morgan-sb-1 - Hello Poetry

I'm breathing slightly heavily I sat anticipating....the feeling I freeze when you look at me Bc you're seeing me Your gaze wanders, but it comes back I tense up when it's back You do see me I swallow and hope I don't choke when you're looking into my eyes and I'm aware I'm being seen I can't hide my nervous tics or the nauseating feeling from remembered trauma and hyper attentiveness You don't turn me away And I suppose that's your job But it is more than that and I can sense it and when I do I tense again My head is heavy and my heart is steady as I contain my laughs and smiles just a moment longer So there isn't the acknowledgement that you're what's on my mind I'm the queen of subtlety; of unspecified glances and daydreams and gentle flirtation I figured myself out to a degree and I'm starting from scratch I don't know where this feeling should go- it's too soon for my heart but my head is tired of tossing the idea around If I think too hard I start to imagine me, still lacking confidence but at least owning myself enough to tell you I want to try this with you I'm enamored, empassioned, and frightful When I feel this I run and I dont look back. And yet I stay With the hope and dreams for a future In it things are just....different and I can take myself to that vulnerable place and it's received and cherished and respected. God, I want to kiss you and I know that's so boring and unoriginal and simplistic but when I think about kissing you? My brain goes warm and fuzzy and I'm reminded I do and can feel joy and lust and care and passion. My heart is full and I can't bleed it dry again, she just can't take it But what I can take is one more look at that beautiful face of yours and wonder to myself how things could be if I had the courage to just ask you I want to feel it. I want to feel you opening up to me and getting closer and feeling like maybe there's a part of you that wants.... something I feel something; it's something that's happened between now and months ago and its changing and it scares me but you're making me feel something and its worth addressing

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May 7, 2019

May 7, 2019 at 3:59 AM UTC

Feel it

I'm breathing slightly heavily I sat anticipating....the feeling I freeze when you look at me Bc you're seeing me Your gaze wanders, but it comes back I tense up when it's back You do see me I swallow and hope I don't choke when you're looking into my eyes and I'm aware I'm being seen I can't hide my nervous tics or the nauseating feeling from remembered trauma and hyper attentiveness You don't turn me away And I suppose that's your job But it is more than that and I can sense it and when I do I tense again My head is heavy and my heart is steady as I contain my laughs and smiles just a moment longer So there isn't the acknowledgement that you're what's on my mind I'm the queen of subtlety; of unspecified glances and daydreams and gentle flirtation I figured myself out to a degree and I'm starting from scratch I don't know where this feeling should go- it's too soon for my heart but my head is tired of tossing the idea around If I think too hard I start to imagine me, still lacking confidence but at least owning myself enough to tell you I want to try this with you I'm enamored, empassioned, and frightful When I feel this I run and I dont look back. And yet I stay With the hope and dreams for a future In it things are just....different and I can take myself to that vulnerable place and it's received and cherished and respected. God, I want to kiss you and I know that's so boring and unoriginal and simplistic but when I think about kissing you? My brain goes warm and fuzzy and I'm reminded I do and can feel joy and lust and care and passion. My heart is full and I can't bleed it dry again, she just can't take it But what I can take is one more look at that beautiful face of yours and wonder to myself how things could be if I had the courage to just ask you I want to feel it. I want to feel you opening up to me and getting closer and feeling like maybe there's a part of you that wants.... something I feel something; it's something that's happened between now and months ago and its changing and it scares me but you're making me feel something and its worth addressing

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I read a headline- *** deprived daughters who move back home" How can I be deprived of something That was forcefed to me?

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Apr 11, 2019

Apr 11, 2019 at 2:47 AM UTC

Untitled

I read a headline- *** deprived daughters who move back home" How can I be deprived of something That was forcefed to me?

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I didn't give you consent To change the meaning

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Apr 3, 2019

Apr 3, 2019 at 1:39 AM UTC

No

I didn't give you consent To change the meaning

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I don't like I cant stand I hate being A thing That can be penetrated A thing A thing Some disgusting thing

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Apr 2, 2019

Apr 2, 2019 at 8:30 PM UTC

I don't

I don't like I cant stand I hate being A thing That can be penetrated A thing A thing Some disgusting thing

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I don't regret the ring I don't regret the promise It showed me my truth.

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Mar 31, 2019

Mar 31, 2019 at 6:13 PM UTC

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I don't regret the ring I don't regret the promise It showed me my truth.

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Take me back To the night we met The laziest night I clutched my phone in my hand, staring at the address..hoping this is it Praying for safety I softened when I saw you, in washed out blue jeans and that scraggly hair you hadn't cut In my mind I fast forward to your powder blue sheets The 2 foot distance between us and the tension growing as I felt a new type of panic Of actual, genuine, physical attraction that was reciprocated I tried to ignore everytime you smiled at me and looked at my lips, I had to maintain my hardness And then you uttered 'im sorry, I talk so much when I'm really nervous" And I asked you why? And I knew why And then the music ceased. you turned it on, and turned to me You mumbled on about feeling flustered and feeling fearful of the moment where you'd lean in to kiss me And we leaned in closer and then I just remember it so clearly. The smiling between kisses, the way you said my giggles were sweet as you planted more kisses along my neck as I couldn't contain the pleasure that I felt from each soft kiss Our bodies wrapped together, I was limitless and unashamed as I delicately undressed and your hands ran across my body and your lips did and I exhaled sharply as I began to notice the sensations of lips on lips and lips on skin and neck and back and chest We did separate a few times, but you caressed my arms and rubbed my thighs and pulled me in to kiss me again .. From hour one to hour two until 1 in the morning, we shared intimacies and laughs and sweetness and inexperience I was free when I was most exposed and you cherished each part of me that I shared with you You .... waited I understand so clearly now that there was never an ulterior motive There was never anything insidious or lustful or harmful That this was enough for you I was enough for you And that I was perfect to you "This is ok, this is perfect. I want to just do this with you" It wasn't 'just this' It was everything.

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Mar 29, 2019

Mar 29, 2019 at 9:50 PM UTC

Everything...just everything

Take me back To the night we met The laziest night I clutched my phone in my hand, staring at the address..hoping this is it Praying for safety I softened when I saw you, in washed out blue jeans and that scraggly hair you hadn't cut In my mind I fast forward to your powder blue sheets The 2 foot distance between us and the tension growing as I felt a new type of panic Of actual, genuine, physical attraction that was reciprocated I tried to ignore everytime you smiled at me and looked at my lips, I had to maintain my hardness And then you uttered 'im sorry, I talk so much when I'm really nervous" And I asked you why? And I knew why And then the music ceased. you turned it on, and turned to me You mumbled on about feeling flustered and feeling fearful of the moment where you'd lean in to kiss me And we leaned in closer and then I just remember it so clearly. The smiling between kisses, the way you said my giggles were sweet as you planted more kisses along my neck as I couldn't contain the pleasure that I felt from each soft kiss Our bodies wrapped together, I was limitless and unashamed as I delicately undressed and your hands ran across my body and your lips did and I exhaled sharply as I began to notice the sensations of lips on lips and lips on skin and neck and back and chest We did separate a few times, but you caressed my arms and rubbed my thighs and pulled me in to kiss me again .. From hour one to hour two until 1 in the morning, we shared intimacies and laughs and sweetness and inexperience I was free when I was most exposed and you cherished each part of me that I shared with you You .... waited I understand so clearly now that there was never an ulterior motive There was never anything insidious or lustful or harmful That this was enough for you I was enough for you And that I was perfect to you "This is ok, this is perfect. I want to just do this with you" It wasn't 'just this' It was everything.

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I wonder how it feels To be loved Without exception

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Oct 14, 2018

Oct 14, 2018 at 4:46 PM UTC

Musing

I wonder how it feels To be loved Without exception

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