sometimes I remember the times we spent together
how we would laugh and talk about a million stuff, and you'd subtly flirt with me
as if you were scared to be more foward
and receive a no (I'm sorry I wasn't brave enough)
I remember when you'd give me the time of the day (now you spend more time looking at the phone)
we'd go to the movies and you'd hold my hand the whole time
(I'm sorry I didn't hold yours back)
at the same time, I'm not that sorry, you know?
it was all so new to me and I liked commitment ( I still do)
I kinda regret kissing you, actually
after that you really started pulling away (it started when I was away)
in some ways I think I get it
you were protecting yourself (if I meant something to you, that is) and trying to find new friends
but you made me feel like a trophy, like a ******* number in your list of conquests
I'm still trying to let go of you (you were one of my best friends, after all)
I'm still trying to fight the impulse of inviting you to everything
I still miss you
but **** you
Jul 2, 2014
Jul 2, 2014 at 3:16 PM UTC
Underneath your skin, there're scars
Underneath your selfishness, there's love
Underneath your fear, there's beauty
Underneath you, there's me
Jun 29, 2014
Jun 29, 2014 at 5:42 PM UTC
to float in the sea of your sorrow
is to learn how to swim
when all I want is to sink
without a care in the world
your sorrow is like a dark day in summer
so unusual, but at the same time
full of hope
so I am sorry to disappoint you
but I think I am finally starting to drown
Aug 9, 2013
Aug 9, 2013 at 9:14 PM UTC
Your body next to mine,
all sweaty and comfortable
in all the right and wrong places,
reminds me of a time
not long ago
when this would have felt like Heaven
The problem is that,
after everything,
it still does
Jul 31, 2013
Jul 31, 2013 at 11:42 AM UTC
They said to us
That friends come and go
But family is forever
But what do I do,
What should I be feeling
When the ones who were supposed
To be only "friends"
Became more like a family
Than my own
They said blood is thicker than water
"So don't get attached"
What they didn't say
Was that it would hurt this much
Jun 27, 2013
Jun 27, 2013 at 1:08 AM UTC
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
Saying it a million times
won't change the fact that you are
a millions of miles way
from me
I look around in the street
while I drink your favorite coffee
and I think that you would like here
that you would tease me
about my hair
about my clothes
and about my "clicheness"
all while you looked at me
with your bright, round eyes
that made me fall in love with you
in the first place
But you are not here
I miss you
May 26, 2013
May 26, 2013 at 12:24 AM UTC
I am so focused on possible consequences
that I stop living
and start worrying instead
May 21, 2013
May 21, 2013 at 10:10 PM UTC
The rain stained windows
looks so beautiful
yet so heartbreaking
like a touch is enough to make them shatter
As I look at the trees
with my coffee and cigarette in hands
I think about you
and how
when I felt somber
you would hug me
and kiss my neck.
I miss you
I miss you so bad it hurts
And in the morning
when I remember the promise I made myself
to not think about you anymore
I will look at the window again
and think
about how beautiful
yet heartbreaking
is the fact
that the rain washed everything away
just like you did
with us
May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 10:29 PM UTC
I found her when I didn't want to.
I had given up on love
in any shape or form
She made me believe in happy endings again
and told me that everyone
including myself
deserved love and second chances
But my head,
messed up as it is,
is stronger than my heart,
lovely as she made it sound
So I gave up
and eventually she let me go
and I fell like the rain
hitting the pavement as hard
as her heart
when I told her
I'm sorry, I can't
May 15, 2013
May 15, 2013 at 9:05 PM UTC
It is okay,
the sun is rising
(somewhere)
Your heart is going to stop hurting
(eventually)
And I am going to be there for you;
(I will be by your side)
even if you don't notice me
May 14, 2013
May 14, 2013 at 10:26 PM UTC