Mi primer amor tenía doce años y uñas negras.
Mi primer amor tiene ojos grandes y una sonrisa de cachete a cachete,
Aunque nunca te miraba a los ojos,
Y nunca sonreía en fotos.
Mi primer amor me rompio el corazón.
Lo fue sacando de pedazo en pedazo,
Y yo la deje…
En autos, en parques, en cines,
Me entregue.
Mar 4, 2016
Mar 4, 2016 at 1:13 AM UTC
1) Because your eyes looked like new beginnings, like adventures just waiting to happen
2) Because your lips were begging to be kissed, between the singing and the sighs and the moans
3) Because as I lay my head on your chest while you slept, it didn't bother me that your heartbeat was loud, and God was it ******* loud
4) Because it was you, just you, in the numbers, in the art, even in the breakfast cereal
5) Because it was even you in my breakfast cereal
6) Because the first time you caressed my skin I swore you could hear my blood rushing throughout my whole body
7) Because I wanted you so much closer
8) Because it was never close enough
9) Because even the closest would never be "close enough"
10) Because you always hugged me as if it were the first time you saw me again
11) Because you always hugged me as if it were the last time you'd see me
12) Because your skin on mine reminded me of a dad who used to watch scary movies on the couch with me, until one day I simply didn't fit/anymore
13) Because the tip of my index finger was drawn to the freckles on your nose like two opposite ends of the same magnet
14) Because I never understood Physics until that moment
Nov 29, 2015
Nov 29, 2015 at 11:38 PM UTC
I wake up to your snoring at 3 am,
I want to wake you but my mother taught me to not put my hands on what I consider precious,
Instead I reminisce on poems written about you so many years ago and cuddle under your arm,
Knowing it won't disturb your peaceful state
Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
I remember every kiss we ever kissed, you kissed me 1,923 times, I remember our first kiss and I remember our last kiss and every single kiss in between, I remember that night when I was standing in the middle of the street and your parents were waiting for you back at home and I looked you in the eyes and I told you I could die exactly that moment and I wouldn't regret a single thing, I remember when we were in the park, and I was crying because I knew you were leaving soon, you kissed me on every single bench, beneath every single tree, I remember the kiss that was suppose to be our last, you shouldn't have come back, but I don't remember every kiss I kissed trying to replace yours, I don't remember the names of all those people who touched my skin underneath our moonlight, amidst our bedsheets, but I remember us on those stairs, I had been in love with you for months by then, my hand was shaking and I leaned in and just as you had time to acknowledge what happened, I left, I cried that night, I don't know why, maybe I knew what was coming, I remember how you told me you never thought you would not want to kiss me, well it’s been two years since our meeting at the Great Wall of China, don’t come back this time...
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 10:46 PM UTC
***THE PILLS THEY GAVE ME AREN'T MAKING YOU GO AWAY TONIGHT, YOU'RE STILL HERE AND AT TIMES I WONDER IF I ONLY PUT YOU AWAY TO TAKE YOU BACK OUT ON NIGHTS LIKE THESE, I'M SO ******* IN LOVE WITH YOU IT HURTS MY CHEST, EVERYTHING'S BLURRY AND I MISS YOU AND I CAN'T FEEL MY INSIDES, IS THIS WHAT FALLING OUT OF LOVE FEELS LIKE, SOMETIMES I THINK OUR FIRST LOVE STAYS WITH US FOREVER AND WE'RE JUST SEARCHING FOR SOMEONE TO FULFILL THAT SPACE BUT WE'LL NEVER FIND THEM BECAUSE THEY DON'T EXIST, I FEEL LIKE JUST YESTERDAY I LOST YOU, I LOVED YOU TO THE BRINK OF INSANITY***
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 1:54 AM UTC
***IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU, IT'S THAT I ONCE MET A GIRL WHO RIPPED MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST AND IT'S STILL AN OPEN WOUND, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU IT'S THAT MY MOM STILL YEARNED FOR MY DAD YEARS AFTER HE WAS GONE, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU IT'S THAT YOU HAVE SWEET BROWN EYES THAT MAKE ME WANT TO HOLD YOU BUT I'M SCARED, SO ******* SCARED, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU, IT'S THAT YOU DESERVE ALL THE AFFECTIONS IN THE WORLD AND I'M NOT SURE I CAN GIVE YOU ANYTHING MORE THAN SIMPLY MEDIOCRE, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU IT'S THAT EVERY TIME WE SPEAK I'M ENTHRALLED BY EVERYTHING YOU SAY, ALWAYS LEFT AT A LOSS OF WORDS, AS IF ALL THE ONES I'D EVER LEARNED HAD SUDDENLY LOST IT'S MEANING, YET NO MATTER HOW BEAUTIFUL THE SENTENCES COMING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH WERE, ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS MEETING THEM MID-SENTENCE, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU, IT'S THAT YOU'RE THE KIND OF GIRL THAT CHANGES LIVES, THAT DRIVES STARS AND BEAT HEARTS AND I'M INSANE, BUT ONLY INSANELY WANTING TO HOLD YOUR HAND, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU IT'S THAT WITHOUT YOUR COSMIC IMPORTANCE THERE'D BE NO POETRY TO BE WRITTEN, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU IT'S THAT THE LAST PERSON WHO TRIED TO FIX ME LEFT WITH CALLOUS-FILLED-HANDS AND NO ENCHANTMENT, IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU, IT'S THAT I CAN'T***
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 1:35 AM UTC
The first boy after you told me that pain wasn't real,
Just a figment of our imagination,
So I cut deeper,
I stretched bigger,
I ****** harder,
and when the doctor asked me to rate my pain on a scale of 1-10
I always answered 0,
but when my mom asked about you,
When we happened to cross paths in the hallways,
It was a ten,
It was always a **** ten,
every single ******* time
Sep 27, 2014
Sep 27, 2014 at 12:21 AM UTC
Don't fall in love with the guy who knows how to touch you
He'll just start to pick and choose what places he prefers
and before you notice it it'll be months since your tummy has felt loved
years since your knees have been caressed with kisses
and your scars will forget the feeling of another's person fingertips running up along them
you used to be my gamma rays
you went through my membrane, through all the other science concepts I could never concentrate on because of you
you brushed past my DNA
changed my genetic material so that no matter how many years had passed it would still be you
still you I imagined touching me when it was midnight and I was in bed with some boy who was in love with some other girl
the first time you touched me you touched me with the purpose of getting to know every inch of me
because you said
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 8:02 PM UTC
I remember every kiss we ever kissed, you kissed me 1,923 times, I remember our first kiss and I remember our last kiss and every single kiss in between, I remember that time that night when I was standing in the middle of the street and your parents were waiting for you back at home and I looked you in the eyes and I told you I could die exactly that moment and I wouldn't regret a single thing, I remember when we were in the park, and I was crying because I knew you were leaving soon, you kissed me on every single bench, beneath every single tree, I remember the kiss that was suppose to be our last, you shouldn't have come back, but I don't remember every kiss I kissed trying to replace yours, I don't remember the names of all those people who touched my skin, but I remember us on those stairs, I had been in love with you for months by then, my hand was shaking and I leaned in and just as you had time to acknowledge what happened I left, I cried that night, I don't know why, maybe I knew what was coming, I remember how you told me you never thought you would not want to kiss me,
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 8:01 PM UTC
I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE GONE, I'VE MISSED YOU EVERY DAY SINCE YOU LEFT, SOMETIMES I SMELL YOU ON THE PEOPLE AT THE STORE, I'M SLOWLY FORGETTING WHAT YOU SMELLED OF, WE HAVEN'T TALKED IN MONTHS, I HOPE WHOEVER YOU'RE WITH RIGHT NOW APPRECIATES YOU, I HOPE THEY DON'T DRIVE YOU INSANE, I HOPE THEY KISS YOU UNTIL IT'S PERFECT, I HOPE YOU LOVE THEM MORE THAN YOU COULD'VE EVER LOVED ME, I STILL WRITE ABOUT YOU, I STILL LOOK FOR YOU IN EMPTY PARK BENCHES, I STILL ALMOST TEXT YOU WHEN I HAVE NIGHTMARES, OH GOD I MISS YOU, I'M GIVING AWAY ALL YOUR STUFF TO PEOPLE WHO AREN'T IN LOVE WITH YOU, BUT SOMETIMES I DREAM ABOUT US, AND FOR A SPLIT SECOND BEFORE I WAKE UP I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU ALL OVER AGAIN, AND AS IT FADES I TRY DESPERATELY TO HOLD ON, COME BACK AND TEACH ME HOW TO LET GO PLEASE, YOU MADE IT SEEM SO EASY, MAYBE IT'LL BE EASIER THE SECOND TIME AROUND, COME BACK, LEAVE, I'LL SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS TONIGHT
Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 8:42 PM UTC