natalie-lusk

Nothing 
At all
This is what I
Am.
Life makes me
Infinitely small
Entirely aware that the
Monsters I have made
Are bigger than me.
Ravenous for nothing more 
Intrinsic than an
Ear to decipher their 
Lies and
Understand their cannibal
Screams as they are
Killed by one who knows them well
Killed by 
Silence
Until they die and only I am 
Left to say
Everything that was 
Important to me before they
Ruined me. Destroyed 
All of 
Me. And in the
End maybe
I can
Let them go. 
Although I love their loving infliction
They sadistically comfort me, without them I am 
Alone, I
Need them and I don't want to escape.