Stuck in between the lies and truth...this is where I wait for you.
Life spinning uncontrollably I sink...gasping for air I fight with no clue.
Things go by so fast adapting to them seems...impossible.
I fight with all my might but my opponent is intangible.
Left and right I look but there's no one insight
I stumble as I run for I fear that there is no light.
I'm plagued with these feelings of fear and doubt
That I may not be the man I'm expected to be.
No that can't be it, how can one expect the unexpected?
How can one walk on a path knowing that is it?
That this path is what they are meant to be
That this path will set them free
That this path will surely guide their souls
and let them be
Free.
For what is freedom if we can not
speak
For what is freedom if we can not
see
For what is freedom if we can not
feel
For what is freedom if there is no
Truth.
Sep 14, 2012
Sep 14, 2012 at 12:45 AM UTC
Running through the checklist of things to do I can’t help but feel overwhelmed.
A breathe of fresh air is what I crave;
I’m lost for wards for what I have discovered; I tried so hard to be the role model.
Venting is not enough.
Engaging in this forbidden dance was something I couldn’t see you doing till you were older.
No were to go, no were to hide;
Even though I hold you so dear to my heart this action has ripped the death grip I had.
Loneliness became a friend;
Lingering is nothing but the old memories of what was the good you and now I just see hypocrisy.
It drew me in ever so close.
Stupid: how could you be so stupid? All these lessons I tried teaching you for nothing!
My heart was so big;
It’s like I’ve wasted part of my life on you and I can never get it back, I struggle with this.
Chanting in the name of love.
How can I accept you when the feelings I have are twisted just like your words to me?
Aroused by the thought of being loved;
Ever mess up you were there to make me regret it, yet your actions are exactly the opposite of your words.
Love never felt so cold.
Staring into your eyes make me hate you; I resent the connection we have, but I can’t let go.
Imagining there’s light at the end;
Severing the ties is not enough to make me forget you; our bond is too strong to do that.
This pain is too much.
Every memory of you is forever engraved on my heart, but I don’t want them just a new heart.
Rest in peace;
Awaiting for a new start seems impossible after everything you have put us through.
Never again will I fall.
Drowning us with your overdramatic way has forced us to grow up faster then before.
But I hold on to hope;
Running away from everything is your downfall; you call me immature but really you’re looking in a mirror.
Over the times of deceit.
The mirror you fail to look at because you’re too afraid to see yourself for yourself.
Holding on to whats left;
Examine what your actions have brought onto us but too afraid to accept the consequences.
Running of empty words.
Now look at this situation we’re in and tell me that you are being mature about it when all you do is run.
Outsmarting the twisted thoughts;
Must you go on living this way I do not want any part of me to be involved with you.
Outwitting the tricky games;
Really look deep in your heart and feel the pain I feel and then walk a mile in my shoes and you’ll see.
Ending the lies, hurt, and struggle with just one breathe...
Aug 22, 2012
Aug 22, 2012 at 10:16 PM UTC
Would you share a moment with me, over some herbal tea?
Take a walk verbally, make a bond certainly cause’ in my
hand I bet your hand would fit perfectly. Its like we floatin in
space when you flirtin with me, can’t believe the moments we
have, don’t wanna move to quick, but honey without you I’d
be sick. I’m saying this from the heart best believe it from
the start, with you in mah life, I wanna make you mah wife.
Don’t think just react it makes it easier in fact, you look
better with no make up on I hope you don’t take it wrong.
When the sun sets upon your eyes, your beauty becomes
disguised hidden in between the feelings of lust and love, I
can fall for you with just one shove. Getting swallowed in the
waves of commotions I can’t help to feel these emotions, I get
lost for for words tryin to describe your curves. Not in a sleezy
way because I like how gentleman play, not in such a style to drive
these ladies wild, but with such manner and bliss he plants one kiss.
Upon the lips of beautiful lady who isn’t so shady, upon the woman
with class which any man shouldn’t pass, upon the one with the big
dreams which have no seems. With just one kiss he knows he can’t
miss, the love of his life that will soon be his wife.
Mar 6, 2012
Mar 6, 2012 at 6:03 AM UTC
This is the one and only time
where Im gonna bust a rhyme,
about things that make me smile
so you might be here for awhile.
This might be lame, but soon I
will reveal the one to blame. One
thing that brings out these pearly whites,
are seeing you in those tights. This isn't
for anyone particular, so don't think of some
one familiar. Bright colors never seem to fail
to put my smile on trial, but just because I like bright
colors doesn't mean i'm gay so that thought can hit
the hay. Music makes the world go round and round,
but music keeps me strapped to the ground. Girls seem
to drive my heart into a frenzy, but real women tend to
make this heart stir crazy. I might write more stuff like this
later so for now you can be a hater. Just writing some things
down that make me smile, but next time would you join me
for awhile?
Mar 1, 2012
Mar 1, 2012 at 12:54 AM UTC
Time and time again he fails to please you
You tell yourself not again but again seems to happen
Why must you go back?
Is it his smile?
Charm?
Looks?
Personality?
I don't see what you see in him
All is see is lies
cheats
and
games
Am I too blind to see
You come to me for advice
an it pains me to see you like this
I try hard not to give you a biased reply
but how can't I when I see the tears
But no matter what I'll be here till the end
Supporting you in everything you do
Here to catch you when you fall
Here to wipe every tear
Here for ever fear
Until the end
I'm here for
you
Feb 14, 2012
Feb 14, 2012 at 2:27 AM UTC
I once
Lost myself for you
Out on a limb reaching for you
Viscously fought for your attention
Expecting the worse hoping for the best
Didn't expect what you brought to the table
You walked right through me
Over my heart and through the forest you went
Used me like a love song
I once
Made you my all
I knew better
Shame on me
Shame on you
Everyone knew
Didn't see it coming
Yelling for closure
Outsmarted by your games
Utterly humiliated
I once
Forgot how to live
Evenings alone
Lusted for onces touch
Told myself never again
Alive in the midst of death
Living of the old memories
Inviting the reaper in for a cup
Victory wasn't an option anymore
Everlasting joy swallowed in darkness
Dec 27, 2011
Dec 27, 2011 at 5:02 AM UTC
Walking down the cold streets of memory lane
The warmth slipped through my hands
I couldn't help to know that I was the one to blame
as I fumbled around for your touch.
ThingsrushedbysofastIdidnthavetimeto t h i n k
Blinded by once was I took a wrong step
You disappeared from me with one blink
into the torment of a cold...cold..cold heart.
Echoes of the past come to strangle the ghost of you
A heart so cold only the brave one can bare
Lost and confused I waited for the final cue
the sick torments it has within waiting to pounce.
Walking down the cold streets of memory lane
One day oh cold heart I'll be the brave one for you
Always seems to bring the greatest pain
but until then I'll be the warmth she needs.
Dec 23, 2011
Dec 23, 2011 at 11:19 PM UTC
Head up to the sky
the street lights feel like eyes
Eyes of the past, present, and future
Memories of love, hate, and regrets
because I was too shy
To shy to make things last, stay, and proceed
Feelings of happiness, sorrow, and pain
rush through my veins
The same very veins that carried blood to my cold heart
The heart that once was whole, happy, and big
is not broken, sad, and tiny
You see it wasn't someone who made my heart the way it was
it was the experiences that it went through
I've only been alive for nineteen years,
but I feel like I've been living for eighty
We all go through our temptations and trials
some conquered some failed, but what really
matters is that we are alive and we can keep our
heads up to the sky
Dec 13, 2011
Dec 13, 2011 at 1:51 PM UTC
When you see me
You see a peaceful joyful soul
When you see me
You see smiles and happiness
When you see me
You see a strong cheerful young man
When you see me
Yon don't see me like I see me
rorrim gnikool a otni kool I nehW
niap hguorht neeb esohw yob a ees I
rorrim gnikool a onti kool I nehW
ytitnedi on sah ohw nam gnuoy a ees I
rorrim gnikool a onti kool I nehW
eb ll'I yas elpoep nam eht ees t'nod I
rorrim gnikool a onti kool I nehW
erutuf on htiw eruliaf a ees I
When you see me
You don't see the real vulnerable
Me.
Dec 11, 2011
Dec 11, 2011 at 5:56 PM UTC
I've been in this for too long I
don't know what has me stuck
on this song. My head keeps
on tellin me to go for it show
her that you can make it rain,
but my heart is screamin' please
please I don't know how long I can
handle your pain!
What to do, what to do?
The truth hurts but the lies
only heal this open wound.
On one hand I see pain and
strife, but on the other I see
a new happy life. I know whats
good for me and I know what its
gonna take to set me free. I just
can't do it.
You might be thinkin' "What the
hell is this ***** doin? I can feel
your pain by just readin your words.
Why stay and keep on loosin?" I'll tell
you why I stay. I'm too stupid to lead
my feelins astray. When I go for some
thin, I bring all my being into it. I hold
nothin back not willin to quit.
It may **** me in the end, but in the end
I know i was the one who tried to make
things blend. You see. I come to you
writing this poem not for a specific person.
I don't need someone jumpin to a conclusion
and turning this into a car collision.
Time heals all, but this heart has been up and
down way to many walls...Its time to open up
a new page in this story and this chapter will
be labled Untitled.
Dec 11, 2011
Dec 11, 2011 at 2:53 AM UTC