Hot summer nights
When the sky is full of stars
And the smell of pine resin
Cuts deep in my senses.
Light touch of warm summer breez...
On my neck... through the hair...
Hot summer nights
When my mind is locked on a single memory...
Repeated love song on a gramophone
...A melody you made with your fingers...
...on my body.
Dance with me tonigh...
On a hot summer night..
Feel my hips under you arms
Feel the heat, feel the passion
Let me be your muse...
For new notes, new tones..
With your fingers on my body..
On a hot summer night.
May 30, 2022
May 30, 2022 at 6:20 PM UTC
To my WARRIOR OF LIGHT
Holding her comfortable in my womb
Under my heart...close as she always will be.
Oh how blessed I'm,
The universe gave me a new purpose of life
The moment when I mostly needed it.
The strong feeling of connection
...to the earth
...to the moon
...to the sun and stars.
I'm waiting for you
My little Warrior of light.
To shine over the darkness
To fulfill the empty hearts
To bring smile on the sad faces.
The world will be such a better place
With you in my arms...
With your smell I'm craving for
the sweetness of your skin
the innocence of your eyes.
I'm so ready for you, my little warrior
To hold your hand and step to a new journey
So we grow together and learn together
From each other, from the world...
I love you already so much,
MY LITTLE WARRIOR OF LIGHT.
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 5:49 AM UTC
So many years, my friend
Of loneliness, happiness and ignorance.
I have been pulled through time
In all my masks and shadows.
„Camuflage so you dont get hurt!“
But the fake suit gets heavier in time
More then the pain of innocent convicts,
My friend.
.....
You can see, my friend
The scars over my body and heart
Marks of failure, fights and struggles
Battles for better tomorrow.
You can see, my friend
Wrinkles over my face
Made out of screams for breaking out
And laughs shared from madness..
Like nothing in world exist anymore.
You can see shine in my eyes
From tears of wrong decisions
From breathtaking views of happiness.
...
So many years, my friend.
Storms of life changes
Making the day worth for something new.
And im still me, with all those scars
With same dreams and same hopes.
With same thoughts I shared with you,
So many years ago:
„Whats the point of light,
if there is no darkness to shine at.“
I still got the faith, my friend.
Jan 5, 2017
Jan 5, 2017 at 3:14 PM UTC
Sometimes, surrounded by daily struggle
With no time to deep breath the air
Following some made up order
I stop myself and ask:
Am I lost in this madness?
Using all my forces to make things right
Running for something and still feeling
like: " I m waiting all my life!"
I m waiting to stop the imposed chaos
And make the chaos of living life.
Sometimes, surrounded by daily struggle
I feel my chest is ripping apart.
You know, the madness in my head
The trembling of my body,
I m just stuck in it
And it wont let me even scream.
Sometimes,
I wish I could just jump out of me
To release these chains from my heart
All those attachments
All those “ I think I need to do things.“
All those fake smiles and faces.
False concerns and supports
Running in the infinity of illusion
With no true goal and purpose.
So, sometimes,
I just let my madness rip me off
To let me cold, exposed and naked
To let me see my self inside
And make me reborn in a new day
With new strength, for new fights.
Aug 27, 2016
Aug 27, 2016 at 1:07 PM UTC
I'm sitting on a forgotten, wild beach
Far from the city lights.
Moonlight is dancing on the sea surface
And my fingers playing
With those little waves
Cooling my body and bringing the smell
of some distant country's.
Next to me is sitting HE.
My sin, my desire, my reflection.
It's a stranger who understands my perception.
My wishes and my soul.
As Im taking the last smoke of my joint
Looking him straight in the eyes
Whispering with no sound
The melody of my thoughts.
He knows what I desire,
What my being wants from him.
So he moves a little closer
And with slowly touch of passion
He put his lips on me.
My sin, my forbidden world
Is gone forever with that energy flow.
I let my self drawn in his confessions
Forgetting of all my distance walls.
My sin, my forbidden world
Now is a dance floor for my soul.
Feeling my body beat in the rhythm of
infinity love...connected with the universe of acceptance and free energy flow..
And we will stay on this forgotten beach
Till the sun rise - from his long way trip
And the moonlight starts to dance
for some other souls with desire sins.
M.T. 2016.
Aug 5, 2016
Aug 5, 2016 at 7:59 AM UTC
There are those days
When I have no voice for you to hear
No smiles to share, No inspired words.
...Days of overloaded emotions....
You know It's only about me...
There are those days
When I stand in middle of city square
Surrounded with thousand and seeing zero...
Like a time stop. Time for me.
...Those are days of change...
You won't understand me, don't ask me!
It's the pain and joy, suffer and relief.
I will be broken and free.
Close and far.Don't try to feel me.
There are those days
When it's time to let go
Times when mind and soul connect
to a new level of understanding.
To a new perception of the sky.
...You know it's only about me...
Watch me from distance and please...
Don't try to understand me.
M.T. 2016
Aug 2, 2016
Aug 2, 2016 at 5:45 PM UTC
I had a dream last night
Vision of my life
In a state of deep connection
Yesterday,today,tomorrow as one.
I had a dream last night
A bright pure light
Guiding my way
....
Spreading the warmness of love.
I had a dream last night
Vision of my life
Distorted faces getting pure
With a slit of light touch.
In my dream last night
I was Discovering lucidity
Connected with my inner self
With the goddess of existence
And the pure source of love.
M.T. 2016.
Aug 1, 2016
Aug 1, 2016 at 11:30 AM UTC
I'm sitting in the dark
Corner of my kitchen
It's late at night
And all that i hear
Is my breathing and loud mind
Annoyed with some blood thirsty mosquito.
I'm thinking of the hard past days
Of all my used energy for others
For ensuring balance between.
****** zone you know...
**** it's so exhausting
But I'm proud...they all sleep
And I'm broken tonight
With my rolled tobacco
Letting myself to be weak
Hiding tears even I know
There is Noone to see it.
I love this dark corner
And the moonlight trough the window
They are my breaking point companies
My silent partners in pain.
And while I'm siting here
Pulling force from the last inches of faith
With the last smoke of rolled tobacco
I finally manage to hit that ******* mosquito.
M.T. 2016
Jun 2, 2016
Jun 2, 2016 at 6:43 PM UTC
There is nothing harder
Than the fight with ourselves
And i'm telling you
Thats the only fight we have.
The moment of loneliness
Crossing two different words
Angels and demons
What is real, what is fear?
Feeling like a catch
In some nylon bag
You want to scream
But there is always something
Pulling your voice back
The moment of loneliness
The chill over your body
Creating the picture of someone
You should be
At least that's what they say.
There is nothing harder
Then the fight with ourselves
Angels and Demons
That feeling of losing
The ground under your feet
The clearness of present
...And you...
Covering your head
Hoping it will disappear
That craziness of mixed,
Insane thoughts.
All you want is fall asleep
And don’t wake up till the
Light of morning sun
Raise the one
That you have been feeding.
M.T. 2016
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 6:13 PM UTC
While Im looking somewhere far in distance
breathe the sadness and happiness
from some distant countries
Carried by the wind...touching my face
Im opening my soul to the loftiness
Im looking somewhere far in distance
While listening seagulls lover song.
Loving the warmness that sunset gives me
praising himself with beautiful colors.
I'm looking somewhere far in distance
While the sea waves cover and chill my body
Feeling the force of nature beauty
I let my weakness out to flow.
Im looking somewhere far in distance
And dreaming the wind is your hand on my face..
the sun is your warmth lips on my cheeks
and the waves your body...being my cover.
And all the sounds getting through me
creating a beautiful,light notes.
Making a song written as my name,
Reaching from somewhere far away.
M.T. 2016.
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 11:45 AM UTC