I push and shove as I try to get through
Having to deal with people stepping on my shoes
No one wants to be late
Pushing and shoving trying to get to thier class that awaits
Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 11:02 PM UTC
I'm hurt
I'm upset
I'm done
I can't do this anymore
I can't keep going everyday thinking about you
While the only thing on your mind is her
I wish I was her
I wish I meant what she means to you
But I don't
And that's okay
It's time to move on
To keep walking
One day you'll realize what you missed out on
And you'll come back
But I won't be there
Ever again
Because I'm done with your games
Your lies
Your hugs
Everything
Goodbye
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 11:33 PM UTC
I miss the way things were
The way we use to hug
And tickle eachother
The way you use to come up behind me and spin me around
I feared out friendship would become a chore and so it has
You no longer enjoy talking to me
You no longer hug me or tickle me
Or try to make me feel better
I miss the way we use to be but I have to and am going to move on
I don't belong to you and nor you to me
So long old friend
it's time for our story to come to an end...
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 5:43 PM UTC
My life isn't the most fascinating but I live it
I don't dress the cutest but I wear what I wear with confidence
I'm not rich but I'm grateful for what I have
I fight with my family sometimes but I know I'm just lucky to have a family
My life isn't the best nor the worst but its okay and I love it....well most of the time
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 5:20 PM UTC