Let's fly away from here
An adventure we can share
Let's fly to Ireland, Rome, or France
Where under the stars alone we can dance
Let's fly away to a place that's always warm
So we'll never need to hide from another storm
Let's fly into the deep blue sky
Live our lives before we say goodbye
Let's fly away you and me
Free as birds we can be
Let's fly away today
Before someone makes us stay
Aug 20, 2016
Aug 20, 2016 at 10:38 PM UTC
My arms are red
My mood is blue
Why the hell
Do I still love you?
Jul 1, 2015
Jul 1, 2015 at 5:32 PM UTC
Who am I going to be
You tell me the best
Like Newton or Ghandi
That's a lot of stress
Don't put all that on me
Jun 23, 2015
Jun 23, 2015 at 4:41 PM UTC
You little **** Who gave you the right to decide that for me? I am my own person, if you don't like my choices then leave. Talk to me and we'll figure something out, that's how easy it'd be. If you would help me out, rather than call me out, sobriety would be an easier goal to achieve. But no, you shout and you shout, telling me I've done wrong. Commanding me to change rather than asking how to help me stop... You don't know half of the things I've seen and I've done. What happened to me to make me want to replace the missing pieces. The dark parts of my childhood, how I became a woman at the age of eight. How my step father touched me in that place. That place no little girl should have touched at that age. How dealing with high expectations that I know I cannot meet, not because I don't want to, but because my disability ties down my hands and feet. Feeling trapped by what happened to me. Living with that monster, pretending it's all okay. Controlling all my flashbacks and panic attacks. Pretending to be strong for five younger siblings who look up to me. Setting a perfect example, wearing myself down, ripping myself apart to satisfy everyone's needs. Trying my hardest to keep everyone around me happy because I know what it's like to hate yourself so much your pores ooze self doubt and insecurities. So sorry I drink and smoke **** and I don't meet your religious needs. Just let me finish this last cigarette please.
Jun 4, 2015
Jun 4, 2015 at 12:45 AM UTC
Kiss me like my lips are air and you're drowning. Wrap your arms around me like I'm the anchor keeping you from floating adrift. Get lost in my eyes that always look for you in a crowded room. Grab my waist and dance with me as if no one was looking. Cherish me like God's greatest gift. Tell me I'm as bright as the sun, prettier than the stars, and as pure as the full moon.
May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015 at 3:30 AM UTC
*I might be over you, but I can’t forget you
Tolerating the pain you left in my heart
Only took months of bottles and packs
I remember the day I said we were through
Saying you will regret us tore me apart
Why would you say that to my face?
That made my whole world collapse
I would much rather be the one you lost
Or a fuzzy memory
Than a regret you wasted so much time on
You’re the reason my cold heart thawed
You helped me up when I was unsteady
Believe me, I fell in love that day
Never knew someone would care so much
I’ll admit I still drunkenly listen to “our song”
He’s right everything seems to mean nothing
I want to hear you sing to me in spanish
And dance with me dreamily
Your arms were home; warm and loving
Well I’m over it, now it’s time for drinks*
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 11:46 AM UTC
**** you **** you **** you
**** you and your pretty eyes that put the stars to shame
**** you and your smile that made my tummy flutter for days
**** you and the way your smell intoxicated me
**** you and the way your arms kept me from falling apart
**** you and how you made me feel so safe
**** you and how you broke my heart
**** you **** you **** you
Apr 9, 2015
Apr 9, 2015 at 9:57 PM UTC
*Please don't leave me alone with these thoughts in my head
The monsters are coming and they're telling me I should be dead
They force down the blade, they slice up my skin
They tell me I belong in hell, and I should pay for my sins
Humming sweet tunes of death, I can always hear them
No matter how hard I try to ignore their sounds of torment
These monsters in my head they're tearing me to shreds
I want them to stop, with every drop of red, the voices become softer
I can barely hear them now, but they'll be back full volume all too soon
As long as they're still here, my mind will only get darker
I just want the voices to stop, I don't want to hear what they have to say
I want to tear out my heart and cut off my ears, I want the pain to end
These voices in my head make me ashamed of who I am everyday
I'm thinking of ways I could silence them, maybe I'm better off dead
My soul and body are becoming vacant and empty
The only thing still inhabiting me are those voices in my mind
The quick stinging pain of a cut is dulling the screams, but just barely
I'm already empty inside so all that's left is finding a way to die
I bought a new razor, I have my pills and a tub of hot water
When suddenly I'm hit with a memory, a memory of you
That single thought saved me from the slaughter
You called me perfect, you made me feel beautiful
I remembered your smile, your eyes, how you looked at me
I know you're hurting too, I'm sorry, just know you're irreplaceable
I'm fighting my demons, I'm locking them up and you are the key*
Dec 8, 2013
Dec 8, 2013 at 10:11 PM UTC
Two years ago I wouldn't have seen this coming
Drinking until I stumble and fall to the ground
Pools of scarlet grow with my arms slowly dripping
Believe me, I've been trying to turn it around
Oct 19, 2013
Oct 19, 2013 at 11:07 AM UTC
1 for the luck I need
2 for the beauty I never had
3 for the size 0 I couldn't wear
4 for my wrong doings and deeds
5 just because I'm sad
6 for the pain I bared
7 for the taunting
8 for my family
9 for my "friends"
10 for the nightmares that still haunt me
11 is just for me
12 a cheers for my life's end
And 16 more for every month my heart beat for you
I'll leave the bottle open and here for you
Just in case you suddenly remember or see
You still love me
Oct 1, 2013
Oct 1, 2013 at 1:25 PM UTC