The fire still burns
The heart still yearns
But lessons were learned
Yours was an approval I shouldn't earn.
Oct 22, 2020
Oct 22, 2020 at 2:14 PM UTC
You still haunt me
Midnight, daylight.
Feel your arms wrapped around me
Feel the tight grip on my hand
Feel your soft lips on mine
Feel your breath on my skin.
Memories of you still haunt me
Midnight, daylight.
May 28, 2020
May 28, 2020 at 9:26 PM UTC
Brush on one hand
Paint in the other
Poured a tint of green
Unto a pint of white.
I wanted more green.
You said stop
But it was too late
I already poured myself in
There was no turning back.
I wanted more green.
Instead, I got mint
Cold, cold minty hue
Now, I had to make do
With whatever green is left.
I wanted more green.
Green, green growth
And the best of my youth.
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 11:20 AM UTC
I kept a list of things that you dread and like
Colored the first black, the other white.
Back then, I only know one to cite
Now, it has a ninety-nine items in plain sight.
Wrote the 100th note after the talk yesterday
My name is finally on it but the color is gray.
May 18, 2020
May 18, 2020 at 1:31 AM UTC
Wind roars angrily
As rain drops start to fall
In a cold May dawn
I walk alone to home.
Step, step, step
I pace forward
My core is breaking
But I must move.
With shoulders down
and a face of frown
I try to struggle
Not to succumb.
Dark emotions lurk
Everywhere I look
My body shakes from fear
Even if it has known ache.
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 3:13 PM UTC
The moon is full
Shining behind mountains tall
Cold wind sends shiver down my spine
I know, I know
I don't have much time.
Underworld's Grim knocks
on my heart, not the door
Be still, my heart
Be still, don't want more.
Here, the inevitable comes
Puts a sickle on my throat
I have lived. I have lived.
I am content. I am ready.
Take me now while I am happy.
Now, time will stood still
Like the sole tree on the hill
Bid goodbye, bid goodbye
For the time to die is nigh.
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 5:10 AM UTC
I want it all to ******* end.
There. I've said it.
Agonizing.
Pretending.
Fixing.
Shaking.
Breathing.
I want it all to come to an eternal halt.
Then maybe, just maybe
They'd stop ignoring the obvious
Confront the demons that haunt us
Learn to live with deep wounds
And turn scars into badges.
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 10:27 PM UTC
And I ran under the rain
Hoping to wash away all the pain
Tears weren't enough to cleanse the vain,
To erase the memories of bane.
I ran, skipped, turned
Cooling the soul with third degree burns
Gentle drops from heaven calmed my nerves
Temporarily, agony was shunned.
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 1:10 PM UTC
I wanna shower in the rain.
But I know I shouldn't
For sickness awaits at the end remain.
Heavy downpour will be too much on my weak shoulders
Cold drops will further chill my broken soul.
But even so...
I wanna shower in the rain.
For a chance to get high with temporary bliss
For a moment of shutting all noise but of the rhythm of the heart.
I wanna shower in the rain.
I wanna shower with you in the rain.
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 1:40 AM UTC
Remind me again that mornings
bring new hope
that basking in the light won't burn me.
Remind me again that mornings
are exciting
that there is an unexpected surprise ahead.
Remind me again that mornings
reveal a daily life purpose
that each passing day adds meaning to my insignificant existence.
Remind me again that mornings
are for rising up
that it is neither for bidding 'goodnight' or 'sweet dreams'.
Remind me again that mornings
can be beautiful
Even if I won't find myself waking in your arms anymore.
May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 7:00 PM UTC