I don't know why, but I have this strange love for you. Why strange? I've never felt it before. It's not the possessive, jealous, intense love so many feel... And it is so strange... how fast this feeling sprung upon me.
I know you will understand this..
When I see you, I see your soul. I do not see your physical appearance, Instead, I see everything that you are.
And let me tell you... I am in love with your soul. And it's the most innocent genuine love one could possibly feel. You are such a free spirit.You are meant to go places, to see the world, and you're so confident in everything you do...
And I envy you.
I see this, and I love this about you. I want you to go and see every place you could dream of visiting, sharing your love for music and life with all you meet along the way. If you do this, I will miss you dearly, but I will be so happy for you... for you will truly be living. And living the life that you know with your heart you're meant to live.
Your mind and your heart and so pure; you have no cruel intentions,you love deeply and you are so kind. You are so caring that you let so many people become close to you.
And sometimes it's the wrong kind of person you get hurt...
But that doesn't stop your heart from caring deeply and longing for that sincerity in return.
Your imagination runs wild with all these thoughts in your head..They are so brilliant; when you speak you paint a picture with your words that is vast, bold, creative, and wonderful.Your mind is a beautiful thing. I have always had an appreciation for those who still poses the ability to see things with open minds, even into adulthood.
When I see you, I see your soul.
I do not see your physical appearance.
Instead, I see everything that you are.
And I love all that you are. Don't forget.
Jul 14, 2015
Jul 14, 2015 at 6:36 PM UTC
If I could be with you right now,
I'd look you in the eyes.
You'd never see the pain,
Because I'd cover it with lies.
If I could be with you right now,
I'd tell you something new,
Expressing how dumb you sound,
And how i'm so disappointed in you.
If I could be with you right now,
I'd punch you in the face,
I'd tell you you're a *****
I'd call you a disgrace.
Thankfully i'm not with you right now,
It's your lucky day,
You've pushed this beyond repair,
That's all i'm gonna say.
Dec 11, 2014
Dec 11, 2014 at 5:51 PM UTC
I blackout and I'm in my dream, I see a person only he's not what he seems... What?! only an outline, and no person to be?? I realize who it is and slowly start to weep... I put my hand where his is to be, and cautiously count to three. Then it comes to mind; an understanding I can now see... The reason of your absence, is simply because of me.
Dec 11, 2014
Dec 11, 2014 at 10:21 AM UTC
Your eyes,
Your lies,
You hypnotize.
But beneath your shell
Is a personal hell.
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 6:57 PM UTC
These past few days and nights you have been the only thing on my mind. I can't help but sit and wonder if your laughing when I am, and if you're smiling when I am (Also if your worrying when I am) . I miss your voice, and your smile.
And your eyes...
I would give anything to spend a whole day with you, just you and me. It's only been a day since I've looked into the eyes of my soul mate, but in my heart it feels as though its been so unbearably long. I sit and think of all the reasons why I love you and all my favorite memories with you and I get so happy. I am so glad to know I am not alone...
This is the first time someone has been willing to stand with me through tough times, and honestly just your support is so much help. Thank you, I love you and I appreciate everything you do, have done, and are willing to do for me. You are truly amazing and truly special; You are my favorite person on earth, and you are my best friend.
Love,
Me <3
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 12:15 PM UTC
I'm on the edge of breaking down,
I'm slowly, slowly dying.
My sister wont leave me alone,
And my parents caught me lying.
So here I am laying down,
I say a little prayer,
Lord help my hell of a life,
Help me not go there.
My life is so messed up right now,
If only I knew what to do…
I take my writings in my hands,
And slowly tear them in two.
Yes, I did the thing that hurts me most,
My passion is now in shreds,
I feel so alone here,
Sitting on my bed.
My pain slowly starts to show,
As tears roll down my face.
I quietly start to choke; for around my neck,
Is invisible, deadly lace.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 6:53 PM UTC
I don’t know why but it hurts more when the sting is coming from your lips.
Do you ever regret me?
When you look into my eyes do you see yourself?
Do you see your soul-mate’s eyes?
They’re the same shade of brown.
Does it make you feel big to make me feel little?
And do you mean what you say?
I feel Victimized by you.
And I feel like I try to outrun this storm but this tornado follows my every move;
Lashing it’s wrath at me every chance it gets..
Ruining everything in the process.
Did you know when you call me stupid I believe you?
And that sometimes I wait outside for what feels like hours,
Just to avoid any contact with you.
I’m scared to talk to you all the time because I never know which
“you” is going to respond..
I pray for peace amid the storm but sometimes it doesn’t come…
Then I break..
I go into a deep dark hole dug by your bare hands.
You help me in, it’s your pleasure…
What I never expected was to find a white dove at the bottom of this hole.
I send him to you in hopes he helps you find your way,
And I told him to tell you I love you…
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 12:21 PM UTC
waiting, enter, music
enter, music, fans
music, fans, dance
fans, dance, mosh
dance, mosh, break
mosh, break, band
break, band, leave
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 11:10 AM UTC
Today I awoke to the piercing sound of lightning striking a dead tree outside my window. I look out the window to see it has caught fire, and I wonder to myself how this violent downpour isn’t stopping this incandescence brightening my room. I step outside my house, and as I take my last steps down the porch, I plunge feet first into a pool of dark red blood. I keep walking.. Cold, tired, and scared. I can barely see through all the fog. Through squinted eyes I make out a dark figure sitting on the bench beneath my tree..and in his hand, a single red rose. As I inch closer to this man I notice he is tearing apart the rose, one petal at a time. With all the confidence in the world I walk up to this man and stand in front of him. He does not look up, in fact he keeps pulling the petals off, and as I observe my surroundings more I notice that when the petals hit the ground, instead of staying in their original form they turn into a small puddle of blood. This man only looks down, in fact my presence has absolutely no effect on him, like he can’t see me.. Ash falls onto both of us, but he does not move..I move on, drenched in blood, ash, and dirt, and rain.
In veils of black, nighttime screams in my face. I walk up a dirt road. Never before in my life have I felt so emotionless, so dead. Walking on this lonely dirt rode I stumble upon a graveyard. I can barely see the top of the headstones over the fog caused from the cold. I walk throughout the graveyard, and wonder why it seems so familiar. I take a better glance at the headstones; I see many names of people close to me. The feeling of being alone hits me like a ton of bricks, but I do not weep for these people. I just keep on my journey and do not look back.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 11:03 AM UTC
Pierced through the heart,
An arrow from you,
Hypnotized by those things you do.
Drowning in love,
I gasp for air,
You tell me you love me,
You say that you care.
I grip my chest,
To hold my heart,
With you our love will never part.
I take my heart,
Hand it to you,
I say baby I love you.
Do to it what you want..
But break this poor heart is one thing you cannot.
She gets a tear in her eye,
And says baby id never try.
We kiss and we hug for over an hour,
But to hold this love takes a stronger power,
It takes the power of life that we cannot chose,
The one thing so easy to lose.
I looked at her as she fell to the floor,
Pushing my body into the door,
Breaking down with so much pain,
Now that shes gone there's no more to gain.
What to do and where to go?
When the river of love can no longer flow.
Laying in my bed sad and sorrow,
Knowing I wont see her tomorrow.
I wear a smile to hide the pain,
How life will never be the same.
Without her my hearts not whole,
Now all is left is her body, without a soul.
The next morning I wake up to the crack of dawn,
Burst into tears knowing my one true love is forever gone.
Now that i'm empty i'm dead too,
there's not really much left for me to do.
my life was based on her life..
the only one who could be my wife.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 10:54 AM UTC