
miss-masque
35/F/American
There will always be another person who will reach out and help you if you ask for it. I hope you can find some solace, or reminisce about happy times, or fill some emotional need through the medium of poetry. / Someone cares: I care. / -Miss Masque
Clinging--
Closer than Snow Storms
Cling to Death,
Hearing the Whisper
of a Crackle as
The Wax Weeps
Down the Wick.
Clanging--
Four Chimes
Ringing in the
Silent Night,
Searching
For an Audience.
Can't hide from
the pain in your chest--
It's deep. It has roots.
My blanket--
It used to be magic.
I would come home--
Crying,
My bed would greet me
in its usual fashion
and I would flop,
pull the edges of the blanket
and wrap them around me.
And then I was safe.
And then I was warm.
I was invisible in my
cloth burrito.
My blanket is fluffier.
More fancy. Regal even.
Queens had down comforters--right?
It's not the same.
It's too soft.
It hasn't been cried into for hours,
or filled with crumbs from snacks.
It isn't stained from being used as a napkin.
Ringing--
In my ears,
The Silence a Cold Mirror,
but Every Time I get Close,
my Breath Fogs up the Glass.
20h ago
Jun 3, 2026 at 4:12 AM UTC
The pawn sits
Twenty-six stories up
Outside my window
That is nailed shut--
Watching, without eyes,
Sensing, with its stone pores
Absorbing everything that floats
Up from the steam from the street grates to the smell of engines laced
With the sweet scent of rotting garbage, all the bags lined up
On the sidewalk next to scurrying
And hurrying, bustle and hustle,
Self-cares a bubble around each
Individual, at twenty-six stories,
They are ants.
They travel throughout the deeply cut man-made divots in the earth and pray to the buildings that
Scrape the sky that their purpose
Is shared, that the buildings promise
To hold their alliance, to stand tall
And not fall like domino's in a game of the hereafter.
The streetlamps let us peek
At the night life that starts to seep
Out of the shadows of the neat
And tidy crossroads of the
urban peak of immaculate synergy.
If you squint, you see the cracks,
The weary, the unfortunate, the left behind dragging their cares
With them, the lingering smell of ammonia and fear, the ambition slapped from their worried bones, their tired hands outstretched
For any kindness, any recognition
That they are still an 'us'--
part of the human flora that blooms
Even when their roots are in a crack of the sidewalk pavement.
Vendors, senders, returning
To their marked blocking spot
Down Broadway, even the taxis
Feel rehearsed, pedicabs peddle,
The fake designer purses' buckles
Glinting, glaring, the tourists
Picking--staring, the natives
Mumbling, shuffling--daring to
Brave the underground
Where the pawn no longer sees,
Taking the people away to places,
Then regurgitating them from
The depths, flooding up
from some other
Hole in the ground.
Years ago,
From this spot,
Construction workers sat
Nine hundred feet up
On a cross beam suspended
With metal rope,
Eating their lunches,
Having a smoke,
Near the new home of
The Pawn,
Before it understood
What pigeons were.
Before it was stained
With flying excrement,
Beaten with heavy rains,
Accosted at all hours
With the sound of horns
And traffic and people.
This is the Pawn's city,
Watching over it with
Cleverly disguised senses,
Not a gargoyle hanging
Over a precipice,
But a silent narrator,
Absorbing the culture,
On the twenty-sixth floor,
From which it never moves,
And calls this place
Home.
Apr 11
Apr 11, 2026 at 8:55 AM UTC
Oh how you glisten,
Your encrusted top--
Just listen for the dainty pop
Out of the fire and onto my plate--
What a wholesome loaf of fate.
Sing for your supper,
Write for your dinner,
If you can't
Make the dough this time,
I guess you'll be thinner.
The upper crust,
no muss, no fuss,
Day old bread in the bin
with the dust,
Crumbs flung in disgust-
to peck at,
The People
made to bow, as fowl,
consuming their pittance.
Try and run away with the
Milk and a spoon--
Cast off into an
Ocean of milk,
but the small ship sinks
with nothing but a spoon
To row through all the cream.
Drown the milk in chocolate,
and maybe it'll be sweeter
to choke down
past the lumpy chunks.
Apr 8
Apr 8, 2026 at 9:45 AM UTC
Light a candle inside me--
I'm hollow.
Carve out my guts and
I'll follow.
Make it a new day
I swallow--
But I'm empty,
Carved to the core.
Give me substance
Or I'll snap from the moor.
I see the reflection
of a memory,
But it's no good
to me.
It's no good to me.
Give me something
Real,
My dreams--
they tear at the curtains.
I remember what the warmth
Felt like from the outside light,
Tickles and prickles and hugs,
Now it just feels
Too bright.
It dims the light,
that you lit
inside the hollow.
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 5:27 PM UTC
I still smell your hair,
mistake your shadow on the stairs,
hear your voice from down the hall,
when there is nothing there at all.
I smell your cooking,
hear you singing,
Feel the fibers of your jacket,
Tears falling, head ringing
I hear your laugh,
I see your smile,
your voice still melts me
despite the miles
of space
You've put between us.
A punch to the face
would be less abrasive
than seeing your clothes still
hanging there and not holding me--
and the guest book
on your dresser with our
names and that date--
the day we held hands
with fate,
the day you looked at me
your eyes so simply
holding onto my gaze
because we couldn't let each other
go, we were holding on so hard...
That was before. That was before.
I have to remind myself
that what was mine,
I thought was mine,
Never really was,
Never really could have been...
An experiment that the tides washed
and now somehow I'm missing buttons
and that dress doesn't fit anymore.
I'm so scared to hear your voice now,
my heart breaks a thousand times
every
syllable,
Every shard of a reflection,
Lost in your inflection,
Smirking because I love you,
Crying for everything else.
Mar 14
Mar 14, 2026 at 5:04 AM UTC
I can hear a hummingbird blink
in the stillness of the moment
before the sunrise.
The light beckons, yawning
with the twilight,
Dew refracting the rainbows.
As watchful as I am,
Sleep pulls at me
like a hungry lover
beckoning me into
becoming a burrito.
Dark fur purring
beside me as I contemplate
the moments between
solace and silence,
the hummingbird gone,
to be left alone
with my thoughts
and the purring.
Aug 6, 2025
Aug 6, 2025 at 7:16 AM UTC
I'm meant to hold your hand--
the way it curls over mine with
such a tenderness that's enough
to make me smile and leak tears
onto the bundled scarf.
The wind sweeps them away,
I blink up at you and know
the warmth your smile pours--
liquid amber honey that
holds me steady in your gaze,
and yet--
this is a new place.
We have been here for days,
Rushing around on trains
and buses
and cabs
and subways
to all the places humanity treasures--
and I want to experience every moment
with You.
The culture in new places
always feels like a theoretical
until it's experienced...like an outline,
a sketch, a diagram even--
but diagrams don't reflect
the life in your eyes when
you quietly whisper a pun
while the tour guide is guiding
and I have to cover my mouth
or risk the ire of a librarian stare
from whomever might be offended
by a little burst of joy being born.
It started raining on the cobblestone
as we were walking to brunch,
but you brought an umbrella and
sheltered us from being soaked as
some less fortunates skittered through
the streets like animals seeking shelter...
but we are in no rush;
We enjoy the rain, the sound, the smell,
as it melts the scene that should be
painted in watercolor.
I don't imagine I would--
Or even that I could
forget all the little things.
I collect them like seashells or
shiny little rocks, and I
put them in my pockets and they
lift me up as if they weren't little
rocks at all but balloons
not letting my feet
ever touch the ground
floating forever
in this love we've found.
Apr 12, 2025
Apr 12, 2025 at 6:03 PM UTC