my chest is tired from carrying the weight
my eyes are tired from holding the tears
my gut is tired from possessing the feelings
my mind is tired from analyzing the thoughts
a constant cycle of not being wanted
from the home
from the school
from the military
from the family
i cannot seem to find my place.
the lingering sensation of death lurking
because to be gone would be simple
plain and simple
the nothingness seems more inviting than
the home
the school
the military
the family
the tears streak my cheeks falling upon a broken heart
how can i mend something that does not want me?
Sep 2, 2020
Sep 2, 2020 at 2:19 PM UTC
in a smidge over 120 days
everything is different,
a mind revolving in a love-struck craze
a tangible imprint.
thoughts encompass a double-sided street
where i typically drive one-way,
our bodies meet
and everything drifts away.
a sweet treat, antique mirror, tasty dish
reminding me of you
with each eyelash wish
everything came true.
honey you are my everything
the lyrics to my melody
making my heart sing
a completed harmony.
i love you.
Sep 5, 2019
Sep 5, 2019 at 11:36 PM UTC
i think that possibly
maybe
i’m falling for you
consistent surprises of joy
my happiness is true
because “we”
sounds better than
“you and me”
sweets,
i love you.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 10:57 AM UTC
one shot
maybe two
kissing softly
my smile grew
a little cream
sugar and stir
those almond eyes
the way they look at her
sweetness
filled with energy
& making my heart race
there's not a care nor a worry
i like this feeling.
Apr 28, 2019
Apr 28, 2019 at 5:54 PM UTC
the surface is warm + inviting
i enter with utter ease
excitement
the small splashes against my shins
welcoming to an open space
new opportunities
gradually descending to the waist
engulfed by continuous events
one inch more
the chill on my naval
hairs slowly rise
while accomplishments fall
consumed by endless thoughts
collarbones disappear under foam
my eyes glimpse back at the shore
slowly drowning
all because i believed i could swim alone.
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 5:06 PM UTC
i can relate to you
an empty vessel
used by those who
seek your inner light
you can warm them
make them happy
shedding layers
piece by piece
cold hearts defrost
satisfaction is instantly gratified
soon they have what they want
and you're left exerting the final spark
until the flames dim
wood burnt
the coals still flicker
ashes and ashes
only you fall down
they leave
you stay
an empty vessel
i can relate to you
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 11:02 PM UTC
indulge in the "sweets"
yet your body becomes sour
the stomach and heart aches
controlling your mind
with intoxicating power
tastes so good
but only lasts a few hours
cravings return & alter the mood
you want more
he takes and takes and takes
this is what you asked for
do not wish for wholeness
when you only take a piece
those sweets are only temporary
and never seem to cease.
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 3:07 PM UTC
she used to see things
with a touch of innocence
and a glimmer of good
ideas misunderstood
her heart just wanted
to invite a different form
a craving which
consumed her core
inhibition of reality
disorienting the young spirit
from her well acquainted world
elements of deception
took control of the broken girl
a new shift of life
take away the sugar
replace with the spice
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 2:17 AM UTC
my sentiments are deep
they keep me full
to experience entirely
radiates as a whole
seeking validation
inherently brings destruction
you cannot empathize
these thoughts
too intricate to define
feelings which are mine
a heart that beats
to the rhythm around
from a slow and steady pace
now a punch and a pound
my past brought me here
let my symphony
be written by this tempo
of emotional harmony
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 1:48 AM UTC
seeking the whole
receiving a key
wandering through time
she cannot simply be
empty hands : empty heart
the world tilts
ever so slowly
tearing her apart
all these small things
ticking round the endless clock
until the purpose is understood
the door will always be locked.
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 1:35 AM UTC