nikkiav
I like to change my name :) / "It seemed like everyone knew what I deserved except for me" - Troublemaker / "When I think about the definition of heartless, the only thing that comes to mind is: a person that once cared too much." - Anger Issues / "Sometimes we don't want to fix ourselves, so we begin to fix others instead. But this then causes us to really forget about our own issues at hand" - Fixing Issues
It starts out with a word
Or a phrase
That hurts you deeply
You're in public
So you cannot blubber like a lunatic
Finding that power in yourself you walk away
But as soon as you have turned around
The tears flow like you just got out of the shower
Slowly
Those tears are the ones coming from the heart
You are silent
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 5:16 PM UTC
I think
The worst thing in life to see
Is a happy looking table
Full or people with wonderful souls
To cry like their life depends on it
They send a toast out
To all of those who aren't here with them
They thank each other for remembering
Tell their spouses "No need for the tears, love"
Share stories of the ones lost
The ones that left
They yell, and argue
Besides the fact they're family
And after that short- but sweet- time
They act like it never happened
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 8:46 AM UTC
my dreams are like getaways
to the astral plains above
the lights that can blind a blind man
the silence that can make a sane person erratic
oh my, my love
did you hear
all of them speak in hushed tones
they said
"make it come true, please"
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 10:01 PM UTC
she wasn't beautiful
she didn't have hair like silk
or eyes as bright as the sun
her lips weren't luscious
oh, they were far from it
chapped and pale
ratty clothing
stained face
scars all over
monotone voice and
an expressionless face
all she wanted was love and affection
and you never loved her
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 1:53 PM UTC
i see fire
in your eyes
when you talk about her
the passion coming straight from your heart
i hoped you'd talk
about me like that
i will always wish you happiness
but i just wish
it was with me...
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 11:40 AM UTC
we are stripped down
to blood and bone
no skin at all
because that isn't beautiful
our eyes are the colors of
emerald greens and
intense blue crystals
because brown isn't beautiful
we need designer things
Gucci and Prada
not target and walmart
because clothes need to be beautiful
if this is what beauty is
then i cant give it to you
i can act real
but we'll always be a little fake
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 5:48 PM UTC
you're my smoke
and I'm your art
too addictive to stop
cant get enough
my expression comes from you
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 8:28 PM UTC
run gossip
bang stress
snort loath
starve hate
smoke
purge steal
sleep cheat
hit gamble
drink lie
Go Mad
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 7:42 PM UTC
**I don't want to be
Just another hue
A pointless yellow
A sullen red
Or an achromatic painting
I don't want to be worth millions
Preferably
I want to be seen as art
An alluring item
In your eyes**
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 8:56 PM UTC
the heaviness i feel
when we talk
the pressure on my shoulders
the constant voice in my head saying
"don’t do it, don’t fall in love"
i thought you were
my defender
you hauled me out from my dull life
and brought cloudless days
after a while
i assume you got bored
had enough of your "play toy"
and left
in the first few months
the atmosphere was ordinary
i think it was a couple weeks
until i finally realized
your image
disguise
charade
was just an illusion
you're actually gone
you're not who i believed to be
it'll never be the same
just another
-important-
segment of life
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 6:25 PM UTC