on the dotted line, sign the lease;
it's a deal for your inner peace.
where you sell your soul for a sum
in a hope that they tell no one.
you pray that the paper doesn't sell,
the fact that you have a one way ticket to hell.
Feb 7, 2023
Feb 7, 2023 at 11:59 PM UTC
as the sun rises, a california poppy blooms...
awake, face-to-face, in a dream haze i see you.
blue body, your body is blue.
still, i can see your body still.
waiting for the final release, we both broke free.
chains, chains that held us both onto each other.
there's nothing like a bond between daughter and mother.
when, when we found your body pale and blue.
prayed we did, in hopes that we would still get to see you.
pumping into lifeless veins, so little oxygen remained.
cold, still, and dead you were.
the only conclusion is that you were gone, it was what was left to concur.
but,
i still see you, hear you, and breathe you.
because,
as the sun rises, a california poppy blooms...
they remind me of you mom,
i can hear the petals rustle softly and know you're with me,
i can exchange oxygen with it, in hopes that it won't lose the battle of life this time around.
Jul 21, 2021
Jul 21, 2021 at 8:13 PM UTC
I desperately want you.
Not in a ****** or constraining way,
But in a way that allows me to give all of myself onto you.
I want to please you and complete you as we go about this life day by day.
I want to wake up in your bed that you allowed me to call "ours".
I want to be the one you come home to after hard evenings and even harder decisions,
Because you're doing the best for our family and future.
I want you desperately.
I want desperately to be yours and my life to be intertwined with yours.
Jul 21, 2021
Jul 21, 2021 at 8:01 PM UTC
there's so much to do,
so much to see.
so much to view,
but where do i see me?
in all of this chaos,
where is safe and free?
in so much change and loss,
my faith in a happy fate is weary.
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 11:04 PM UTC
every day i wait;
for the day i stop the hate,
the hating of myself.
Jul 17, 2020
Jul 17, 2020 at 12:48 PM UTC
three inches --
that's how far away you are from a corset that cinches.
so close, yet so far...
you aren't up to standards, you aren't up to par.
beauty is in the eye of the beholder --
hell, you'll be even more grotesque as you get older.
words cut deeply from those you care for...
i'm sorry that i can't be your perfect little *****
Jun 21, 2020
Jun 21, 2020 at 8:42 PM UTC
what would it be like to let go?
to let myself get that low...
what would it be like to jump?
to let my demons have triumph...
what would it be like to fall?
to never wake up from it all...
what would it be like to die?
to let my soul fly...
what would it be like to cease?
to let myself rest in peace...
Jun 11, 2020
Jun 11, 2020 at 1:23 AM UTC
it's 2 'o 8 and rather late,
may 9th is the date,
we said goodnight an hour ago,
but i can't seem to fall asleep so...
i lay in bed thinking of you
and all the amazing things you do.
the way your hand fits into mine
and the way our hearts align.
no one can compare
because you and i are a lovely pair.
dare i say something passionate and clever?
i want you now and i need you forever.
"goodnight my handsome,
i promise i won't get lonesome."
May 9, 2020
May 9, 2020 at 5:17 AM UTC
light shining through the slates.
a calendar with marked off dates.
a photo frame or two,
the smiles of me and you.
a sleepy kiss of the cheek,
laying down, but knees gone weak.
let's stay here forever more,
oh my lover whom i adore.
lying in bed so close to you,
time in your arms is overdue.
wake me up when it's dawn,
but let me dream if this is gone.
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 9:08 PM UTC
my love, things get rough
but together, we are enough.
sometimes we mess up,
but you still fill up my cup.
your words and voice,
i feel as if there is no other choice.
my love for you has changed,
but not into something misarranged.
but rather, despite the bad times,
and all of these dumb rhymes.
i want you and all your flaws,
the worst parts of you, even the claws.
i want your good and your bad,
and to hold you when you're sad.
i've loved you since way before,
and i love you now even more.
i love the good parts of you,
and the not so good ones too.
you make me indescribably happy,
and you mean so much to me.
Apr 22, 2020
Apr 22, 2020 at 3:39 PM UTC