Is it sad when i say
That i might want to die today
Should i worry that i may try
To do something that isn't right
I know people may miss me
I know some will mourn
I know some will ask why
And part of me thinks
Some won't even care why
They will say 'twas such a shame
That he wasted away
Dead by his own hand
Then that will be all
They will walk away
And never think of me again
These people i fear
Will be the ones that are most dear
The ex for whom i yearn for
The friends who i adore
The one night stand whom I'd want again
The people that I'd take a bullet for
But they would not repay
I lie here and suffer
An enemy within
He broke through the gates
He banged down the door
He taunts and screams for more
Nothing can stop him
Because he is me
And the defenses I built
Can be smashed to bits
If he sees it fit to be
He is my tormenter
Always at my throat
Taunting that i won't be anything
That i am just a joke.
Maybe he is right or maybe he is wrong
All i know is that
I don't want to fight
Not anymore
Jan 1, 2018
Jan 1, 2018 at 4:10 AM UTC
Deep inside there is something hiding
a dark ball that no one can touch
I've locked it in a box
and kept it in the deepest crevice
for I fear of it getting out
many have tried to see the ball
through my eyes to my soul
however none have made it through
to the hidden treasure I keep
because if they ever do
I will never sleep
The darkness will show my true light
something that keeps me erratic
so I continue to push away
anyone who tries to find it
yet its only a matter of time
before my box will remain hidden
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 12:28 AM UTC