I have been malice
And solace
In waiting
And Alice
In wonderlands
Chained
To degrading
Expectant
Intelligences
Rival mine
When the mind itself
Woefully flawed by design
And confined
To this portal
This palace
This prison
I live for
The study
The practice
The vision
And pupils
Stare back
Most transfixed
On my visage
My steady pen hand
Now command me your wishes
1d ago
Jun 1, 2026 at 11:32 PM UTC
Not just fights
And mistakes
It all culminates
Patterns
Recurring
Injurious
Then it all shatters
In one fragile moment
You make it
Or break it
And wake with the fallout
No choice
But forsake it
And losing identity
Parts
To unfold
And it starts to bore holes
In your desolate soul
And you cannot let go
But you have to move on
Can’t get out of your head
Her reverberant song
As the ego dies slowly
In psyche toxicity
Vows rely solely
On caustic duplicity
All it was ever built on
Ancient history
5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 2:02 AM UTC
Thought that I’d write you
A letter
Worth reading
How much I desired
Once felt
More like needing
But this
In your absence
Is fleetingly
Scary
At times overwhelming
How much I must
Bury
Away with you
Visions
Of happier days
All the ways
I once loved you
Now seem like cliches
For the truth is
My ruthless
Pursuit
Of companionship
Leaves me no choice
But abruptly
Abandon ship
When we’ve been taking on water
Two years
Sinking deeper and deeper
In missing you fears
But we’re here now
Resurfaced
To come up for air
Breathe a sigh of relief
We’ll be better elsewhere
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 2:56 AM UTC
None to turn to
None to talk to
None to burn
What’s left
And walk you
Like a dog
A pet
Used up
Regret
Alone
With memories
To forget
As so much withering
Awaits
And dread itself
Anticipates
A feast of thinning
Grinning
Cries
The shrieking silent
Last goodbyes
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 1:55 AM UTC
Sharpen the focus
No more hocus pocus
Revisit no longer
The spellbinds
That broke us
And choked us out
Falling in
Out of love
Weeping
In separate heads’
Separate dreads
Separate beds
Sleeping
May 25
May 25, 2026 at 1:40 AM UTC
This is how
Two adults
End things
And step
Into next days
And fading away’s
Course correct
With regret
Ever present
But minimized
Fallout
And plenty belongings
To parse through
And haul out
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 4:13 AM UTC
Drag me around
Beat me down
Keep me waiting
Then push me to limits
Of love becomes
Hating
This broken
Dysfunctional
Family
Fading
So far from its
Phantasmagorically
Dating
Why can’t it just stay this way
Painless
And free
Should we wake
From the every
Daily
Reverie
To heartache
Or misplaced faith
In trust
It goes on
Not a place I could face
Couldn’t hide
Nor belong
If whatever goes wrong
As disparities mount
As each penny
And nickel
And dime
We could count
Doesn’t seem to add up
To an equal desire
What once felt forever
Is set to expire
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 1:26 AM UTC
Don’t know if these words
Ever meant
A **** thing
Held accountable
Actions
Had more of a ring
And they’d sing
To each other
On special occasion
But eerily rare
Serenades of temptation
Beguiled at times by
The lure of lust
Sirens
Can’t drown out
Your muses now
Even in silence
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 12:35 AM UTC
When it’s happiness
Misery
Under one roof
Does it start to seem
Unhealthiness
Is the truth
And the rest is pretentious
Performative art
For familial love
Still
Burns as bright
In the heart
But I broke yours
And kept crushing shattered
Bits smaller
By echoes of some distant
Fantasy caller
But falling for no one else
Faltering
Not
For a second
Devotion
Or vow I forgot
Momentarily
Meant
More than words spoke aloud
But by actions that happened
To be
Written down
Pulled you down
And then deeper
Into
“I can’t lose you”
We start to play
Interdependencies
Cannot refuse you
Emotional
Beneficence
Of the doubt
That we could go without
A more photo filled phone
That without this
Imperfectly
Picturesque
Home
If the solace
We still grant each other’s
Proximity
Still
Not enough
In its total sublimity
Happiness
Misery
Both every day
It’s exhausting
And costing us
Precious
Compassion
What passions
We once
Wore on sleeves
Out of fashion
And clashing into
The same
Impasses
Reaching
Conclusions
Again and again
Oversleeping
On this is my life
This is yours
Make them separate
Detach
And decouple
Hope not
To regret it
This happiness/misery
Marriage we’re sharing
Until the last day
We both stop
Even caring
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 5:11 PM UTC
I’ll look over
And see you
No longer there waking
But still feel your presence
Without its
Embracing
Just taking
Its unmaking toll
On my soul
With at least in part
Playing
An integral role
In its unfulfilled whole
Undeserving
Unworthiness
Constantly vying
To prove its
Subservience
First and primarily
Foremost
Sincerely
Yours still
Unconditionally
I most dearly
Have held in my
Frantically typing you
Digits
And digital fidgets
Between weekly visits
To somehow becoming
Four years
Of you here
In the flesh
In the form
Every morning
Appear
At my side
As my bride
As my wife
As my life
As my balm
As my psalm
As my calm
Through the strife
Through the whirlwind
Goodbyes
Through uneasy
Goodnights
But I likened your worth
To some object of mirth
And it made you feel
Less than
A pile of dirt
And immersed me
In all of your hurt
And your scorn
And lamenting mistakes
Wished I’d never been born
To be sitting here
Watching it all
Fade away
Dreading unto the last
Pointless word
I could say
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 1:34 AM UTC