mobrousseau - Hello Poetry

You are the whispering thoughts holding me hostage. Your words lay hold of my heart, forcing seconds between each pulse. You are slowing the rhythm of my chest to a barely livable beat I hear your whispers and I guess you should know, you are convincing.

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Jan 12, 2020

Jan 12, 2020 at 8:03 PM UTC

Guilt

You are the whispering thoughts holding me hostage. Your words lay hold of my heart, forcing seconds between each pulse. You are slowing the rhythm of my chest to a barely livable beat I hear your whispers and I guess you should know, you are convincing.

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I shrink until I am smaller than the bottle you sip from Your lips feel the burn of the whiskey And I feel the wrath of the sadness that has buried itself so deeply within your heart The burden and the bottle have grown too big And so I I shrink to keep the peace

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Dec 28, 2019

Dec 28, 2019 at 11:26 AM UTC

perks of being his daughter

I shrink until I am smaller than the bottle you sip from Your lips feel the burn of the whiskey And I feel the wrath of the sadness that has buried itself so deeply within your heart The burden and the bottle have grown too big And so I I shrink to keep the peace

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the first night I sat in my bed blaming myself for your absence my hands held my head and my mind swirled until my eyes were too heavy to stay awake the second night I paced paced back and forth from the doors to windows waiting for your headlights its 3 a.m. but my legs grew tired and my heart felt weak so I slept on the kitchen floor waiting the third night I smashed your empty bottles so I could hear them shatter into thousands of small pieces I needed to hear something feel something I needed to know I was still alive too the fourth night I reminded myself of your addiction the disease taking over your heart soul family when suddenly I remembered you are the victim and who am I to blame the fifth night I forgave you but this time I forgave you for me

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Aug 28, 2018

Aug 28, 2018 at 8:55 PM UTC

TimeAndTimeAgain

the first night I sat in my bed blaming myself for your absence my hands held my head and my mind swirled until my eyes were too heavy to stay awake the second night I paced paced back and forth from the doors to windows waiting for your headlights its 3 a.m. but my legs grew tired and my heart felt weak so I slept on the kitchen floor waiting the third night I smashed your empty bottles so I could hear them shatter into thousands of small pieces I needed to hear something feel something I needed to know I was still alive too the fourth night I reminded myself of your addiction the disease taking over your heart soul family when suddenly I remembered you are the victim and who am I to blame the fifth night I forgave you but this time I forgave you for me

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i find no comfort here in the four walls i’ve always called home home is where the heart is but mine’s long gone my heart throbbed until my chest couldn’t take it and it tore itself in half to quiet its beat my heart is not whole anymore this is not home anymore and i wish it was possible to leave leave the locked doors the closed blinds the sealed windows leave the darkness that consumes me and you and the secrets we’ve kept since we learned to speak i’d love to leave it all behind me walk out the door open the blinds feel the wind rush through the windows allow the sun to touch my skin and see me, feel me the real me but where would i go, i have no home so instead i stay stay locked up stay closed stay sealed instead i stay and don’t take care of me, inside these four walls i’ve let my heart quiet so not even i can hear its beat

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Mar 9, 2018

Mar 9, 2018 at 11:26 AM UTC

Where's Home

i find no comfort here in the four walls i’ve always called home home is where the heart is but mine’s long gone my heart throbbed until my chest couldn’t take it and it tore itself in half to quiet its beat my heart is not whole anymore this is not home anymore and i wish it was possible to leave leave the locked doors the closed blinds the sealed windows leave the darkness that consumes me and you and the secrets we’ve kept since we learned to speak i’d love to leave it all behind me walk out the door open the blinds feel the wind rush through the windows allow the sun to touch my skin and see me, feel me the real me but where would i go, i have no home so instead i stay stay locked up stay closed stay sealed instead i stay and don’t take care of me, inside these four walls i’ve let my heart quiet so not even i can hear its beat

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