I no longer care for you
***** up your life,
Loose your friends,
Become a gypsy.
Your path no longer concerns me.
You use to have my empathy.
A long road,
many names called...turned to sympathy.
I tried to be nice,
Help you,
Even when you silently cried,
It became clear things were unraveling for you
To destroy any feeling of affection happened
You hurt me...
...those I love...
...cannot be described.
At the beginning I wanted to be your friend,
How could you?
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 11:52 PM UTC
It's all a word game
He said she said as it were
But this time...
It's only a she said.
Filled with lies and misdeeds
Top story of the town.
It's all a word game
To hide the truth
Destroy someone's reputation
the truth doesn't matter
Not as juicy
as rich to talk about.
I've said sorry
Never meant to hurt you
cause you pain.
I can't keep being nice
when pain is all you give back to me.
One day hopefully you can move past what happened
Maybe...
hopefully.
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 3:54 PM UTC
How do I start to explain
How much you mean to me?
I could start with a cute joke,
maybe quote Shakespeare...
...make you think.
I could make comments like
"I can't live without you"
But the thing is that I could.
I just refuse to let you go.
With you my days become perfect
You turn what is a bad into something memorable.
And while I could live on without you...
... I don't want to.
You have become my addiction in all ways.
I smile brighter at just the happy look in your eyes
...tells me that you love me as much as I love you
My stomach still gets butterflies when you touch me
and a feeling of pure heat with your kiss.
My knees buckle and I turn to mush when you hold me close.
When I look back at what we've been through in just this short time I smile.
It's true that we have been through more then anyone should
But the moments like when we started to talk...
...you first took my hand...
...our first kiss...
...that one afternoon we gave each other
completely.
These moments are what make it worth it.
So...how to start?
Jason, sweetie.
I would gladly crawl through hell to be with you.
I love you more then I ever thought I could love anyone
You have opened up my heart and soul to a happiness that I didn't know existed.
I look forward to spending each morning, afternoon, and night with you...
...rain, sleet, snow, or a perfect day
My life with out you would be livable it's true
But just as a shell of the life I will have with you.
Dec 7, 2013
Dec 7, 2013 at 10:22 PM UTC
You always smell like coffee
No matter how much time has passed between cups
That smell hangs on you like a cloak
It's a scent I use to loath
And now smile whenever it draws near
For I know that with that smell
comes your warm embrace.
Dec 3, 2013
Dec 3, 2013 at 8:43 PM UTC
running; unknown direction
which way is up? down?
head swirling; full of fog.
how could i have let it get to this point?
not knowing what the choice will be...it scares me every day.
why do i feel like i've been spun in circles and then released?
no point in going farther?
the direction needed is long in the past.
a new path must be made,
get to the same destination?
is a new one needed?
Oct 17, 2013
Oct 17, 2013 at 1:07 PM UTC
Hold me close...
...never let me go;
Let the world continue on,
As we spin slow.
Heads pressed together
In each others embrace
Hold me close...
...never let me go.
Aug 11, 2013
Aug 11, 2013 at 9:59 PM UTC
You make me smile
Like no other I have ever felt before
Nor can ever live without now
A smile that doesn't start or end
It just is
I can feel it from the tip of my toes
to the very top of my head
Brought to me like that of a bee to a flower
Neither one able to sustain without the other
With the sweetness of honey as the result
Jun 13, 2013
Jun 13, 2013 at 9:56 PM UTC
I'm damaged
Dented, torn and broken
I have wear and tear in all my places
from years of being built up...
...just to be hammered down
Years of emotional turmoil from someone that should have been a support
instead of the dynamite.
In places where I shouldn't have been hurt
I now have barbed wire up to protect
The things that were done to me,
said to me,
or put upon me by you...
...make me who I am it's true.
But some experiences are best not even told in horror movies let alone lived;
by someone who thought they were loved.
Words and phrases of endearment kept me there
Even through the pain
I thought I could fix it.
You leaving me hurt at first I admitt
Codependency is an awful thing.
But I soon realized that I don't need you, desire you or want anything to do with you.
My life is better off without you and your mind games.
I may be dented,
Hell I may even be infixable from all the crap you put me through.
But now that I don't care what you think I can live with my dents and tears.
Makes me a better person to know that while I am strong enough to deal with a hell relationship
I will never allow myself to be in one again.
I won't allow myself to be treated like that again.
I know now that I am too good for you
For where I offered you everything...
...you offered nothing except for lyes and cheating.
I moved on, something I was told you really hated.
I'm now truly loved by someone who I intend to share the rest of my life with
Someone who loves me for me and is working to repare the damage you left.
Good-bye to all your crap and pettiness
I don't miss you the way you wanted me to.
I'm happy and there's nothing you can do about it except for sulk.
You're not the one putting the smile on my face.
Never were and never will be.
May 30, 2013
May 30, 2013 at 7:28 PM UTC
I'm afraid of loosing you.
Afraid of seeing you leave;
like all we had together were words written in sand
Instead of engraved in our hearts.
Afraid that one day you won't look at me with the love you do today
Afraid you'll walk away and not look back
as if all we were was dust in the wind.
I've been plauged with nightmares
Everynight; the details change with them all
but the end is always the same.
I loose you. I loose us.
The love I see in your eyes and hear in your voice: gone.
Everynight I don't see you...it gets worse,
the nightmare progresses.
The time we spend together makes it better
shows me that you and I are meant to be.
But the days or weeks I go without
are like weights on my heart dragging me down.
They make my fear seem more real.
May 5, 2013
May 5, 2013 at 1:31 PM UTC
A romantic night
Just for two
That's what I want
Just a moment with you.
And hopefully one can turn into two
And two into three
Who knows, this could lead to eternity.
That's what my heart wishes for.
For with your arm
I want a moment...as many as you'll give
Wrapped in your embrace.
Feeling your warmth
Hearing your heart.
Your eyes
I want a moment...as many as you'll give
Staring into that perfect world that they create
Knowing that the way they look back at me
You feel the same.
Your lips
I want a moment...as many as you'll give
Feeling them upon mine
The softness and sweetness of honey
Yet with a fierce intensness telling me to never stop.
Just a moment
A moment alone with you
To turn one into two
And two into three
And three into eternity.
Apr 7, 2013
Apr 7, 2013 at 12:33 PM UTC