I’ve loved satin and lace for a long time, yet believed I was too rugged to enjoy such luxury. That being draped by something that feels like butter on a porcelain vase desecrates its sanctity. I was never meant for such grandeur, as I am made of stone. Coarse, menacing, and hard. Such gentleness doesn’t befit an ever-destructive chaos. I was a whirlwind romance, a cacophony of squawking ravens and crows, a relentless repetition of echoes in the caving mountains, a disastrous flair in an illicit affair. A damsel and the prince, the one who saves her own soul from eternal damnation. Yet. I was taught softness once. How I can be a gentle breeze from the northerlies, like a lily pad floating on a laminar stream, or a dandelion fluttering in the breeze. But this softness was robbed. From me, from everything else. Returning me to the state I came to hate the most, to shy away from, to loathe and bury like a cadaver that reeked of nothing but ill intent. Which made me realize that this time there was no turning back, that I was calloused now, permanently. Transforming a learning heart into a plethora of evil and demise. A gatherer of sorrows, a charmer of guilt. A benign tumor, a tactless joke. What’s harder is that there’s no clear road to return.
Jun 19, 2025
Jun 19, 2025 at 4:52 AM UTC
Will hellfire breathe amongst the icy glaciers, igniting the frozen pits of my flesh? If hell hath all women scorned, will it also unleash the reigned beast I had tamed inside? With every glisten of sweat and profound lines etched on his skin, will it grip my soul into an enchanting dance?
I believe that it would, it may, and it can. In a tumultuous feat, I'd be close to something spectacular. Would heaven's gates hate on me, and will the angels shun my presence for longing such a guilty desire? They might, and I know they will.
Mar 5, 2025
Mar 5, 2025 at 11:40 AM UTC
i saw you smile today
and it braided a heart that's frayed;
leaving stronger feelings i can't tame
no one else but you to blame
i felt you skin to skin today
it sent electric touches down my spine;
like reading a novel's plot twist line
one where both characters stayed
i got to kiss you today
it resembled comets touching atmospheres;
something that can move you to tears
and i loved catching some strays
i got to hold your hand today
and it was like my lifeline;
i don't know how and i don't know why
but it hitched my breath; oh too sublime
Mar 5, 2025
Mar 5, 2025 at 11:30 AM UTC
in his breath i heard trails of promise,
of comets and stars,
date nights with kisses,
of hurt and scars
in his breath i learned to draw,
a sword of defense,
arrows of offense,
and bled and gained flaw;
in his breath i had known,
the lies to be thrown,
the damage to be made.
and the swing of my blade.
Feb 25, 2024
Feb 25, 2024 at 5:47 AM UTC
i lost faith when i lost you
coffee seemed too bitter than it was
the air's dirtier than it is—
or maybe i am unknowingly suffocating
i don't know;
but, i lost faith when i lost you
reeked of nothing but sadness
known no light at the end of the tunnel
and lost me when i lost you
Feb 25, 2024
Feb 25, 2024 at 5:39 AM UTC
i ache in areas i didn't know could feel pain
like a stepped on leaf—brought by disdain
i bleed in crevices i thought i had fixed;
but my body seems to deny the remedies —it ditched
the cries;
the laughter,
the shattering thunder
makes my heart unnaturally falter
the heaviness;
the rage,
the unforgiving phase,
the me you cannot replace
the heave and squeal,
the dying of zeal,
the red as it shed—
and the blue once its dead.
Jun 22, 2023
Jun 22, 2023 at 11:08 PM UTC
i dreamt once to be swept away
by love like waves; set astray
feelings loose like golden sand
by every sweep of someone's hand
yet when it came---
it felt like troubled waters
chaotic but full of wonders
then I began to ponder,
love is like tidal waves,
larger than shallow tides
nothing like a little light---
but something that gives a sunburned heart.
Jul 10, 2022
Jul 10, 2022 at 9:12 PM UTC
i remember the embers dying,
the chest that felt the sting,
the wound that kept on aching,
the silence between rivers of thought; tempting to sing.
it hums, it buzzes
as my mind right there fuzzes---
blank--- black
what the hell was that?
everything turned gray
then rainbows, then rain
followed by a strong
h u r r i c a n e
i twirled, buzzed
fiddled and dozed
a lot more of nothing
until it became everything
the silence grew loud
i wanted to get out
its fingers--- no claws
crawled, until there was jaws
i screamed, but screaming was painful
it burned me, until i was put out.
Feb 4, 2022
Feb 4, 2022 at 6:21 AM UTC
I was chaos in delicate lace,
in satin and taffeta; a pretty face
what they see is what I let
a peek behind; they may regret.
I was chaos in delicate lace,
with smiles charming--- tears no trace
lips with chapstick; smudge on side
nothing but a breathless ride.
I was chaos in delicate lace,
disarray with class and taste
I reek of Chanel and all things sweet,
nothing but a foul treat.
I was chaos in delicate lace,
only but a pretty face
a troubled heart and restless mind,
a woman whose love is always blind.
Oct 15, 2020
Oct 15, 2020 at 11:32 AM UTC
the stillness of the night iginited thee
the fire beneath thy skin
a phoenix above the frosty sea
an agenda hiding within
May 3, 2020
May 3, 2020 at 8:52 PM UTC