michelle-m-diaz - Hello Poetry

Ever since I was a child, I was always afraid of the dark the totally normal fear of goblins and ghosts lurking in the dark but as I grew up, the fear shifted it was no longer fear of the monsters outside my room, but the fear of the monster within once the fear increased, the darkness inside increased until I was consumed now I've never been one for hope, but **** the all powerful God is alive He saw where I was, Loved me where I was, and freed me now I live without fear I live without darkness I live in the Light and man can I tell you, the light kicks darkness' *** anytime anywhere

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Jul 31, 2015

Jul 31, 2015 at 5:08 PM UTC

dark to light

Ever since I was a child, I was always afraid of the dark the totally normal fear of goblins and ghosts lurking in the dark but as I grew up, the fear shifted it was no longer fear of the monsters outside my room, but the fear of the monster within once the fear increased, the darkness inside increased until I was consumed now I've never been one for hope, but **** the all powerful God is alive He saw where I was, Loved me where I was, and freed me now I live without fear I live without darkness I live in the Light and man can I tell you, the light kicks darkness' *** anytime anywhere

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It's how slowly the darkness takes over that I think is why no one notices It's little small things I stop doing over a period of weeks that it somehow becomes an integrated part of me. That's why they don't notice my blank state, my sad tired lifeless eyes, my unwillingness to participate in conversation. If it all happened at once that's a different story, that's when people notice. This is why when I break down, it goes unnoticed. Even by me.

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May 2, 2015

May 2, 2015 at 4:16 PM UTC

Why they don't notice

It's how slowly the darkness takes over that I think is why no one notices It's little small things I stop doing over a period of weeks that it somehow becomes an integrated part of me. That's why they don't notice my blank state, my sad tired lifeless eyes, my unwillingness to participate in conversation. If it all happened at once that's a different story, that's when people notice. This is why when I break down, it goes unnoticed. Even by me.

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I want to run I want to hide I want to disappear I can't do this again I can't deal with this kind of torture anymore So I wish I could leave Or that I could stop existing Or that I could stop being dependent on you so that I don't have to deal with this again. I just want it all to stop! Just stop Please

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Mar 9, 2015

Mar 9, 2015 at 1:51 AM UTC

Please, don't do this again.

I want to run I want to hide I want to disappear I can't do this again I can't deal with this kind of torture anymore So I wish I could leave Or that I could stop existing Or that I could stop being dependent on you so that I don't have to deal with this again. I just want it all to stop! Just stop Please

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When I was younger, my mom always told me these fairytales Even if she hadn't, I would've still known them the basic plot of almost every fairytale is this Miserable young girl, maybe already princess, maybe hidden princess whatever Prince charming comes and whisks her away to a better life somehow he always finds the princess, as if he knew who it was all along She was in distress, he saved her, happily ever after but what happens if you wait too long for the prince and nothing ever gets solved. What if you're stuck right where you are, with nothing changing unless you change it yourself. What if Prince Charming comes, see how messed up everything is and doesn't know how to fix it. What if Prince is a ******* Then what? Your left there ******* with the ******* "Prince Charming", who doesn't know all you've been through or how to even help besides taking you away to the big stupid castle. I'd rather take the time and effort to save myself than fight those odds. I'd rather get my crap together and do the rescuing myself thank you very much. Does that mean I won't end up with a happy ending? NO! I refuse to believe that if I don't play little miss pathetic that I won't be happy! I refuse! That isn't how the world was made that's why the world isn't a ******* fairytale so I refuse to be saved. If some ******* ******* prince thinks he can save me he's in for a surprise. I don't need to be saved.

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Mar 3, 2015

Mar 3, 2015 at 9:49 AM UTC

Don't need to be saved.

When I was younger, my mom always told me these fairytales Even if she hadn't, I would've still known them the basic plot of almost every fairytale is this Miserable young girl, maybe already princess, maybe hidden princess whatever Prince charming comes and whisks her away to a better life somehow he always finds the princess, as if he knew who it was all along She was in distress, he saved her, happily ever after but what happens if you wait too long for the prince and nothing ever gets solved. What if you're stuck right where you are, with nothing changing unless you change it yourself. What if Prince Charming comes, see how messed up everything is and doesn't know how to fix it. What if Prince is a ******* Then what? Your left there ******* with the ******* "Prince Charming", who doesn't know all you've been through or how to even help besides taking you away to the big stupid castle. I'd rather take the time and effort to save myself than fight those odds. I'd rather get my crap together and do the rescuing myself thank you very much. Does that mean I won't end up with a happy ending? NO! I refuse to believe that if I don't play little miss pathetic that I won't be happy! I refuse! That isn't how the world was made that's why the world isn't a ******* fairytale so I refuse to be saved. If some ******* ******* prince thinks he can save me he's in for a surprise. I don't need to be saved.

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Money makes the world go round if you don't have enough, debt gets pilled on if you have too much, your spending goes crazy just the right amount and your stable but it seems more and more people don't have enough money makes the world go round but will there ever be peace? When will everyone have food on their table? When will everyone be able to support their families? When will the world finally learn the money can't possibly make the world go round? Such an unstable business, money is yet we all need it to survive. It drives people mad People get greedy people get needy people don't need money they need love they need to work hard they need to eat they need to survive

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Jan 20, 2015

Jan 20, 2015 at 10:54 AM UTC

Money makes the world go round

Money makes the world go round if you don't have enough, debt gets pilled on if you have too much, your spending goes crazy just the right amount and your stable but it seems more and more people don't have enough money makes the world go round but will there ever be peace? When will everyone have food on their table? When will everyone be able to support their families? When will the world finally learn the money can't possibly make the world go round? Such an unstable business, money is yet we all need it to survive. It drives people mad People get greedy people get needy people don't need money they need love they need to work hard they need to eat they need to survive

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It seems that no matter what I do, I always come back to this. Like an oncoming freight train this sadness and anxiety hit me with so much force it's like I can barely breathe. Bang! Crash! Boom! All at once! Pill after Pill after Pill, never missing a dose and yet, somehow it all comes rushing back. Making me want to sleep through days again, spend days not eating again, not talking to anyone, becoming like a wall again. I don't want to. I do. I don't. This constant struggle between my sanity and insanity. I can't get bad again, I need to keep fighting, but how sweet it would feel to just stop. I'm so tired. StOp reason kicks in again, I wasn't happy depressed, I was depressed for ***** sake. I need to keep fighting this. I will keep fighting this. I need to keep fighting this. I need to.

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Oct 27, 2014

Oct 27, 2014 at 7:08 PM UTC

Battle between sanity and insanity

It seems that no matter what I do, I always come back to this. Like an oncoming freight train this sadness and anxiety hit me with so much force it's like I can barely breathe. Bang! Crash! Boom! All at once! Pill after Pill after Pill, never missing a dose and yet, somehow it all comes rushing back. Making me want to sleep through days again, spend days not eating again, not talking to anyone, becoming like a wall again. I don't want to. I do. I don't. This constant struggle between my sanity and insanity. I can't get bad again, I need to keep fighting, but how sweet it would feel to just stop. I'm so tired. StOp reason kicks in again, I wasn't happy depressed, I was depressed for ***** sake. I need to keep fighting this. I will keep fighting this. I need to keep fighting this. I need to.

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I remember how you used to look at me with a smile on your lips and your eyes lit up ... I remember how you used to hug me tightly, your arms wrapped around me so warm were your arms so inviting your scent .... I remember how we used to talk everyday, non-stop for hours and hours about everything and nothing you were my best friend ..... I remember how we kissed the warmth of your lips pressed against mine how I knew exactly what to do, what to say, to get you to want to kiss me .... I miss you, but we can't be that close anymore you claim I was too mean, maybe you just lost interest in me Why would I be mean to the one who was mine? but that was months ago, now You're moving away, and I was mean today to you to mask my pain I don't want you to leave, but I can't stand the thought of you with anyone else ..... I thought I got over you months ago, and yet your on my mind I guess I just remember too much maybe I should forget

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Sep 6, 2014

Sep 6, 2014 at 3:03 AM UTC

I remember

I remember how you used to look at me with a smile on your lips and your eyes lit up ... I remember how you used to hug me tightly, your arms wrapped around me so warm were your arms so inviting your scent .... I remember how we used to talk everyday, non-stop for hours and hours about everything and nothing you were my best friend ..... I remember how we kissed the warmth of your lips pressed against mine how I knew exactly what to do, what to say, to get you to want to kiss me .... I miss you, but we can't be that close anymore you claim I was too mean, maybe you just lost interest in me Why would I be mean to the one who was mine? but that was months ago, now You're moving away, and I was mean today to you to mask my pain I don't want you to leave, but I can't stand the thought of you with anyone else ..... I thought I got over you months ago, and yet your on my mind I guess I just remember too much maybe I should forget

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I run, hide, and disappear you stay, fight and rule

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Aug 6, 2014

Aug 6, 2014 at 6:13 PM UTC

us

I run, hide, and disappear you stay, fight and rule

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I'm stuck in a place that never changes never changes, never evolves, never ending ending would mean different different would mean change change would be scary scary would be brave brave and exciting exciting and new new like a beginning beginning like a story a story of never ending adventure never ending adventure would mean going going means soon to be gone gone from this place this place that never changes never changes, dang I wanna do something new.

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Jul 26, 2014

Jul 26, 2014 at 5:49 PM UTC

I'm stuck

I'm stuck in a place that never changes never changes, never evolves, never ending ending would mean different different would mean change change would be scary scary would be brave brave and exciting exciting and new new like a beginning beginning like a story a story of never ending adventure never ending adventure would mean going going means soon to be gone gone from this place this place that never changes never changes, dang I wanna do something new.

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I'm alone in a room full of people While everyone laughs, all I think about is how I don't belong When I talk to you, like really talk to you, just you, I'm fine everything's dandy, in fact, its the only version of me that's worth being I wonder how you do it, how you make me feel like i'm worth it I guess that's what best friends are for Talking to you makes me feel special so thank you thank you for putting up with me thank you for helping me thank you for talking to me thank you for being you

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Jul 26, 2014

Jul 26, 2014 at 5:36 PM UTC

For my friend

I'm alone in a room full of people While everyone laughs, all I think about is how I don't belong When I talk to you, like really talk to you, just you, I'm fine everything's dandy, in fact, its the only version of me that's worth being I wonder how you do it, how you make me feel like i'm worth it I guess that's what best friends are for Talking to you makes me feel special so thank you thank you for putting up with me thank you for helping me thank you for talking to me thank you for being you

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