oh, my love.
how did it get to this?
the safety that I felt with you
has changed unexpectedly.
each day passes
and I always worry.
I love you.
that I know for sure.
but loving you freely,
has become a question in my mind.
please show me.
show me what it’s like
to love without having to question anything.
I am trying my best
but my anxiousness overshadows me.
I miss you.
but I am afraid of being hurt
once more.
Aug 7, 2020
Aug 7, 2020 at 9:22 AM UTC
I am so grateful for you
For making me the happiest I’ve ever been
For making me feel loved
For making me feel safe
And for always reminding me how special I am
I have never loved anyone like I love you
You keep me going
And inspire me to do better
You’re the answer to my prayers
You are the one
The one who I want to build a future with
No matter how hard it may get
I will love you unconditionally
For you are
The love of my life
Nov 11, 2019
Nov 11, 2019 at 1:20 AM UTC
it's been months since you left,
but i still find myself thinking of you
it's been months since you left,
but i still feel the pain you gave me
what did i do to deserve this feeling?
when all i wanted was to love someone
who will love me just as much
and accept me for who i am
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 12:36 AM UTC
is it right
to laugh at someone
who's pouring anger
towards someone
for hurting?
is it right
to tell everyone
that she's crazy
just because she's angry?
is it right
that I feel bad
because i was once in the same position
and being angry was my only way
only way of telling everyone
that i was hurting?
is it even right
to bring you back into my life
now that i'm witnessing you do this?
i can tell you've changed
but deep inside
are you still the same person i fell in love with
over a year ago?
here i am
always confused
my indecisiveness
just doesn't help me
move on or go forth with my life
so is it right
to have you back in my life?
is it right?
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 2:47 PM UTC
the time came
when i was ready to love again.
you came into my life
like a blessing from above,
i was so grateful for you.
you brought me high up.
showered me with your love, attention and all
but now,
now you left me here hanging.
i thought of you as someone to be with
for a long time,
and even for a lifetime,
but i guess we were never really on the same page.
it hurts to know
that i poured my heart out for you
because i thought you were different
but i guess it’s just one of those situations where
im the only one trying to make it work
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 2:43 PM UTC
im at the point of my life
where im just going with the flow
im neither happy or sad
i just feel alone
everyone around me
seems to have it figured out
yet here i am
just trying to get by
this isn’t the life i imagined to have
my anxiety is taking over me
and making things harder than it should be
i just want someone to tell me that it’s going to be okay
but here i am alone
facing everything all by myself
im alive yet i feel so dead
ive never felt this way
uninspired and so unmotivated
i feel like nothing’s going right
i am lost and alone
in this big world full of people
this is not how i imagined life
can someone please tell me that _everything is going to be okay?_
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 2:40 AM UTC
gone too soon—
you have lived all your life
making others happy.
now that I think about it
what a selfless person you are
always putting others needs before yours
you believed in me
more than i ever believed in myself
you were the one
who pushed me to reach my full potential
i wouldn't be the person i am today
and still be the shy girl I used to be
if I didn’t have you in my life
i thank you for everything
you’re in a good place now
and you will surely be missed.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 12:52 AM UTC
the love i had for you felt so strong
that it ended with intense pain
i could not bare
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 11:19 PM UTC
unresolved feelings—
is this what it is?
the reason why
i still cling onto you?
i thought i was over this
but now
the possibility
of you and i getting back together
still runs through my mind
am i crazy to think that?
or is this all just caused
by my unresolved feelings
that needs to be answered?
Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 10:02 PM UTC
The voices in my head, brought me to this place
A gloomy surrounding, everything looking lifeless and sad
I question myself, “Why am I here?”
But as I look ahead, I see a beautiful mountain; covered in fluffy snow,
Almost looking like the clouds.
Now, I am yearning to see the mountain up close,
But how do I get to see the best view?
With no one around, not even animals
Who do I go for, for advice?
I continue to look and walk around,
Still clueless, not sure what has drawn me to go on this journey
“It’s only a mountain,”
I tell myself.
Trying to figure out where the voices in my head came from
My mind is blocked
Can’t think straight or
See clearly
Everything is a blur.
Could this possibly be a dream?
I continue on with this journey
Trying my best to find a way to get to the snowy mountains
Tired and lifeless,
I pass out in the middle of nowhere
Flashbacks start to come
You were the voice in my head
Your harsh words,
Harsh words that brought me into this dark place
Left me feeling helpless and burdened
I get up and try to find a way out
Here I am standing, standing where I began
Looking at the mountain,
From where I’m standing, I question myself:
“Which way do I go?”
There’s the stream
A stream that’s aligned with the mountain
And the mountains with a path cleared out
Directing me to the snowy mountain.
The voices in my head
Preventing me from moving forward,
Drowning me with sadness.
The longer I’m here,
The more it overwhelms me
I’ve got to get out of here.
Jul 7, 2018
Jul 7, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC