A lot of people will write about her, I know
she was not only mine.
We are sad we are grieving
a community bands together.
My anger is macabre inappropriate:
when her light turned out, she turned out several others.
My dearest friend:
empty gas lamp.
Trying to relight is against a tempest
and sequestered in despair,
with internal lighter fluid drained
our marrow dry as dust.
(the real truth of it all is much harder to swallow
than the news story you heard)
Dec 23, 2013
Dec 23, 2013 at 9:43 PM UTC
This time of year impermeable black takes over luxurious afternoon.
I take stolen moments with my garden book;
fat glossy nostalgic roses can only depress me further.
Lonely for the company of my friends
thrumming in chlorophyll,
the warm green network is contained in a small *** that I move
I move around the room with me,
following a shallow puddle of sunlight so precious it might be gold.
Dec 23, 2013
Dec 23, 2013 at 9:32 PM UTC
Licking the foam off the inside of my coffee mug
I am sitting at the table working
and you can’t fathom what’s wrong with me
it feels like something other than blood is inside me
it makes me itchy all the time
and my heart concaves inside my plump chest
I am gasping at the air around me
and you ask me why I sigh so.
I feel alone wherever I go
Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 5:05 PM UTC
just so you know
i’m keeping a mistress
on the side
in the style of My Father
something inside me is constantly dissatisfied
Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 4:57 PM UTC
This morning I woke up to a circus runaway
He was sitting in the kitchen
of the house I share with three boys
he eyed me in my pajamas
He was sitting in the kitchen
basking in the light of the morning
he eyed me in my pajamas
He works for the circus that stopped in town
He is Evan’s second cousin once removed
I fried us eggs while everyone else slept
He missed the circus train to Atlanta
and needed a place to stay.
I fried us eggs while everyone else slept
We watched the dogs playing in the yard
he needed a place to stay
and put his feet up on the table
He told me stories about working at the circus
I’ve always had a lingering curiosity
he put his feet up on the table
and had a girlfriend waiting for him in Charlotte
This morning I woke up to a circus runaway
I made him breakfast and then he had to leave
for a few minutes he talked with Evan
about traveling (running again) to India
I’ve always had a lingering curiosity
he eyed me in my pajamas
he had a girlfriend waiting for him in Charlotte
I made him breakfast and then he had to leave
Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 4:54 PM UTC
it’s obnoxiously hard to identify
every year this time
I am in a depressed mood and I don’t
I don’t.
Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 4:52 PM UTC
Truthfully this is how it’s been
how it will be for a while
beer gut receding hairline
my grumpy artist man
buys me gin and Mexican food
and tucks me into bed at 3 when I can’t take it anymore
I don’t care how many times you forget
I’m your baby and I’ll be waiting
hating your guts
to kiss you at the door
Jan 16, 2013
Jan 16, 2013 at 1:07 AM UTC
You took me to the top of the highest hill,
nestled me in a Eucalyptus tree,
and laid the city out at my feet.
The view was unmatched
industrial beauty mixed in with the natural Earth.
The Bay in a pool underneath us;
the metal and stone of
city changing constantly.
You give me all the secret places
(in your city and in your heart).
In everything you’ve given me,
loving you has made me richer
than I’ll ever be again in my life.
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 12:32 AM UTC
You being gone is an excuse for my bad behavior.
My insides are all messed up.
I don’t sleep or eat the right things.
Taking pills to fix the little black holes in my system,
momentarily replace missing you with something else
deeply rooted beneath my sternum,
straining at the tendons of my neck.
You are my love and you are not here.
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 12:32 AM UTC
When I ripped off my fingerprint
it was an accident
at first
the new skin grows
from the center outward
and I grow into a new identity.
I sleep like there’s no tomorrow
and no yesterday
Oct 24, 2012
Oct 24, 2012 at 1:18 PM UTC