the old me is stuck behind walls that i built wrong
she kicks and screams
but that wall won't budge
she tries and tries
but soon she forgotten
and covered up
the new me is here
she's shy,hurt,mute
she's not how she used to be
cause the old me is stuck
forgotten and
covered up
the old me is breaking
forgotten to long
she's lost behind those walls
she tries breaking the wall
but the new me is to strong
the old me kicks and screams
but the new me won't budge
the old me is lost
the old me is now gone
May 7, 2018
May 7, 2018 at 12:25 PM UTC
i can't be wrong
i can't go out without feeling judge
i can't make new friends
i can't talk without stuttering
i can't eat without feeling fat
i can't leave
its like im trapped behind walls that i built to high
im stuck
i leave myself behind those walls until its not me anymore
i scream and scream
but no one hears me
May 7, 2018
May 7, 2018 at 12:17 PM UTC
do you know what i would give to be normal
to get rid of this dang depression
to be pretty
to not be scared to talk to people
to go outside without feeling like people are judging you
to not be lonely
to have a good relationship with my family
to have my father in my life
hell i wouldn't be this ****** up if i was normal
all i want to be is normal
but i can't
no matter how hard i try
Feb 3, 2018
Feb 3, 2018 at 10:12 PM UTC
why?
why can't i bring myself to happiness
why do i feel so alone
like is there something wrong with me
why is it so god **** hard to just eat,sleep,get out of ******* bed!
why do i feel so broken
why do i feel so numb all the time
people say go outside in joy the sun
but when i go outside anxiety and my fears are like a record player in my head
saying all the things that can go wrong
i can't ******* do it
im tired of the things that go through my mind every god **** moment of my life
like whats worth the fight when you know your going to lose
whats worth living when theres nothing left to live for
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 8:29 PM UTC
depression
depression is like sadness
but never goes away
sadness is where your sad for a day and the next your happy
depression is where it never goes away every day you get worse in worse
deeper into the dark tunnel of depression
the further you get the worse the depression gets
then anxiety comes along
is the bestfriend of depression
they make you feel broken.numb.scared
they fill your head of things that you need to worry about
depression makes you feel like your selfish
''like yea i know i have a good life,good family,food on the table,roof over my head''
i know i shouldn't be depressed but for some reason i can't bring myself to be happy
and people have it worse out there in the world
and im over here having all i could want in the world but happiness
i feel so **** selfish because if that
i don't want this life anymore
i hate it
i hate me
i hate society
i hate depression
depression *****
anxiety *****
life *****
the world *****
everything is just really ******
likes whats the point ant more
when life dumbs you with disipointments
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 1:34 PM UTC