are you Happy?
have you been hiding yourself
behind the mask Of others?
how Long have you been hurting?
how Long have you been hiding?
are you happy
with the life you've falsified?
no One will miss you when you're gone
are you happy?
are you okay?
Would you tell me if you're okay?
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 6:37 PM UTC
a year's passed us by,
i'm still not ready to say
goodbye. i love you.
a year's passed us by,
i'm still not ready to say
goodbye. i need you.
a year's passed us by,
but you're still here by my side.
always be with you.
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 12:00 PM UTC
for i cannot tell a lie
i really do hate being alive
i hate knowing that there's a mere six litres of blood in our bodies
that's three two-litre bottles of soda
three two-litre bottles of soda
is all that keeps me here
and i hate it
i hate knowing that the leafcutter ant can hold up to fifty times its weight in its jaw
and i can't even hold myself up throughout the day
for there is no one weaker than i
no one who has struggled as much as i
and i hate it
i hate knowing
that the people i once knew
and opened myself up to
have blocked me out of their minds
but i can't seem to get them out of mine
i hate that so much
but i'm not filled with hate
i love the moon
the moon is all i have left in life to look up and look forward to
and on the nights where he hides
and i can only see him behind closed eyes
i hope he can still hear me
when i tell him i've been doing just fine
and i'm not lying
i really mean it, i swear
i mean
it's just so hard these days, you know?
wish you were here
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 6:14 PM UTC
missing you comes in waves
and i drown in them every time
Dec 2, 2018
Dec 2, 2018 at 6:14 PM UTC
someone i didn’t know asked me for help today
it felt nice
he asked if i could help him name the characters
in his upcoming novel
i hope he knows how much it meant to me
i hope he remembers it like i do
i hope his novel is a success
Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 8:40 PM UTC
hear this: "living with
depression." funny, right? what
an oxymoron.
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 4:00 PM UTC
i am just so tired
of having to cope with the
act of existing
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 8:46 PM UTC
sometimes
i don't even want to die
but my mind
will tell me otherwise
my mind will say
"ask to use the bathroom
then jump from the stairs"
or
"make yourself a sandwich
and use the knife to cut yourself open"
or
"use hangers for your clothing
and the belt for yourself"
and it's not like i never tried
to fix this mind of mine
but my oh my
how the days have passed me by
and i am tired
so the stairs look nice
and so does the knife
and i haven't quite felt
the warm embrace of a belt
around my neck
is it my time yet?
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 7:31 PM UTC
perhaps being told
“you are not alone,” is the
scariest of all
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 10:29 AM UTC
you have brought me light
and now, i know not of how
to see without you
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 9:44 AM UTC