natalie-christensen - Hello Poetry

Most people are hiding at big parties like this one I came here alone with glitter on my face as protection Now everyone I've met is on ketamine and oversharing I pick lemons from the tree that reaches over the fence and start handing them out but no one wants them No one wants my kindness Everyone just wants to make out and forget everything Perhaps I'll be the only one with memory of this night I'm stone cold sober but I too can be more honest than usual It's like one of those theoreticals someone asks you "You have one hour to say whatever you want without anyone remembering it: what would you say?" I tell everyone they are beautiful and that I wish I could hold them and give them something real They look at me how I imagine a ghost would before I disappear back into los angeles

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Jul 13, 2021

Jul 13, 2021 at 3:08 PM UTC

Come together and forget everything

Most people are hiding at big parties like this one I came here alone with glitter on my face as protection Now everyone I've met is on ketamine and oversharing I pick lemons from the tree that reaches over the fence and start handing them out but no one wants them No one wants my kindness Everyone just wants to make out and forget everything Perhaps I'll be the only one with memory of this night I'm stone cold sober but I too can be more honest than usual It's like one of those theoreticals someone asks you "You have one hour to say whatever you want without anyone remembering it: what would you say?" I tell everyone they are beautiful and that I wish I could hold them and give them something real They look at me how I imagine a ghost would before I disappear back into los angeles

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the chances of my existence are low both of us existing simultaneously? that's a long shot now think of the chances we cross paths and I'll tell you if that's possible then anything is

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Jul 1, 2021

Jul 1, 2021 at 1:30 AM UTC

even love

the chances of my existence are low both of us existing simultaneously? that's a long shot now think of the chances we cross paths and I'll tell you if that's possible then anything is

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Please, Don’t be angry with me Not because I fear your fury Rather Because I know anger hurts Like burning yourself Don’t pull me into the flame Or at the very least Don’t make me watch you

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Apr 17, 2021

Apr 17, 2021 at 7:33 PM UTC

Don't make me

Please, Don’t be angry with me Not because I fear your fury Rather Because I know anger hurts Like burning yourself Don’t pull me into the flame Or at the very least Don’t make me watch you

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Hello, Can you feel it when you get old? Or is it just something you know about yourself? -Natalie Hello Natalie, We’ll get back to you by 2060. Thanks again! Best, Time.

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Apr 17, 2021

Apr 17, 2021 at 7:32 PM UTC

A letter to aging

Hello, Can you feel it when you get old? Or is it just something you know about yourself? -Natalie Hello Natalie, We’ll get back to you by 2060. Thanks again! Best, Time.

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Why do I always end up with boys with C names A pit in my stomach you crawled out of you wouldn’t believe me if I said I fly under giants sometimes I’d believe anything you told me I’ll never unsee you that night I'm glad pain happens in the first place And if I wait and wait and wait And allow the sun to soak in my skin Can you come closer again I don’t want my dreams because of you In between awake and falling down the hole again I kept avoiding your eyes because they are matches my skin is burning in patches, of grass, of abandonment Lights fade in and out I keep seeking predictions other people want to give me But I also know that the whole point is that I’m not supposed to know yet These things reveal on their own

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Mar 15, 2021

Mar 15, 2021 at 11:55 PM UTC

Do I like to hurt

Why do I always end up with boys with C names A pit in my stomach you crawled out of you wouldn’t believe me if I said I fly under giants sometimes I’d believe anything you told me I’ll never unsee you that night I'm glad pain happens in the first place And if I wait and wait and wait And allow the sun to soak in my skin Can you come closer again I don’t want my dreams because of you In between awake and falling down the hole again I kept avoiding your eyes because they are matches my skin is burning in patches, of grass, of abandonment Lights fade in and out I keep seeking predictions other people want to give me But I also know that the whole point is that I’m not supposed to know yet These things reveal on their own

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Oh, you know the one He’s like Scrunched nose Art kid in the back Quiet but not in a moody way Just likes to listen You sure? He’s like Laugh so sweet My mind won’t allow me to remember what it sounds like Heart so pure I worry when I kiss him I’ll have given too much Feels so far away His absence is my youth

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Mar 15, 2021

Mar 15, 2021 at 4:54 PM UTC

You know

Oh, you know the one He’s like Scrunched nose Art kid in the back Quiet but not in a moody way Just likes to listen You sure? He’s like Laugh so sweet My mind won’t allow me to remember what it sounds like Heart so pure I worry when I kiss him I’ll have given too much Feels so far away His absence is my youth

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All the hidden thoughts of anyone I ever knew Are now Revealed Winding down green roads Toward ethereal suns An infinity of flowers show their colors at last I smell them one by one I have time for that now All the evils that stripped me of sanity Are now Understood

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Mar 15, 2021

Mar 15, 2021 at 4:44 PM UTC

This is what heaven looks like to me

All the hidden thoughts of anyone I ever knew Are now Revealed Winding down green roads Toward ethereal suns An infinity of flowers show their colors at last I smell them one by one I have time for that now All the evils that stripped me of sanity Are now Understood

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Hello, It's a new day She welcomes you With warm arms Today is a directional word The "day" is nothing unless you go "to" it All this time you thought you were nothing Without them And while it isn't as romantically tragic To move on with your life I think you ought to Fall into the embrace won't you Restart won't you Return to yourself.

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Mar 15, 2021

Mar 15, 2021 at 11:47 AM UTC

Restart

Hello, It's a new day She welcomes you With warm arms Today is a directional word The "day" is nothing unless you go "to" it All this time you thought you were nothing Without them And while it isn't as romantically tragic To move on with your life I think you ought to Fall into the embrace won't you Restart won't you Return to yourself.

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You didn't have to Tell me you know What do you think you know Anyway Certainty is illusive yet we were together This was real and I can't bear the thought that it wasn't. Shuffling next to me in the hallway Not responding to my questions but listening to me intently Fighting my brother when I asked you to Quick, kiss me behind the garage before I switch schools before I lose myself On the painting of my face that you made Which took you 30 hours In the corner, in tiny handwriting "Hey, I like you." You didn't have to Tell me you know You were always so obvious without saying a thing.

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Mar 14, 2021

Mar 14, 2021 at 11:41 PM UTC

He's an artist

You didn't have to Tell me you know What do you think you know Anyway Certainty is illusive yet we were together This was real and I can't bear the thought that it wasn't. Shuffling next to me in the hallway Not responding to my questions but listening to me intently Fighting my brother when I asked you to Quick, kiss me behind the garage before I switch schools before I lose myself On the painting of my face that you made Which took you 30 hours In the corner, in tiny handwriting "Hey, I like you." You didn't have to Tell me you know You were always so obvious without saying a thing.

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I’m writing these lines instead of distracting myself from you So that I may finish what needs to end and begin what needs to start Sweet, sweet anticipation Dripping, all glitter and gold Down from my ceiling onto my pillowcase Deep into my dreams Descending a spiral staircase Heavy, patient footsteps Be patient as the light pours through the window! creating a warm aura on the angel fluffs that float by the river, little travelers, fairies if you will Now I’ve sunk so deep into distraction that I ask what fraction of my life has occurred inside and outside of my mind

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Feb 23, 2021

Feb 23, 2021 at 11:25 PM UTC

Second of February

I’m writing these lines instead of distracting myself from you So that I may finish what needs to end and begin what needs to start Sweet, sweet anticipation Dripping, all glitter and gold Down from my ceiling onto my pillowcase Deep into my dreams Descending a spiral staircase Heavy, patient footsteps Be patient as the light pours through the window! creating a warm aura on the angel fluffs that float by the river, little travelers, fairies if you will Now I’ve sunk so deep into distraction that I ask what fraction of my life has occurred inside and outside of my mind

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