The paths taken
Feel so unforgiving
To hear the words
You say are true
Stand strong and linger
With a bitter taste
Can't you tell what's
Right or wrong
And if the affects
Lay within my reach
Just yesterday
You pulled me in to help
Feel safe
And now your like
The Cheshire cat
And his foolish grin
How can you wear two
Faces at a time
Which one do you feed
At any given time
Jul 30, 2019
Jul 30, 2019 at 7:45 AM UTC
WARNING: STRONG FEELINGS OF ANGER AHEAD -
Guess I should try and try again
It's useless I already know
And so, it's fruitless trying to let anybody know
I cringe in such distaste of ignorant people
The people that say oh she just wants attention, or that she just doesnt want to get better
Well **** you you ignorant ****
Until you Have experienced it shut the **** up!!
I knew when I woke up
My thoughts were not (oh guess I want to be sad today or oh guess I will choose to be happy today)
Get a grip ignorant people!
For goodness sakes you should just shut the **** up!!
Your so ******* stupid - to think you know something when you know nothing at all about it - because if you did - you probably helped to put some innocent child, adolescent, young adult in their grave!!
So for those of you who don't know what it's like -
SHUT THE **** UP!!
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 5:26 AM UTC
To feel as though I may fall
Upon painful memories from so
Far ago
The battery of feeling unloved
Which whence it was born from
To fall to my knees
Is where it takes me
There's no hiding
No plight quite ever allows
Just cradle myself for there is
Never one to understand
How it crumples me into
So many folds
That I can no longer unbend
And try still to remold
It lingers in the stillness
Of my lonely home
Never do I want to feel as though
I may fall
Dec 3, 2018
Dec 3, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC
It has been said
"Your day is coming"
That life can turn
in an instant
I have been hopeful
that day indeed would come
So when it appeared
you bet I jumped aboard
With all that I had seen
with others that is
it was then I learned
my expectations are mine to own
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 4:24 PM UTC
Truth not always spoken
But always known
For the day will come
With such spoken words
Let the truth in
Let it be the release
of the old
And the building
Of the new
Let the truth in
Let it be known
That what is seen
with the eyes
Always holds the truth
Let the truth in
And the trust within
The new you begin
Jul 3, 2018
Jul 3, 2018 at 11:36 PM UTC
I felt the plunge of it's talons
As it wretched my heart to pieces
The excruciating feeling of the ripping and the tearing of my heart
The sounds of it feeding upon me brought forth the vile in my stomach
I couldn't survive this time! I knew there had to be an end.
No more pain, no more ugly thoughts running rampant in my mind
No more seeking desperately to make it stop!
To just lay down and feel no more is the only thing left that I want!
To know that I was just a crazy woman in everyone's mind matters no more.
Jun 24, 2018
Jun 24, 2018 at 3:36 PM UTC
At times she laid upon her bed
Daring herself to drift
It was then
Those dark, dark slumbers
Taught just who she really is
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018 at 1:54 AM UTC
How does one survive the turmoil inside
Doubts of oneself that replay on repeat
Crisis created out of truths put aside
Protecting the truth that caused the defeat
Then to learn no norm will ever be built
Never ever will it even be known
Then comes the shame and of course all the guilt
Damaged further and cannot be resewn
Then swept away with another high tide
Raising the same questions left from the past
Then look above for the reason to hide
Answers not given only added to the last
Then fears brought back upon shores of unreason
Living sadness still in another New season
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018 at 9:52 PM UTC
I absolutely know there is something
hiding within me
It lays low in my soul which keeps my spirit at bay
Oh how i keep aching for a different way of life
Yet i cant get loose from its choke hold
On my heart
I could see death in the reflection of myself this morning
And yet still I cant put the
glass down
that keeps that part of me hidden
I plead for it to show itself
So that maybe , just maybe i can get beyond it
I am resisting the urge to rid myself from the creature that refuses to come forward
What a coward it must be for it is not I but IT that preyed upon me
What lays ahead I never know
but hope somehow
It beheads you
YOU COWARD
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018 at 9:43 PM UTC
Consumed for so very long
With everything about ME
I did not know until
IT NOW HAS BESEIGED ME
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 5:44 PM UTC