mynemosyne - Hello Poetry

How many times have I quietly sobbed today? Finally letting my walls down as I let myself know I am alone. The room is filled with heavy gasps of air, only for my ears to hear. No, these aren't your regular inhales and exhales. They come with little sobs and whimpers that changes your breathing, They come with sharp pains in your chest as if you're drowning, They come with little pools of water that has the capacity to carry an immense weight of sadness. Defying the Laws of Physics, wetting your face that never seems to stay dry with each little drop. All at once, You feel as they come at you. Like a firework had just been lit, prepared for what's to come on the 4th of July. . . . . Suddenly, all these that surges from you stops. Your ears ***** on slow yet heavy thumping sounds . . . ! footsteps You get up, and the fireworks in your chest fall at once to your hollow stomach. Making a crashing noise of empty cans on shards of previously broken glass. You wipe your tears and stare back, as your reflection in the mirror smiles at you. a fleeting moment of hate and disappointment pass through your mind Inhale. . . . . . . .Exhale **"it's sharp and it stings... ...it's tight and all very familiar"** A new task has begun as soon as you end one, and just as quick a routine ends and night awakens.... The same routine awaits to greet you, once the Sun wakes the world.

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Jan 12, 2021

Jan 12, 2021 at 12:17 AM UTC

The Story of a Minute

How many times have I quietly sobbed today? Finally letting my walls down as I let myself know I am alone. The room is filled with heavy gasps of air, only for my ears to hear. No, these aren't your regular inhales and exhales. They come with little sobs and whimpers that changes your breathing, They come with sharp pains in your chest as if you're drowning, They come with little pools of water that has the capacity to carry an immense weight of sadness. Defying the Laws of Physics, wetting your face that never seems to stay dry with each little drop. All at once, You feel as they come at you. Like a firework had just been lit, prepared for what's to come on the 4th of July. . . . . Suddenly, all these that surges from you stops. Your ears ***** on slow yet heavy thumping sounds . . . ! footsteps You get up, and the fireworks in your chest fall at once to your hollow stomach. Making a crashing noise of empty cans on shards of previously broken glass. You wipe your tears and stare back, as your reflection in the mirror smiles at you. a fleeting moment of hate and disappointment pass through your mind Inhale. . . . . . . .Exhale **"it's sharp and it stings... ...it's tight and all very familiar"** A new task has begun as soon as you end one, and just as quick a routine ends and night awakens.... The same routine awaits to greet you, once the Sun wakes the world.

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That tightness in your chest, the heavy weight that resides there Is it because you're sick? desperately gasping for air Or are you being condemned? declared as guilty The plaint you carry no stranger would it be

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Sep 22, 2020

Sep 22, 2020 at 9:16 PM UTC

asthmatic

That tightness in your chest, the heavy weight that resides there Is it because you're sick? desperately gasping for air Or are you being condemned? declared as guilty The plaint you carry no stranger would it be

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~ I have told you, and I told you truly that I love you too much. You engross my thoughts too intirely to allow me to think of any thing else—you not only employ my mind all day; but you intrude upon my sleep. I meet you in every dream—and when I wake I cannot close my eyes again for ruminating on your sweetness. ‘Tis a pretty story indeed that I am to be thus monopolized, by a little nut-brown maid like you—and from a statesman and a soldier metamorphosed into a puny lover. I believe in my soul you are an inchantress; but I have tried in vain, if not to break, at least, to weaken the charm—you maintain your empire in spite of all my efforts—and after every new one, I make to withdraw myself from my allegiance my partial heart still returns and clings to you with increased attachment. To drop figure my lovely girl you become dearer to me every moment. I am more and more unhappy and impatient under the hard necessity that keeps me from you, and yet the prospect lengthens as I advance. ~

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Jul 3, 2020

Jul 3, 2020 at 9:00 AM UTC

To Elizabeth Schuyler

~ I have told you, and I told you truly that I love you too much. You engross my thoughts too intirely to allow me to think of any thing else—you not only employ my mind all day; but you intrude upon my sleep. I meet you in every dream—and when I wake I cannot close my eyes again for ruminating on your sweetness. ‘Tis a pretty story indeed that I am to be thus monopolized, by a little nut-brown maid like you—and from a statesman and a soldier metamorphosed into a puny lover. I believe in my soul you are an inchantress; but I have tried in vain, if not to break, at least, to weaken the charm—you maintain your empire in spite of all my efforts—and after every new one, I make to withdraw myself from my allegiance my partial heart still returns and clings to you with increased attachment. To drop figure my lovely girl you become dearer to me every moment. I am more and more unhappy and impatient under the hard necessity that keeps me from you, and yet the prospect lengthens as I advance. ~

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i believe that i'll be ok i believe that it was never true i believe in whatever you say i believe this is just a phase but "i believe" is just a phrase its putting faith in something as true but what you believe in is different from what others put faith in... as true If you believe that you're human does it make it true? If you believe The Creation does it make it true? If you believe in God, is He then true to you? if not then what is true? what is false? what is left that is real in this ********* world? i believe that i'll be ok i believe that it was never true i believe in whatever you say i believe this is just a phase then... will you really be ok? was it never really true? is what you say true? am i a phase? is everyone just a phase? is the image of the world we perceive a phase? something that won't last long? something that's just an illusion? out of all the questions i ask, do you believe in your answer? or is it just a phase.

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Mar 21, 2019

Mar 21, 2019 at 4:07 AM UTC

i believe

i believe that i'll be ok i believe that it was never true i believe in whatever you say i believe this is just a phase but "i believe" is just a phrase its putting faith in something as true but what you believe in is different from what others put faith in... as true If you believe that you're human does it make it true? If you believe The Creation does it make it true? If you believe in God, is He then true to you? if not then what is true? what is false? what is left that is real in this ********* world? i believe that i'll be ok i believe that it was never true i believe in whatever you say i believe this is just a phase then... will you really be ok? was it never really true? is what you say true? am i a phase? is everyone just a phase? is the image of the world we perceive a phase? something that won't last long? something that's just an illusion? out of all the questions i ask, do you believe in your answer? or is it just a phase.

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oo ako'y nalulungkot sa aking sarili sa mga salitang hindi ko hindi sinasadya kung ipinaramdam ko sayo na 'andito lang ako pero wala naman pala pasensiya, kung wala akong susunod na taludtod sa ating istorya istoryang kathang isip na huli kong nakita sa aking panaginip dahil nagising ako sa katotohanan na ̶t̶a̶y̶o̶ ikaw at ako ay naandito na sa dulo ng ating walang hanggan kung saan ang puso'y wala ng nararamdaman at natapos na ang magpakailanman

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Oct 16, 2018

Oct 16, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC

alamat ng hangganan

oo ako'y nalulungkot sa aking sarili sa mga salitang hindi ko hindi sinasadya kung ipinaramdam ko sayo na 'andito lang ako pero wala naman pala pasensiya, kung wala akong susunod na taludtod sa ating istorya istoryang kathang isip na huli kong nakita sa aking panaginip dahil nagising ako sa katotohanan na ̶t̶a̶y̶o̶ ikaw at ako ay naandito na sa dulo ng ating walang hanggan kung saan ang puso'y wala ng nararamdaman at natapos na ang magpakailanman

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hello. it all started with a simple hello. who would have thought that this would lead to something more i wouldn't say i fell for you but instead you tripped me, pretending that you were going to catch me... But oh so stupid of me, oh so so stupid of me. why didnt i bother to get up? why didn't i realize that it would be too much? memories of you and I come rushing to me every night and it pains me every time. what you see with your eyes isn't always the truth. how much more do i need to see the truth that you can't see with your eyes? we were once happy, happily together... sure, we fight time to time but what's a relationship without some fights? Though this was all in the past, something you've probably forgotten. but me? I remember every single thing... “the past is in the past” yeah right. that's what they always say but just because something is in the past doesn't mean it'll go away it's already there and it'll always be there it's like being stuck in another world... a dark, empty void where all you do is run.. run, run, run, run... a monster chasing me but the thing is, that monster is you... so don't try to pull me up from this hole i've made.. there's no escape and i know that i can't climb up 'cause i won't be able to and you can't.... an endless labyrinth i cough up spiders an upside down, where in everything contradicts stay away! Don’t go! so let’s start with saying goodbye goodbye to all the time we shared together, all our greetings, all the smiles that we shared together, a few moments with each other when we were just clueless children, a couple of oblivious kids. Goodbye to all the stupid jokes, all the how are you’s, even if I’m the only one who seems to truly care. Goodbye to all the waiting, the endless arguments that don’t make sense, and all the other senseless situation where we fought. So forgive me love, for all the names that I and you only understand, the words that I want to throw with my hand, a few seconds, staring into each other’s eyes, we had. All the memories I can’t forget, memories that you left, when you left me! Forgive me if it’s already annoying, if it just repeats over and over until it cannot be repeated. Forgive me if I am or I am not the one you want, if I ask for things you cannot give, if I ever thought that “hey, you’ll stay” but I guess I was wrong. I know, that there was a time, a moment, when I was yours and you were mine but not anymore! because you don’t want to and that’s why I shouldn’t anymore. Even if you want to hear but can’t be heard, even if you understand but can’t be understood, even if you want..to forgive…… but can’t forget because you don’t want to and I shouldn’t anymore. You don’t want to because there’s someone else, I’m sorry if I’m a mess, I’m sorry if this is taking so long. So please, forgive me, goodbye, let’s just say goodbye! Goodbye to staying away and sorry for staying close. Goodbye to all the joy and sorry for all the pain. Love, I don’t want to end by asking for forgiveness but forgive me! So I can set you free you must first let go! , because I can’t do it anymore. Goodbye because I can’t do it anymore but love! ..... Wait! No, not love because you don’t love me and I shouldn’t anymore. So let’s erase every single thing erase why should I say goodbye when you already left erase im not the kind of girl who asks for forgiveness erase im not asking for forgiveness from you erase I don’t love you, I never loved you erase I don’t care if you still want to or if you don’t! I don’t care if you’re hurting, that I’m not worried! erase I don’t love you I never did I just wanted you! Loving you is right too bad I’m always wrong so yes! Let’s write it once more! Love, when I looked for you he came, and I thought he was the one, that! Was the biggest mistake that I did, was to look for you. I don’t not love him because he doesn’t love me but because I looked for him, because I know you’ll come, I know you’ll come because I asked for you until now I still yearn for you. So if you decided to come find me, the right person in the right time, so I would know that it's you. Find me and love me in a way that we both know. A love that’ll never be wrong ever again.

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Mar 31, 2018

Mar 31, 2018 at 7:13 AM UTC

sweet strangers (a spoken word)

hello. it all started with a simple hello. who would have thought that this would lead to something more i wouldn't say i fell for you but instead you tripped me, pretending that you were going to catch me... But oh so stupid of me, oh so so stupid of me. why didnt i bother to get up? why didn't i realize that it would be too much? memories of you and I come rushing to me every night and it pains me every time. what you see with your eyes isn't always the truth. how much more do i need to see the truth that you can't see with your eyes? we were once happy, happily together... sure, we fight time to time but what's a relationship without some fights? Though this was all in the past, something you've probably forgotten. but me? I remember every single thing... “the past is in the past” yeah right. that's what they always say but just because something is in the past doesn't mean it'll go away it's already there and it'll always be there it's like being stuck in another world... a dark, empty void where all you do is run.. run, run, run, run... a monster chasing me but the thing is, that monster is you... so don't try to pull me up from this hole i've made.. there's no escape and i know that i can't climb up 'cause i won't be able to and you can't.... an endless labyrinth i cough up spiders an upside down, where in everything contradicts stay away! Don’t go! so let’s start with saying goodbye goodbye to all the time we shared together, all our greetings, all the smiles that we shared together, a few moments with each other when we were just clueless children, a couple of oblivious kids. Goodbye to all the stupid jokes, all the how are you’s, even if I’m the only one who seems to truly care. Goodbye to all the waiting, the endless arguments that don’t make sense, and all the other senseless situation where we fought. So forgive me love, for all the names that I and you only understand, the words that I want to throw with my hand, a few seconds, staring into each other’s eyes, we had. All the memories I can’t forget, memories that you left, when you left me! Forgive me if it’s already annoying, if it just repeats over and over until it cannot be repeated. Forgive me if I am or I am not the one you want, if I ask for things you cannot give, if I ever thought that “hey, you’ll stay” but I guess I was wrong. I know, that there was a time, a moment, when I was yours and you were mine but not anymore! because you don’t want to and that’s why I shouldn’t anymore. Even if you want to hear but can’t be heard, even if you understand but can’t be understood, even if you want..to forgive…… but can’t forget because you don’t want to and I shouldn’t anymore. You don’t want to because there’s someone else, I’m sorry if I’m a mess, I’m sorry if this is taking so long. So please, forgive me, goodbye, let’s just say goodbye! Goodbye to staying away and sorry for staying close. Goodbye to all the joy and sorry for all the pain. Love, I don’t want to end by asking for forgiveness but forgive me! So I can set you free you must first let go! , because I can’t do it anymore. Goodbye because I can’t do it anymore but love! ..... Wait! No, not love because you don’t love me and I shouldn’t anymore. So let’s erase every single thing erase why should I say goodbye when you already left erase im not the kind of girl who asks for forgiveness erase im not asking for forgiveness from you erase I don’t love you, I never loved you erase I don’t care if you still want to or if you don’t! I don’t care if you’re hurting, that I’m not worried! erase I don’t love you I never did I just wanted you! Loving you is right too bad I’m always wrong so yes! Let’s write it once more! Love, when I looked for you he came, and I thought he was the one, that! Was the biggest mistake that I did, was to look for you. I don’t not love him because he doesn’t love me but because I looked for him, because I know you’ll come, I know you’ll come because I asked for you until now I still yearn for you. So if you decided to come find me, the right person in the right time, so I would know that it's you. Find me and love me in a way that we both know. A love that’ll never be wrong ever again.

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that girl in your class, has a smile that lights up an entire room. that girl in your class, seemingly has amazing friends. that girl in your class, actually doesn’t remember the last night she didn’t cry. but hey, she smiles. so she’s okay. right?

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 7:36 AM UTC

smile, it'll be fine

that girl in your class, has a smile that lights up an entire room. that girl in your class, seemingly has amazing friends. that girl in your class, actually doesn’t remember the last night she didn’t cry. but hey, she smiles. so she’s okay. right?

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loyalties change; so did you what you see with your eyes isn't the truth. how much more do i need to see the truth that you can't see with your eyes? the stars look really close together but they're actually really far apart."we learn that in class".what u see with ur eyes isn't the truth. "how far apart is the distance that i need to close between me and-" "it's because you don't know that you want to close that distance, right?" who sees the human face correctly? the mirror, the photographer, or the painter? friend : everybody is beautiful in their own way me : not if you're ugly on the inside and the outside don't make me regret the things i do for you something has tarnished our friendship and it seems hopeless to brighten it what's the difference between "im jealous of you" and "im disappointed in me" it seems to me that there's none i like machines better,humans break too easily -Leo Valdez it's difficult to make someone proud when all that notice are your mistakes i already know i'm defective, u don't have to trouble yourself pointing them out for me it's cold out here, i'm shivering please, get me out of 'here' there is suffering too terrible to name. we just learn to live with the unimaginable(hamiltrash) it says "curiosity killed the cat" in this situation curiosity killed me True love isn’t Romeo and Juliet who died together. It’s Grandma and Grandpa who grew old together.(not mine)

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Jan 30, 2018

Jan 30, 2018 at 10:28 AM UTC

just some quotes :)

loyalties change; so did you what you see with your eyes isn't the truth. how much more do i need to see the truth that you can't see with your eyes? the stars look really close together but they're actually really far apart."we learn that in class".what u see with ur eyes isn't the truth. "how far apart is the distance that i need to close between me and-" "it's because you don't know that you want to close that distance, right?" who sees the human face correctly? the mirror, the photographer, or the painter? friend : everybody is beautiful in their own way me : not if you're ugly on the inside and the outside don't make me regret the things i do for you something has tarnished our friendship and it seems hopeless to brighten it what's the difference between "im jealous of you" and "im disappointed in me" it seems to me that there's none i like machines better,humans break too easily -Leo Valdez it's difficult to make someone proud when all that notice are your mistakes i already know i'm defective, u don't have to trouble yourself pointing them out for me it's cold out here, i'm shivering please, get me out of 'here' there is suffering too terrible to name. we just learn to live with the unimaginable(hamiltrash) it says "curiosity killed the cat" in this situation curiosity killed me True love isn’t Romeo and Juliet who died together. It’s Grandma and Grandpa who grew old together.(not mine)

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You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains... You say you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines... You say you love the wind, but you close your windows when it blows... This is why I am afraid; you say that you love me too... -W. Shakespeare

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Jan 30, 2018

Jan 30, 2018 at 9:48 AM UTC

love me too

You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains... You say you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines... You say you love the wind, but you close your windows when it blows... This is why I am afraid; you say that you love me too... -W. Shakespeare

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We are open diaries Have seen each other's folds Have touched the innermost souls. We are a pen Of written prologues And broken epilogues. We are almost there, Aren't we? Until that day we stopped talking And became some sweet strangers Again.

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Jan 30, 2018

Jan 30, 2018 at 9:41 AM UTC

open book

We are open diaries Have seen each other's folds Have touched the innermost souls. We are a pen Of written prologues And broken epilogues. We are almost there, Aren't we? Until that day we stopped talking And became some sweet strangers Again.

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