will the universe ever spin just the right amount to align our stars in the same constellation?
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 5:27 AM UTC
i want to be the sunlight that burns u harder than the smoke down your throat and shines so bright it blinds your eyes.
i want to be the bed that you come to at night and the coffee you pour into your empty cup every morning.
you set the soul of my heart on fire with the most beautiful burn and i never mind the way that it hurts.
if i say my words will you sallow them down?
if my floor falls out from under me will you fall with me through the hole?
i don't know what to do and i don't know where to go.
Jun 24, 2017
Jun 24, 2017 at 4:25 AM UTC
everybody said time will heal but 9 months have gone by and
i still slit my wrists at 1 am because i need something to numb the pain of my heart.
i lay awake in bed at 3 am because I lost the best thing that's ever happened to me and i will never be good enough to get him back.
i don't wake up when I'm supposed to because being asleep is better than being awake.
i don't eat anymore because my stomach is tied in a knot and there's constantly a lump in the back of my throat.
i don't smile anymore because how could anyone when they are in this much pain.
i am broken and i don't know how to put the pieces back together, or if I will ever be able to.
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 4:18 AM UTC
I didn't know that it would hurt this ******* bad.
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 12:24 PM UTC
an aching pit in my stomach tells me that something has gone wrong.
I have tried to push it away but I knew all along.
you don't love me like you used to
you don't want me like I want you.
I feel you pushing me away, and your heart is leaving mine astray.
I know there is another one, and it hurts my soul to know you're done.
so don't make me hold on when I know you are already gone.
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 7:18 PM UTC
months came and months went
I still felt trapped inside this tent.
I couldn't breathe and the walls were caving in on me.
I was drowning in the memories of us, and nobody could see my cuts.
I tried to rise above but I kept sinking down.
so I gave up, and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I couldn't stay, but I need to go away.
I miss being happy
I miss being in love
I miss smiling
I miss waking up and not wishing I hadn't
and most importantly,
I miss being me
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 2:36 AM UTC
you said you'd be here forever.
you said you'd never let me go.
you said you will always love me.
well it's been a year and you're not here.
it's been a year and you have let me go.
it's been a year and you don't love me.
forever means however long I want to stay in your life.
I'll never let you go means I'll keep you until I find some one better.
always means temporarily
and I love you means nothing.
Jan 16, 2015
Jan 16, 2015 at 3:13 AM UTC
you would always call me pretty. and even though I liked the sound of it I didn't want to hear it directly. I wanted you tell me that you like the freckle in between my nose because I'm so insecure about it. i wanted you to tell me that you love to hear me sing at the top of my lungs to try and make you laugh. or how you love the way I dance to old music I listened to as a kid. or how I laugh at my own stupid jokes because I think I'm funny. That the way I'm scared of the dark isn't childish, because you are too. I needed you to tell me that you love the sound of my voice, especially when I'm talking about something I love. or that you love listening to me play guitar, just because you know it's my favorite thing. Or the way I cry when someone dies on tv isn't stupid, but cute that I'm so sensitive. that you only tickle me just so you can hear me laugh. or that you like the way my voice cracks just before I'm about to cry. that you love the way I kiss you all over when you're trying to be mad at me. that you think it's funny how I'm grumpy in the mornings. that you think it's beautiful the way I can lose myself in a song. or how you love when it's raining, because that means you'll get to kiss me in it. that you fell in love with the way I would fall asleep on you because it would make you feel at home.
I wanted you tell me that I was so much more than just pretty, that I was your whole world. I didn't want to pretty, I wanted to be so much more.
Jan 16, 2015
Jan 16, 2015 at 2:47 AM UTC
I was laying in your bed
waiting for you to come jump in
I put on some music, of course my favorite song
wondering what was taking you so long
finally you walk through the door
and I couldn't wait to kiss you more.
you slowly walk over, but instead of laying on your bed
you grabbed my hand instead.
you pulled me in close and we started to dance
which I swear to god, put me in a trance.
Our song came on and you whispered every word in my ear
soft enough for just me to hear.
Your hands on my hips, mine in your hair
that's when I knew, we had something rare.
We danced and danced, you spun me around and dipped me down
We were holding each other so close, as if we would never let go.
In those moments, we were infinite
I wish we had never finished.
When the song was over, you kissed my lips.
Oh god did you kiss my lips. you kissed me like you were suffocating and I was the only air you needed.
you picked me up and layed me on your bed.
you kissed my forehead and made your way to my neck.
You found my ear and whispered slowly "I'm in love with you."
Dec 28, 2014
Dec 28, 2014 at 4:49 AM UTC