i cannot make myself say why I like you
& trust me i've tried
a blank piece of paper
and yet i can produce no words
so why do the tears come at night?
and at school?
do you remember on the bus, you sat behind me
you drifted peacefully off to sleep
and your face was so calm and pure
i literally cried
i'm not sure i could ever let you know how much i like you
when i cannot even put it into words myself
perhaps it is because you are the first boy to ever make me feel like a pretty girl
one day i'll tell you how many times i've cried over you
Mar 3, 2022
Mar 3, 2022 at 1:50 AM UTC
brisk october air sneaks through my cracked car window,
tracing its path, tickling my neck and brushing my hair behind my ear
you're tapping your fingers on the steering wheel along to the beat
my favorite song
and when the chorus strikes, you glance over at me, grinning, completing me.
i can't remember the last time i was this happy
we get to party, arms entangled on my hips as we stroll in
i am consumed in you so entirely
i am yours
i'm not sure where it fell apart
i think about it a lot
how thoughts can be become daggers
and happy memories machine guns
my heart beats so hard it could explode
and my fingers tingle and ache
missing your touch? your hands?
i'm not sure how to tell them that it isn't coming back
Feb 27, 2022
Feb 27, 2022 at 8:21 PM UTC
i say your name
in my sleep
you are the only one
i have ever dreamed of
and when you’re gone
far away
i just think about better days
when you held my face in your hand
you just understand
it is you, my heart demands
should there ever come a day
when you no longer feel this way
although i will feel very blue
i could never stop adoring you.
Feb 27, 2022
Feb 27, 2022 at 8:08 PM UTC
i say your name
in my sleep
because you are the only one
i've ever dreamed of
Feb 27, 2022
Feb 27, 2022 at 8:07 PM UTC
everything
that's it thats the whole poem
Feb 15, 2021
Feb 15, 2021 at 12:13 PM UTC
when my world shattered in front of me
& i could not control the shaking
or the cascade of hot tears
when i could not summon the strength
to call out your name,
but i thought you might turn around
when you walked away
as i needed you most
i knew i meant nothing to you
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 12:59 AM UTC
i called you from the home phone
just to hear your voice
your sweet, sweet voice
that once said you loved me
oh how I miss
Jul 15, 2020
Jul 15, 2020 at 11:25 PM UTC
when the tears come at night
and my entire body shakes, as each piece of my being
falls deeper into the dark pit
i know i am living for no one at all
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 10:26 PM UTC
in my youth
i would sprint up
the 16 stairs from my basement
the only light switch at the bottom
and in the dark, I forced my way to the top
my feet fast as lightning
so the monsters lurking in the dark
wouldn't catch me; they couldn't take my soul
but then I got older
and the 16 stairs in the basement
didn't seem as daunting
i don't run up the stairs anymore
because i don't fear the monsters
a small piece of me
hopes that perhaps if i go up the stairs too slowly
they will catch me
and take my soul, envelop me in the darkness
i know they cannot pull me any further down the hole of darkness
that i dug in my brain
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 10:01 PM UTC
The route feels so familiar
so sure
so confident
and yet
i'm not prepared
Like walking through a maze backward
i know the route
i've gone the distance already
and yet
one wrong turn
and it's all over
i feel like i haven't met you yet
and i already let
you in
i already let you know
i'm a fool
only for you
i'm sorry
i'm a lot of things
like walking through a maze backward
i'm anticipating the turns,
i'm anticipating the end
Dec 28, 2018
Dec 28, 2018 at 5:52 PM UTC