this is isn't poem
i just need to get it out
my dog is sick
he's dying
i don't want to lose him
but i don't want him to suffer
i don't want to live without him
but i don't know if he would be better off if i put him down
i'm terrified and i don't know what to do
i don't want to sleep because my dreams are all about losing him or life without him
i feel like i haven't fully comprehended what's happening
i found out about this yesterday right after getting home from a 2 week trip
right before i left, i had a feeling that i should spend a little more time with him because he's getting old
the whole trip something was nagging at me
i knew something was wrong this whole time
and i did absolutely nothing about it
i want him to be as comfortable as possible but i don't think i'll be able to handle being around him without breaking down
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 7:10 AM UTC
why wait
for the pain
for someone to hurt you
when you can hurt them first?
May 22, 2019
May 22, 2019 at 7:17 PM UTC
I think I was distracted
From the truth swirling around me
I'm thankful for the stress that shielded me
From the truth
That I am alone; unheard, unwanted,
unloved.
May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 8:59 PM UTC
When life gets rough
I know I should take it,
push through
But I just want to scream
"I can't"
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 9:32 PM UTC
Stress
Stress
Stress
It never ends
Just continues
Due to
Family
School
Friends
Depression
Expectations
STRESS
It weighs on your lungs
Suffocating
Drowning and going
Down the
W
H
I
R
L
P
O
O
L
of stress
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 10:02 PM UTC
I watch the night owl
Soaring over the night
Free,
She effortlessly flies
Untouched by all
Unlike
I
Lesser creatures
watch her glide
as night falls with
Envy
Silent wingbeats
alert none to her presence.
All respect
Her.
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 8:24 PM UTC
What is a **********
But a woman
Who partakes in joy with another
A person who provides acceptance and pleasure:
Both emotional and physical
Despite being called *****
What is a **********
But a woman
Who nurtures and loves another
A person who provides pain and pleasure
For those in need for a strong hand to the light
Despite being called "crazy *****
What is a pornstar?
But a woman
Who has the courage to bare her body to the world
A person who provides guidance and desire
To those exploring their sexualities
Despite being called ****
What is a *** worker?
But a woman
Who breaks society's taboos
A person who does what she loves
For those who love her for what she does
Despite being called "disgusting"
*****
****
"sloppy"
And so much more
What is a *** worker?
But a woman
Who is beautiful,
strong,
empowered,
and a truly liberated woman.
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 8:54 PM UTC
There's nothing I can do
To make you proud
To please you
Why do you insist,
In believe that I'm a bad person?
What did I ever do?
Because of you, I gave up
and again,
I feel like giving up.
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 8:39 PM UTC
I walk
And open
the chest of treasures
I scan the jewels
I try to pick something
But I cannot decide
And so I turn and say
...
"There's nothing to eat"
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 5:56 PM UTC