**** it happened again,
where I pull my feelings out,
and put them back again,
my feelings shouldn't matter,
but apparently they can still get shattered.
comfortable, uncomfortable, and comfortable again,
it keeps happening the same, is it a shame or just lame?
I got it stuck in my head that all I wanna do is go to bed
holey socks shocks my classy mother,
who asks if I still wanna be a mother
Repetitiveness runs through me,
Obsessiveness comes ruining this so-called "life"
that I've come to live,
Cheers, I made it through another year,
is it really that important?
It's like shittin' on all my dreams
whenever I open my eyes,
let the pendulum swing
till it tells everything
feels like a little kid today,
but I keep hatin' away
police make me nervous,
maybe a little curious,
it's nice outside,
********
I like when it's like ice outside
hide your scars like you hide your feelings,
no one ever sees them,
everybody thinks you're fine,
and no one knows you're lyin'
hatin' on your body,
hatin' on your insides,
don't try callin' me,
you won't make it better,
shoot me in the foot,
it would hurt lesser
than the feelings I keep feeling,
**** I don't even listen.
I say things won't help because I've already tried them,
don't say it, I'm stubborn
I'm not gonna let you help
because I'm just a ******
**** this *****
roll a blunt, and just give up.
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 11:51 PM UTC
sharing your space,
the space I love,
the space I crave,
you keep me warm,
you keep me comfortable,
the heat in our minds,
the heat is fine.
reds, oranges, and yellows make up you,
blues, greys, and blacks too
the sky and the earth come together,
the sky and the earth are one that is treasure
sleepy, sleepy,
need to wake up
sleepy, sleepy,
remember our luck?
the luck we have,
the luck we share,
the space I need,
the space that cares
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 11:37 PM UTC
looking past my pain,
I like the rain.
my hatred is gone,
so,
so long
I hope I won't miss you,
because away I flew
into the air,
drifting,
floating,
not fading away,
so you don't have to stay
with me because I can do this on my own,
with my crown being shown
light now fulfills my dreams,
nothing terrible I wish among me,
at least not anymore,
as I stare at the floor,
the creaks in the wood,
I thought I never could.
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 11:33 PM UTC
The things I remember
stay in my brain
because of this,
I am still in pain.
you may not know what it is,
I am sorry I didn't tell you,
but please, please understand this:
It won't seem to fade,
this memory of shame,
how can I stop being afraid?
I am scared shitless
it will happen again,
but this time will I be the witness?
I love you so much,
but you're not safe,
what will you do this time,
bash in my face?
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 11:18 PM UTC
He says he loves my mouth
Says he wonders what my lips feel like
He says that his eyes are glued to me,
And that if he saw me, he would just stare
I would stare back.
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 10:21 PM UTC
You have a leaf on your shoe,
I bet that was noticeable for you
By the time you got to my house I had the flu
Stuck in bed,
I have to fix what's inside my head
You're so nice to be around,
You make me forget my stomach hurts
Normally I would ***** at the sight of anybody else,
But I guess that's just because you're afraid of *****
When people are much more terrifying
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 10:13 PM UTC
You say true happiness comes from within,
Well I can't ******* find it and I'm too tired of looking.
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 5:34 PM UTC
Spending too much time writing what I am spending too much time on
This should be simple.
Clear and simple,
Clear and simple.
Like glass,
Clear and simple
You call me cute while you break a shard of unspoken about glass, and You dig it into my skin, my throat.
Me, hoping to die,
You, hoping to show me how much you love me, if you love me at all
Knuckles cracking,
You hurt me,
You make me sad.
I love you, but you're always mad.
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 5:27 PM UTC
My old favorite underwear
Missing, probably trashed
You wouldn't approve, wouldn't dare
I have to always look pretty,
Even if I have to ***
Always have to wear something that shows me off
When I really just want to wear ******* socks
You want **** hot,
Lacey aught
To do the trick, right?
Can't I just wear my
Fruit of the Loom old underwear?
Why do I have to follow your rules?
**** you, you're a fool
You can't make me do anything,
So I won't do anything for you
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 11:42 PM UTC
I know I'm only a year older
But I think I might be able to help you a little
Don't let what you think the truth is, smolder
You're a small flower bud right now,
I wish you didn't have to go through this
I've been through it all, still going through it,
I'll help you blossom into something extravagant,
Something you'll adore while you're here and human
Well at least I hope you will
Small hopes and dreams will help you create
The confidence to grow
Don't sell your thoughts to someone cheap,
Value them,
Cherish them,
Keep them safe, don't just share them to anyone
Keep yourself safe as well,
If you think no one cares about you,
I do, and I know that isn't much,
But I just met you and you are worth trying for.
Please try to remember that.
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 11:05 PM UTC