There are a million different ways to feel,
Pain and fear, before you start to heal.
Sometimes it comes all at once—
A punch to the gut, a kick to your shin.
Other times it’s like a haunting echo,
Nibbling in the depths of your mind — a soft bellow.
Late at night when you toss and turn,
It creeps upon you with a slow, aching burn.
If too much catches you by surprise—
You burst fast and bright, like fireworks against the night sky.
Try to control it and it fancies a little dance with you,
Little contractions to keep you on your toes—
slow, slow, quick, quick, slow.
Never mind the anxiety you try to hide,
That feeling between Fear and Pain,
It is Agony, but you can call it any other name.
Oct 26, 2021
Oct 26, 2021 at 2:22 PM UTC
We share words
You and I
Jokingly, mischievously and viciously.
We talk
You and I
Our conversation a dance.
This is what we have
You and I
We can never have more.
And that,
Is all.
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 5:31 AM UTC
Every Saturday it is the same
Every Saturday I sit
I stare at the ticking hands and wait
No need to tell me I've been tamed
As the seconds pass
I watch my reflection in the glass
It is a wonder, I think
That I still look the same as the second before that passed
Yet inside I know a little more has died
Each tick brings me one step closer
To where you have gone
To a place of peace and sound.
And one day, many years from now
Someone will sit and wait,
Looking at the face that is at once theirs and not
And remember the hour of my passing,
Just as I sit and wait and remember yours.
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 10:59 AM UTC
Before I turn old and grey,
And begin to fade away,
Hold on to me tight
So I won’t slip away into the night.
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018 at 6:33 AM UTC
So I didn’t turn out in your image
I can’t sing I can’t dance
I can barely put a tune together
On the ***** stashed away
I have tried and failed
Again and again
Like a broken tape recorder
Echoing in a desolate house
I have become
A tattoo you can’t scratch out
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 9:10 AM UTC
I can’t read the stars
I can’t see the future
What I can read is what is in front of me
What I can see is this moment
All I can be is me
Jan 23, 2018
Jan 23, 2018 at 9:31 PM UTC
It’s a riddle to some
It is to me I admit
It sneaks up to me as I lay down
My head on my pillow
My brows furrow
Thoughts burrowing deep.
This is the fear,
The unseen,
The uncertainty, for all I know, may win,
Clawing it’s way up my spine.
I shut my eyes then snap them open
To remind myself I’m still alive.
I can’t wait
But I also can’t stop
The feeling of dread
That bundles and grows
As the minutes drop
One by one like lead.
When does it begin?
Or better yet, end?
When will it come?
When will it go?
It’s one of life’s riddles -
I just don’t know.
So I lie in bed and wait...
The ticking of the clock my only mate.
Jan 23, 2018
Jan 23, 2018 at 11:10 AM UTC
It's part and parcel of growing up,
The things you gain and
The things you lose.
The pain you feel
When the shelter you've had couldn't protect you
Your mind reels
Your stumble, your fall,
The feeling of losing it all;
You're not in control,
But a pawn in Life's thrall.
You're never sure,
You're surely lost,
It's better to admit it now,
Then let your pride rule and before
The higher you climb,
The faster you fall.
It is a fact, you can never have it all.
Oct 4, 2017
Oct 4, 2017 at 10:42 PM UTC
The moon looms
Big and bright
It has been some time
Since I’ve sat
Basking in the silence of the night
I can't believe
Being alone could be noisy
As I sink into its depths
A million thoughts whirl
Stealing my breath.
How many times?
Have I followed this line?
I can't be sure
Feelings leftover
Like wraiths they linger
Silence ringing in my ears
Aug 1, 2017
Aug 1, 2017 at 3:15 AM UTC
The nights are cold
The roads are rough
But tremble not
You know you're tough
The fact you've put in effort is enough
It's ok to sit back, enjoy, and laugh
The nights are long
The journey gets tough
You brace yourself
Enough, you think, is enough
You put your foot down
And stomp real hard
You've come this far
They'll just have to let you pass
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 12:41 PM UTC