I can’t shed another tear
my dreams of us, they stop right here
for you made true
my every fear
Dec 22, 2018
Dec 22, 2018 at 3:59 PM UTC
When I'm happy
He's always there
But when I'm sad
He goes away somewhere
When I speak in a joyous way
He will listen and talk all day
But when I speak about my sadness
He shuts off, driving me to madness
When I try to explain how this hurts me
He even further ignores me
Then when I cry about this pain
He steps back even further away
He might show up some time late after
With his excuses and attempts at laughter
But I won't laugh, or even smile
Because this pain lasts such a long while
I will just try to say
How he hurt me by running away
But he won't listen, as he does it again
Running away from my emotion
So to him, I plea and plea
Just to be treated respectfully
Just to be treated like he values me
Just to be treated like my feelings matter
Just to be treated with empathy, not laughter
For one who laughs at others' pain
Uses others' suffering to their own gain
And all the mean boys who makes girls weep
Are mirror reflections of him and how he treats me
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 4:02 PM UTC
*They are everything
Bring us to our knees
They tear us apart
How are we free
When they have our heart?
They are everything
all mighty and strong
They shake our world
Tell us right from wrong
But where are they?
Where have they gone?
The men in our lives
Are for whom we long
The men in our lives
Seeming so strong
They hold us up
And tear us down
The men in our lives
Are stronger now
As we give them more
Our love
Our hearts
Our whole self we pour
They absorb us
And sweep us away
The men in our lives
Can always have their way
And so many men in our lives tend to stray
But who are we
To be so weak?
And who are we
To not even speak?
They create us
Captivate us
With their eyes
Their opinions break us in two
But we look into their eyes
And still say, “I need you”
They come and go as they please
Break our hearts with so much ease
From the fathers that leave
To the boys that cheat
To the pain that brings us to our knees
The men in our lives are all that we need*
Jan 2, 2017
Jan 2, 2017 at 4:10 PM UTC
I just want to sit in my room all night
I want to drink til I feel alright
and smoke til I’m completely fried
and I just want to cry
and if I stay here long enough
maybe it won’t be so tough
maybe I’ll get past this stuff
but for now I’ll lay alone
in my room by the phone
wishing that all lies be known
maybe that would change my tone
and I just want to cry
I just want to sit in my room all night
and hope it passes by
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:52 PM UTC
*I made you a promise
one I’d always keep
but you became dishonest
leaving me vulnerable and weak
one minute I was your world
the next, just some girl
so, you became my everything
as I became your nothing
so I tried to hold on
as I was hoping for something
but to you it was gone
so now I have nothing
I gave you my heart
heavy and sad
you tore it apart
took all that I had
you promised me a life
and that you’d never leave
to me it felt so right
but I had been deceived*
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:49 PM UTC
I keep smoking
just another cigarette
thought I quit
but I’m choking
feel broken
had misspoken
can’t breathe
we can’t be
it hurts
you see
he runs to me
but then he’s gone
he runs from me
and there he is
loves
yet hates
wants it all
then he fades
and where’d he go
he’s gone I’m sure
but I don’t know
thought his love was pure
then gone again
wondering when
the love will last
he fell so fast
in then out
when I fell in
there was no doubt
and can’t fall out
while he’s asleep
no longer in it
I lay and weep
because I’m within it
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:46 PM UTC
no one to call
and no one calls you
no one there when you fall
nobody true
seeing friends in your dreams
so real they all seem
waking up lonely again
knowing that you’re not blending in
hearts get broken
and no one stays
words get misspoken
as they walk away
it’s a tragedy
you’re life is a travesty
no one is who they seem to be
you’re shattered
and scattered
not one friendship that mattered
you’re simply not coping
and a friend is the only thing for which you were hoping
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:44 PM UTC
always holding the world on my back
and day by day it continues to stack
til I collapse
and hold no more
I close the door
on what once was
coming in towards newer stuff
but help me yield I’ve had enough
I’m pushing off and losing ground
yet still the answer has not been found
so I surround
my heart with comfort
so I don’t hurt
and feel the pain
I keep rationalizing to keep me sane
lying to myself
I should be crying to myself
but I’m oblivious to all else
and I’m pretending that’s not so
but truth’s shining through and already I know
…I know.
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:43 PM UTC
did you get what you wanted?
did you bring back the dead?
I am still haunted
by the things that you said
was it so great to have her in your bed?
and did it match up to the thoughts in your head?
you ****** me
you hurt me
you struck me
and burnt me
you got what you wanted
and I am still haunted
by you being split-hearted
and by feeling discarded
for you couldn’t let go
of someone behind you
and when she did find you
you let me know
that you being over her was all a show
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:30 PM UTC
*you stood there
in front of me
a deep blue stare
depth of the sea
so I buried
my head in your chest
but I worried
you’d put your love to rest
so I held on
and wouldn’t let go
I held on
til there was no place to go
but I held on
til I hit a wall
and I held on
til there was no further to fall
but there was a moment
crystallized in time
there was a moment
engraved in my mind
it was your eyes
and your touch
your eyes
were too much
but for a moment
I kept staring
it was a moment
we were sharing
and I held on to that moment
with all my strength
but turns out that moment
was lacking in length
so the love passed me by
and I kept pulling you in to stay
but once that moment flew by
you kept pushing me away*
Dec 20, 2016
Dec 20, 2016 at 1:29 PM UTC